had a random thought and was reminded that the gulf of mexico is still labeled the gulf of america on apple and google maps????? are we just okay with this?????

bro yesterday i had a zoom class meeting and i was saying something to my bf so the little pop up came up asking if i wanted to unmute AND I CLICKED ON IT THINKING IT WOULD CLOSE THE POP UP BUT I UNMUTED AND EVERYONE HEARD ME 😭

thinking about how much lower my credit card bill is these days bc i stopped looking at twt

ace attorney... i miss u...

i love my bf but he incapable of reading my mind and i am therefore upset with him

i've been feeling continuously stressed this entire quarter and it's still rising (´°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥ω°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥｀)

bro i sent an email about my work schedule a week ago to multiple people and no one has acknowledged it 🙃 they hate me

i was planning to surprise my bf by meeting him at the bus stop before he goes to class, but i didn't know what time he was taking the bus so i missed him :(

i already missed the party but i'm still sad about it 🥲 i want to go home but it wouldn't solve anything anymore

an observation i've made since making friend and having a boyfriend is that loneliness is like 10 times more unbearable now

i'm BORED i'm LONELY i'm SAD i should've BROUGHT MY LAPTOP 😭

i'm on a trip with my family and it is honestly ruined by the fact that i am missing a classmate's party (in which both my bf and closest friend are there) and my bf's concert 🥲

okay so i decided to check the dryer again before leaving for class AND THE OTHER PERSON'S LAUNDRY WAS STILL THERE??? i found my shirt but i also found 1 underwear, so i'm very glad i checked or that would've been awkward

i did my laundry at my apartment again (i usually do it a my parents') and i LOST A SHIRT??? 😭

why am i so busy

OH we got our placements for summer rotations and i got placed at... the same pharmacy chain that work at... just a different location... why is the school making me do free labor 😭😭😭

also guess who got into the top 20% of my class :))) and everyone knows :))))))

made the mistake of drinking green tea on an empty stomach and now i feel generally ✨unwell✨

the urge to quit my job increases 😔

bro i thought things would get easier after being done with one of my classes, why is it looking like i'm going to have the worst week ever 😭

procrastinating on my mother's day card not bc i don't love my mom but bc my love is not strong enough to overcome the fatigue in my soul

i sent like 2 more emails and still no response, am i cooked

canvas is still down 😔

all it takes is one thing to mess me up for the rest of the day 😔 i'm okay but there's an unsettled feeling in my chest that i cannot get rid of 😔😔😔

argh i left a time-off request a while ago to be off for one weekend but it looks like i got scheduled without notice? (>~<) and i'm not getting a quick response from management bc one of them went on PTO the day after i sent an email...

omg i still haven't drawn a thumbnail for the ace attorney vods... weren't those streams... last year...? 🥲

i don't eat fast food that often (and there isn't actually any near where i live) but occasionally i will watch a video of someone trying a new fast food menu item and i will crave burger for the next week

dude i am NOT getting enough sleep tonight 😭 i literally spent 5 hours on one assignment and i still have like 4 other things to do that will take a while 😭😭😭

i've had a pretty rough last few weeks ngl, i hope this is the last week that i feel constantly stressed about something

we talked it over and i'm still a little sad about it bc it's not something i can change, but it'll be okay

haha sike nvm my bf upset me again and i think it's pretty valid this time

ok i am recovering 👍

i feel like shit

i just had microwave meals for breakfast, lunch, and dinner today in case you were wondering how i'm doing

am i... getting old... i get so sleepy before midnight now... i need to lock in but... zzzzz

downside of only having 1 friend is that when she's not at school i simply have to return to being alone (for a day) and that is actually harder than just always being alone ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

sorry if you see me whining about my love life i am simply a moody person and i appreciate my bf putting up with it :,)

i realize that between going to japan and being sick for almost 2 weeks that we haven't actually had that much time together but!!! i'm a little pissed!!! that my bf hasn't taken me on a date since march!!!!! and he's going out with a friend today instead!!!

do you ever start cleaning something you've been meaning to get to and then get the urge to clean your entire room

it's been over a week why am i still full of mucus!!!!! this weak ass immune system!!!!!

if i am completely better tomorrow then i will treat myself to an iced matcha. if am still sick then ig i will continue to down hot tea.

i did fine last quarter but i can see my future rn... if i keep spending time with my bf like this my grades are cooked...

checked on the group assignment to see that someone reworded almost everything i wrote and added some stuff i don't agree with adding 🙃

the things that made me anxious are not gone but the suic!de is back off :,)

yk it was much easier to be depressed when i didn't have any friends or other relationships bc i knew i literally had no one to turn to but now that i do have some people and they are NOT available i actually feel much worse

the one good thing about being sick rn is that my parents will just think my sniffling is bc i'm sick and not bc i was crying for the last 30 minutes

the suic!de is back on 🙂‍↕️

having anxiety for most of your life really sucks bc i spent a lot of childhood and teenage days wishing i could fast-forward my life through school and now i'm an adult who wishes she could fast-forward through college

i am having the worst week ever so far. being sick is just the little cherry on top. i'm trying not to have a breakdown bc there's so much to do and i don't have time for it.

nothing makes me want to die more than having a sore throat