Clay Higgens (Republican), seen here solemnly swearing to rape as many children as possible, voted to protect pedophiles. He should be treated exactly as that deserves. #fuckrepublicans

Stay aware. Do not just let it happen. They will not stop on their own. They must BE stopped. #fuckice stopice.net

I won't say what movie this is from because it's current. No spoilers. But in the flick, there's a room that can show you a death, yours or someone else's. How, but not when. "It's the waiting." he said. "That's the hard part." --- I've seen my death. Now I wait. And that's surprisingly hard.

"It's not nice being scared alone." ~ Joe, in Civil War (2024)

I listen to some German language podcasts. I recently heard an ad for a videogame, Battlefield 6. Six in German is pronounced 'sechs' or 'sex' and I couldn't stop snickering like a 5th-grader.

It's cold tonight, and I love it. I have a good sleeping bag, two military wool blankets, a good blade and a .45 for the thieves. I am as snug and comfortable as it's possible to be without four walls. I listen to the wind in the bushes and trees around me. Winter > Summer. V V V #homeless

I'm gonna put a big'ol "Told Ya So" on this one. NEVER trust a Republican. Never. If they say 'Water is wet.' you better go check for yourself.

For those keeping score here's how it breaks down: If you drive a Tesla, it better be an OLD-ass Tesla. Like, 15 years. You get a tiny bit of grace for that. If it's a new one, you're a Nazi sympathizing asshole, AT BEST. If it's a Cybertruck, you fail. You are a douche-canoe, Nazi fck.

I've thrown a few things in my day, but I've never thrown an actual Molotov cocktail. ... I feel like my life is incomplete.

Was served-up an ad online for a pneumatic-jack from Temu. I don't know about you all, but I'm not climbing under a car propped up on anything from Temu. ... And that's coming from me, who is legitimately suicidal.

"Beating tired bones Tripping through remember when Once invincible Now the armor's wearing thin Heavy shield down Warrior Strugglin' To remain Relevant Warrior Strugglin' To remain Consequential Cry aloud, bold and proud Of where I've been But here I am Where I end" ~ Invincible by TOOL

I'm really sick of this trope of sanitizing someone's past just because they are dead. If a horrible person dies, they don't become a good person all of a sudden. Stop doing that.

Just when you thought they couldn't be any more STUPID-looking.... "I know what, let's make sure everyone can see how angular and idiotic our rich-person toy looks!" Fckin Nazis.... #fucktesla

What if? ...those of us who choose to destroy the shell and move on deliberately... ...we're the only ones who get to evolve? #suicide

Nick Fuentes deserves a visit from a videogame plumber.

I'm afraid to turn my phone off. When I do, and before I can get to sleep, all of the things that are being kept distracted will rise up looking for something to kill. And I'm the only thing here for them to find. #suicide

"If the pain goes on I'm not gonna make it." ~ Duality by Slipknot

The #EpsteinBallroom construction isn't expected to be done until 2029. Think about that. It isn't going to be done until after his term. That means he is NOT planning on leaving. He is not building this horror so he can NOT use it. He will not leave peacefully. It will require force. Get ready.

The QAnon Shaman's lawsuit. This is just as unhinged as you think it is. -- Hey MAGA, you can have him. pca.st/episode/f10c...

No one is listening. I'm amazed to see some of the names that follow me. But it's empty. They don't see a single word I have to say. It's just numbers in this BS game. I'll post something on my last day. It'll be too late to help then, but it'll be a kind-of suicide note I suppose.

The people lying to us, destroying buildings, obliterating the economy, and terrorizing cities... ...They all have names and addresses too.

It's not like this is a movie, or a book, or a story. There's nothing that says there has to be a nice wrapped-up ending. There's nothing that says I have to get a good ending. It will be messy and unsatisfying. Nothing "right" or "fair". Nature is messy. It made me this way. #suicide

Should one do something that will make their life worse for the ephemeral possibility that it will ever get better? Or, as it very much seems, do things just keep getting worse with no reprieve?

This frantic, wailing tone is what my brain feels like today. Like banshees trying to tell me something. music.youtube.com/watch?v=f6QF...

