one thing I'm considering for future lore videos is storyboards. i wanna get Jett, Thunder & Chisk back in the picture before July but I need to know how their reintroductions will go. i already planned Thunder & Chisk to be in the phiDOT S3 ending (ouch.), but Jett's gonna be complicated...

ffuuuuuuccckkkkk i should not have stayed up to draw this im gonna be so tired at work tomorrow and pdn gave me a fuckin jumpscare and a half cuz of low memory, i had too many project files and other windows open even my rgb lights flickered off for a moment god damn dude augh

started olimar's shipwreck tale and they were NOT kidding about putting my dandori to the test. Current run might die and i didn't expect to get Moss so early, would've been able to save a day in Terrace. This is gonna be hard lol

played Pikmin 4 for a few hours today on Switch 2. Made a NG+ save and manged to 100% Sun-Speckled Terrace by the end of Day 6, including getting all 4 Decor Pikmin. Also hopped on my main save and got Platinum on some Dandori Challenges, though the Battles are gonna be a lot harder. Fun Game

Don't really want to talk about Discord, enough going around Instead I just want to remind you You have friends who only have close online connections. Please be considerate. Do not scare the hell out of them right now that they'll be abandoned. Talk of going scorched earth scares many people

...got a really, *really* evil idea for something.

set the newest lore vid as the channel trailer and moved the two exe uploads to my fnf playlist so i can delete the former's. feels unnecessary to keep them separate by now. Gonna try writing mockup code for the rpg overworld so i can finally fix wall detection

Now that the videos are taken care of i think im gonna rest for a few days and let the first few go out. I'm still kinda craving working on neocities and filling in missing lore, so i might brainstorm some stuff and make smaller edits as best i can. For now tho i deserve rest x)

HELP /SILLY /NSRS

i think accepting one new part of myself has led to me accepting more new parts, I'm getting better at embracing my fixations & own opinions to a healthier degree and it's lessened my stress levels. it feels good -- i feel a lot happier these days

was able to figure out upload times now; vids can go all the way to April 1st, starting next week on the 9th. gives me plenty of time to relax, work on higher-effort rips, and plan out the schedule for the rest of the year. Just need to set up the videos in Studio and that's it; i'll be good to go

havent eaten since i got home from work but only cuz i have a stomachache again, thinking i picked the wrong option for lunch at work today 😖🤒

Going through my stuff again thanks to insomnia and doomscrolling Aside from nostalgia blindness and emotional lookbacks, uh... i'm noticing some things i should probably fix when i get the time, like the fact my latest Scramble video recorded without audio and one of my bio imgs is outdated

the night before siivagunner season 10 (post-magfest, anyway) i'm so antsy about what could kick things off... will they upload rips as normal? will it be lore? will someone hijack the channel like Stingy did to start Season 9? who knows... i just hope Wood Man is okay :(

think I'll get a couple more rips done tonight and work on the lore video tomorrow; i work 10am-7pm today which'll give me more time after i get home, and tomorrow is a day off too. The vid might be up by later that night but hopefully shouldn't leak into Feb 2nd or 3rd. Just gotta focus and believe

i will say it's kinda reassuring that most of the ones i watch are fairly close to me in age. i get to turn 25 next september so im smack-dab in the middle of my 20s. we're still fairly young at this point in our lives; there's still time to hang out & have fun ...just wish i wasn't so introverted.

the whole ordeal with roblox makes me worried about the possible death of the platform, especially when staff keep sabotaging it with these awful updates. I still want to make & play games when i have time, but it's getting harder to want to with these awful developments. it just sucks.

a guy named Astro going on adventures with his friend Jake fan-art for Astro947, wherever they are out in the world these days

cleaning out my Liked Videos again and decided to check the math. Currently I have 28 videos that are either Private or Deleted left over. Normally this wouldn't be an issue but one day YouTube randomly removed the ability to see unavailable vids in Liked Videos compared to other playlists.

i keep forgetting that i don't have to canonize every drawing i make of my characters. I can draw them hanging out and having fun on their own. I can draw whatever i want without a care in the world as long as I'm enjoying it. Shouldn't that be the thing that matters most?

man i wanna stay up and draw my wife but i think I'm burnt out for the night... felt nauseous when i got home and my tastebuds are too tired of eating. i feel hungry but my body feels like it's rejecting the concept of food. Just gonna head to sleep and dream about twi. she brings me comfort

it's always so hard to START these drawings when i wanna do one, but once i get in the flow, it's so easy TO do it. That initial denial of "this is cringy/stupid" goes away once i get myself in the right mood; get past that first step, then boom, it clicks. it's just so... difficult and confusing.

