ALNST REMIX ARGHHH 😭😭😭😭🥹🥺🥺🥺💖💕🥹💕😭😭😭 youtube.com/@alienstageo...

i fucking choked on my fried rice and had to snort out a couple grains through my nose 😫 i still feel like there's rice in my nose but i can't get it out!!! and now my lungs kind of hurt??? is there rice in my lungs??? 😖😖

i have a pair of jeans that i really like, but every time i sit down the zipper part curves out and i feel like it looks like an erection 😭

so i just spent i think 1 hour browsing mercari for plushes

arrrhdhdudisisffhgggghhhhh

i streamed the ending of chicory: a colorful tale and i'm honestly amazed that i have 1 consistent viewer, it makes streaming more fun (*´︶`*)

i took some vitamins on an empty stomach and now there's a slight ache in my lower right tummy :/

lemme tell you it's a crazy experience to slowly start hating your field of study when you decided on this career since you were a kid. like, you do NOT understand my grief over this 😞

the amount of research articles and textbook chapters i have had to read in the last few days 😭 i am. going to cry.

guys it's only been 1 day of school and i'm already so sad wtf

guess who's stupid ass thought love bullet was already out in english and went all the way to the bookstore to buy it

i have been taking so much emotional damage lately but at least i finally finished silksong before school starts

guys wdym it's almost halfway through september

made a mistake at work and the director got involved i am going to cry

THERE'S YAOI IN MY SILKSONG?!!?!! (real)

so i ordered 500 boxes of pen needles instead of 500 pen needles at work today

WAHHH I ONLY FINISHED ACT 1 OF SILKSONG AND NOW I HAVE TO GO BACK TO WORK FML

dude i think i play a little too aggressively bc my right thumb hurts from playing silksong LOL

ohhhhh my godd i've been emailing them for the last few says and have received NO response. i'm not even trying to dispute anything, i'm just trying to ask about my security deposit???? and i've tried to call and they won't answer?? and their voicemail box is "full"???

also i caved and ordered a couple things from ado's 5th anniversary merch... the shipping was over $60...

HOOOOOH MY GOD THE NINTENDO ESHOP ISN'T LOADING?!????? IS IT ACTUALLY DOWN STILL???? I WANNA PLAY SILKSONG PLEASEEE LET ME INNNN

omfg i just remember silksong releases today AND I'M WORKING 😭😭😭 BUT I'M OFF TOMORROW SO IT'S GONNA BE SILKSONG ALL DAY

i don't wanna workkk 😫

got charged like $300 after moving out of my apt 🙃 i let my mom choose it, but i should've looked into the company before agreeing to it. i left one paint chip on the wall, but then the bill is like $220??? then $85 for cleaning??? these companies love to prey on poor students huh

hhhhhh i still have time before school starts, maybe i can meet my goal of at least uploading one cover before then

dude i just want to order my weeb merch from japan why does the government hate us 😫

IT'S OUT IN 2 WEEKS?!?!???!! youtu.be/6XGeJwsUP9c?...

reading this yaoi that is honestly not good but not in like an R18 or socially unacceptable way, it's not good in a the-writing-is-kinda-bad-and-awkward way, but i'm still reading it for some reason

wait omg i'm so behind SILKSONG IS REAL?!?!?!?!

also i bumped my knee really hard and it hurts now :,)

my manager... asked if i can work even though i told her i'm going to be at my other job... how do i say no...

i think i need to learn when to say no bc every time i set limits for how much i want to work (which i set too high honestly 😔) i get asked if i can work an extra day bc they need help. i need... to learn... to say no.........

i am working full time this entire month and don't have any consecutive days off after the first week 🥲

there was a japanese woman at the pharmacy i work at speaking to me in pretty good broken english, but she seemed to have trouble understanding me when i told her we don't take her insurance 😭😭😭 and i didn't know how to tell her in japanese!!! my education has failed me

Love Bullet Pop-Up Shop!!! usa.kinokuniya.com/love-bullet-...

i just saw a wet floor sign shaped like a banana peel and it honestly made my day

i was having a conversation about gender and sexuality with my mom bc of a situation with someone we know and like i briefly thought about telling her i'm ace but i knew she Would Not understand

why did my link click merch come with a plankton card?????

i think letting go of drawing will be good for me actually. like, not forever ofc, but accepting that it's not something i'll ever be recognized for might help me move on

i feel so discouraged about drawing these days that i think i should actually give up

i did apply but i unsurprisingly did not get accepted :,)

anyways

i've been thinking lately that maybe i should stop looking at twt. i get very discouraged about my art when i look, even though i enjoy seeing other people's art... i think i latch on too much to the idea that i can never amount to anything bc i didn't choose to pursue it :/

i bought something again from an artist i like bc they make link click merch and they left a note thanking me for supporting them again 😭😭 they recognize my name and address 😭😭😭😭

nothing makes me happier than having more useless merch in my house :D

okay how is it already august??!?! 😭 i've done nothing but WORK and LAZE AROUND!!!! 😭😭

gonna throttle my past self for agreeing to work so much this summer :)

uRgh 😭😭😭 the summer hikaru died anime is so good 🥺

i once again made the mistake of agreeing to go out with my parents today on my one day off and now we're stuck in traffic for at least an hour

still thinking about how i used to be so fast at reading and had decent memory, then after i started college it would take me longer to read bc i couldn't retain info as well as i used to