I think it's both amazing and terrifying how incredibly very little you matter in the universe, in your galaxy, in your star system, on your planet, on your continent, in your country, in your city, in your community... My death is not going to matter.

"So give me something beautiful. Give me something else. I need another miracle. I need some fucking help." ~ Miracle, by Bad Omens

"Why are we going on this way? Why do we play these games in vain? Nothing's gonna break it down and build us back again." ~ Black Is The Soul, by KORN

I'm about 1700 miles from the only place I would want to call "home" anymore. On a conservative estimate it'll take about $600 to get there. I don't have that much cash. Looks like even that small comfort is going to be too much to ask...

How do I survive? The deadline is fast approaching. I don't see any way out. It's probably time for acceptance, and spending my last hours doing something that I like. I think I need to see how much cash is left and set off on a road trip to my favorite place. #suicide

I like to imagine that my stuffed bear (and my stuffed cats and my stuffed donkey) fight for me in my sleep. But I'm sorry guys, this one is probably too big for all of us. youtu.be/hYMmUoqi2rs #suicide #depression #darkness

Why is what's killing me any different from cancer? Because it's "all in my head"? I can't afford a doctor. Physical or otherwise. It's still going to kill me. The difference is that I will be blamed. This will be "my fault" because I am weak and cowardly I "didn't try hard enough".

I wish I were the type of person who could just beg for money, but I'm not. I don't know anyone that I can ask for help. No one. And I will die of that.

This morning was so bad. 2hrs of just "why should I keep breathing right now?" I don't want to go to sleep tonight. It'll just be more of the same. #suicide

"Keep holdin' on when my brain's tickin' like a bomb. Guess the black thoughts have come again to get me." ~ Coming Undone, by KORN

If one truly has nothing left to lose, doesn't that mean that one is truly free to do anything? What do you do with that? #suicide

Reminder for everyone at the protests: If it's a cop, Shut The Fck Up.

"My bones feel like stone and I know when the game is up. It's obvious the universe is trying to tell me to let go. [...] I see no other way." ~ Rennen, by SOHN #suicide

The btch of it all is that I WOULD keep going, if I only had the money to do so. It's just all gone. All of it. And the cost just keep going. #suicide

Why should I cling to this? This half-life? This depleted, empty shell? I'm a ghost, just afraid to stop, rest, move on. What an I holding onto? There's nothing left here. #suicide

I need someone or something to help me. #suicide

I want to die. I want the whole world to go away. I can't solve any of these problems. I can't make any of this work. I am not fit to live. And my time is running out. #suicide

An excelent sequence. I think about this scene a lot in the current climate. How wonderful. youtu.be/StnmzjqMKRo

I bought some fresh charges for the weapon today. The ones I had were years old. Probably still fine, but why take a chance... Somehow that feels more significant than anything else that I do in my entire life. Like I've accidentally done something of actual meaning for a change. #suicide

All the best that Texas has to offer. Good 'ol Weekend Warriors. Amazing...

I'm strongly considering going to ground early today. I'm brittle. I want bed, hiding, no more fcking being-in-public with its howling children and shtty music. I want my bear. I want to call someone, but there's no one to call. #suicide

To the thing in the mirror: "You aren't worth anything. You are good at some things, but those things aren't VALUED by anyone. Not enough to keep you alive anyway. You're only as good as what someone else can get from you. You don't have any value. You don't have any worrh." #suicide

Is it the animal's fault when it's founded into a corner, trapped, and killed? Do you blame the creature for "quitting" or "giving-up" when it's overwhelmed? #suicide

I don't think I can even remember what a "good day" is anymore. I don't get to have those. At best, the things that I used to enjoy are barely a small distraction. ... And in these terrible moments before sleep, I am naked & defenseless before the Darkness. It tears me to pieces. Every night.

Especially fragile today. Cracking at the edges. You will not fcking cry in public, you piece of sht. You will not. Don't you fcking dare.

How can I go about my week as if things are fine? How can I do that knowing it's one of my very last weeks? #suicide