Watched K-Pop Demon Hunters and really loved it; definitely gonna listen to the songs in more depth soon. Think it helped boost my spirits; I really do connect with the whole message of acceptance of one's flaws, and that last song makes me feel even more comfortable with myself

i think Scratch is underappreciated in how it shaped online culture from the late 2000s through the 2010s, it was like a tamer Newgrounds with letting kids make their own games/animations and had its own influencers for them to latch on to. Internet culture thrived on there just as much as on YT/NG

there's a part of me that wants to befriend other creators i follow on social just so i have more people to chat or play games with, but i think i still need time focusing on myself and my own projects before i can plan time for others

you'll still never know what happens next and all you can do is take it as it comes the only choice you have is in how you approach it

sick again :,) 2 times in the span of 1 month is nuts i got sick the day before christmas eve and mom told me the flu was going around now SHE'S sick and uh oops lol guess i got it again 🥴 (no offense mom love u mom <3)

thinkin' i hit a small break session again, haven't been able to focus on rips the past couple days. Will try getting back on it tomorrow or Wednesday

character design credit goes to Teggei and further inspiration goes to an old vip i like on VaVr

that rave kicked ass and the youtube viewers are gonna love the visualizer when it drops thank you siivagunner, for everything you've given us. let's make Season 10 the greatest season yet. <3

might pause on making rips tomorrow, spark went off and I'm thinkin of a comic showing where tiff & viru are these days, plus further Voice & Nightscar plans for the channel and maybe even getting Kirb for a Day running... lotta ideas bouncing around but I gotta take it slow and pace myself

had a Homestuck-themed dream for once which was pretty cool too bad i woke up at 5:30am afterwards and now can't go back to sleep ;_; my body is such a perplexity

havent rlly had any art to post lately, at least for drawings. Been grinding out rips since i wanna dedicate january to building up my upload schedule. I still gotta get the return video made but I'm eager to upload rips again. can safely say my motivation is back for sure this time. <3

happy new year

Today is the last day that you can repost this image

life's too short to stick to one mindset forever

maybe i can finally sort out the deal with the KNiF footage now that I'm in this flow state... i have better versions of most videos, bumping up their video quality and fixing errors, and with this new Voice and Nightscar arc going on, it's probably the best time for KNiF to be relevant again... hm

On that note, also updated my Steam profile for once

finally uploaded the lyric-less version of C.A.'s intro to my 2nd channel, as well as updated all its thumbnails to use the higher-quality version. doing clean-up and making progress on a lot of things before the years ends and its making me confident with moving into 2026

couldn't get a screenshot fast enough but i can finally cross "got a Sweet Golden Cookie" off my Cookie Clicker to-do list, 1 in 5000 chance lol right now I'm dual-grinding Golden Cookies for the 27777 shadow achievement & Sugar Lumps for Lv10 buildings. It's takin' a while but it's fun

the shackles, they crackle i'm breaking through and tackle the weights that have held me down hard while I cackle they lack what I see; a true way to be free i'll break these chains you gave me so that they all fall away

tomorrow's gonna be a messy day but somehow my schedule is unbelievably lucky. A 6-hour shift rather than 8-hour AND I'm off on Christmas Eve when it's gonna be even worse than tomorrow. That day + Christmas being my only 2 days off this week means that if they call me in it'd be overtime (extra $$)

got the phiDOT page finished so now i can move on to the C.A. & SKGR ones, then hopefully finish up the 2024 rips... i still have so much left and I'm worried i won't be able to finish it all before the new year, but I'm doing great so far and i love it. been having so much fun with this

there's this cool-looking RC snake toy i wanna buy but i reaaaally need to conserve my money until my yearly subscriptions go through... compared to other stuff nearby, *i* would say it's pretty cheap, but 20$ is still a bit much in the current climate...

Look forward to what SiIvaGunner is bringing to MAGFest!

just one week until Christmas, and another after that until The End here's hoping 2026 can have a better turnout, i want to make the most of the time i have left

had a dream that felt like it took over a day to live through only to wake up not even 4 hours after i fell asleep What Are You Talking About Man I Am Still Very Sleepy

so tired

my twitter tl has been nothing but politics, call-outs, gimmick accounts and memes, personal drama and decreasing amounts of fan-art over the past couple months and it's starting to annoy me, and then i remember my friends and other influencers moved here to begin with such is the way of the worm.

all work and no play makes jack a dull boy, but play also comes in many different forms, and some forms don't satisfy Jack may want a form of play out of reach, and has to resort to a separate one when he doesn't want to Such is the way of the worm, and Jack has little else choice but to accept