i'm less thirsty today but i was lying in bed when i accidentally fell asleep? when i woke up, it was already dark and the clock said 4:30, so i almost thought i had slept through the rest of the day. also i feel really cold and lethargic despite the nap :/

my brother texted me to ask what i want for christmas and i have not responded. it has been 9 hours. i do not know what i want

my parents are talking about taking me to japan during my spring break (yayyy) but i know my dad's going to be so judgmental when i drag them to the kirby or pompompurin cafe

i've been so thirsty the last 2 days and i've had to pee like 5 times today already, but my lymph nodes around my neck feel swollen so maybe i'm getting sick :x

my parents took me to a japanese restaurant yesterday and it was mildly sad to eat sashimi without soy sauce 🥹

my cover is pretty much finished and i just need to make the video, but every time i listen to it i either 1) hate it, 2) a part sounds glitched for some reason but resolves later without me doing anything, or 3) it sounds fine 🥹

okay so the penlight stand is bigger than i expected;; it does not fit on my shelf... also the penlight is too short to reach the bottom? 🥹

i'm stressed again... why is there so much to do right before my break...

so i ended up going... and my other classmates were also there... so i stayed for an hour after... bc didn't know when i could leave... 🥲

i forgot that i have to do a gluten-free diet for 5 days for my nutrition class but i've been too busy to plan my meals and i also never plan my meals and don't eat healthy much

i can feel my work ethic decreasing exponentially as the quarter nears its end. i have been telling myself to do this one thing for the past few hours and it is now 7pm. i have not started.

my twt notifications have been broken forever so i was very surprised to see them suddenly working today :0

i ordered another pompompurin plush but the seller canceled it within minutes 🥺 why...? 🥺

NOOOOOO I DO HAVE TO PAY 😭😭😔😔😔

there is some guy screaming outside my building;; this is why i don't want to walk home late at night

in other news, i brought some kimchi from home in my own container but the smell is somehow still leaking out even after plastic wrapping it, so now my fridge just smells like kimchi

guess who just trapped herself into a social interaction by making small talk

i just got a notice that a package is arriving this week but i have no idea what it is 😭😭 i preorder so many things i can never tell what's arriving 😭

i did my laundry today and i am just now realizing that i am too short to reach inside the dryer, which is on top of the washer 😶 i couldn't reach my socks in the back so i used a towel to pull the socks toward me... the woes of being short...

today, i'm doing that diet you have to do before a colonoscopy for one of my classes and i have had 2 eggs, 1 yakult, and 2 cups of tea. i am hungry. 🥲

sometimes i'm like "maybe i don't actually hate retail pharmacy" until i go back to work

i hate when people don't respond to my emails 🥺 if it's been long enough they probably ignored me

man i am devastated every time i see that there's a popup cafe for a BL that i like... why is japan... so far... 🥹🥹🥹

i went back today bc it was on my way AND THEY STILL DIDN'T HAVE IT 😭😭 they even restocked other merch but not the acrylic stands i wanted!!!

got distracted reading through all my posts on this account, and wow i am both funny and depressed

i just know my parents would be so upset if i bought this

wtf??? 😭😭😭 i got 100% on one of my midterms??? that's literally never happened before, they must have switched my test 🥹🥹🥹

having a mental breakdown is extremely inefficient, i don't have time to cry i have to study!!! 😡

i didn't have school today, but i somehow only managed to accomplish 1/2 of a thing even thought i have like 5 things i need to do this week 🥲

between having no hot water and having so many things to do for school this week, i am not having a great time :,)

i had to reschedule my orthodontist appt bc my original appt conflicted with class, but i realized after that i don't think i can make it to the new appt either? 😭 but i don't want to call now bc i literally just called a few minutes ago 😭😭

i absolutely need to share this text i got from my dad

i have this problem that bc i don't really have any friends, i get anxious when a new friend spends time with their other friends. ik it's probably normal, esp if i'm not friends with their friends, but then i rationalize it by keeping a reasonable distance from them and then i end up alone 🥲

just drank coffee bc my dad made me some this morning and i feel ✨unwell✨

i stopped checking twt so often bc the site is annoying to use ever since it became x, but all the creators i follow are there... 🥺 how else am i going to find out if my favorite BL manga artist re-released a limited acrylic stand?

also i get punished for not checking twt bc I ALMOST MISSED THIS????

i've been obsessing over this plushie of towa from slow damage that was released for nitro chiral's 20th anniversary and i just found the date for when online sales will be open, and i WILL be devastated if i am unable to get him

i sold one of my link click acrylic stands on mercari and the buyer's address is literally a few blocks from where i live 😭

i regret to inform you that the last bullet point happened again

born to be a shut-in, forced to contribute to society 😔

i have another exam this friday, but occasionally i'm like "let's open my cover and see what i can work on for a bit!" and suddenly an hour is gone

THEY DIDN'T EVEN HAVE IT 😭😭😭

i'm gonna visit the alien stage pop-up at kinokuniya today and if the merch i want is gone i WILL be upset

damn i can't even be mad bc one of my team members had to take their kid to the hospital over the weekend 😭

i traded books with my friend over the summer and she did not read my book 😔 i gave her my little mushroom book that's actually no longer in print (a new version will be released by seven seas next year) and i miss it... there's no way she's going to read it now that we're back in school 😔😔

i love when i check on the group assignment that's due tomorrow and see that nobody has worked on it 💢💢💢

i've kept a list of ideas for a slice-of-life comic that i've been writing in for over a year now, but why did i write some of these: - does scent have gender - lesbians on the subway - when a seagull stole my granola bar - i don't know why i keep attracting men who like to yap at me

i finally re-recorded my cover transposed a bit lower and i definitely sound less strained 😌 natori's vocals are just too powerful for me to reach apparently

wait i ordered a kirby plush on mercari and it said it was in transit but then the seller canceled the order? 🥺 my kirby...