when ur sad and beyond upsetti I guess you just stream Apex and hope it gets better lol Loneliness and ur life full of shit and problems is just too much to bear sometimes

imma die before I finally get to see my gastro. :(

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no fwiends is hawd but ill pull through

I still suck at flossing but im getting better... I guess

shoot me. ty

why do I have to burn in hell every day? what did I do lmao. fuck my life, I swear....

You don't realize how much you hate having a penis and testicles until you start transitioning and it's been a while and then you look at it and you're like, what the fuck.. (especially if your dick got hard/is hard)

also ngl trans community is? toxic, can be? toxic. I feel like there's nothing wrong with disconnecting for a while and not projecting other people's shit onto yours and vice versa because that shit's not helpful in a capitalist shithole world. It just makes your mental worse either way.

god my adhd is so bad i have to do basic toddler stuff at every step or I'll fuck shit up somewhere down the line lmao

im convinced that guy at least has ADHD lmao. So if that proves the point that you can still do it lmao

math with adhd is too hard then the Organic Chemistry Tutor exists and suddenly it's possible if you follow the examples/ways of doing things to a T I'm glad the guy keeps growing. he's so good at Math & Science. Even autism/ADHD won't stop you from his goated content/playlists lol

turning myself off irl

can the people who make AI and also the ones who sponsor *it* do everybody a favor and go disappear?

I hate being boggled down in shit and be surrounded with cruel and terrible people.... fuck my life

listening to casual -phobias/-isms on repeat is my favorite part about piece of shit family members. I hope they go to hell. Trash fucking people. (I don't even care about how I feel about it, it's the audacity I'm talking about)

I hate when fuckers(yes that includes all of my evil family members) drain my already low energy levels with their bullshit andm ake me beyond miserable and unable to function and I feel burned out and dead af wanting to barf it all out

you walking past a huge dumpster that smells so bad and makes you wanna throw up that you realize it's just liberals chillin' 😆 (Nazis are in the dumpster!) 🤮

I managed to sleep 20 hours in the last 28-36 hours. not bad. Getting that sleep back 🥳

hugging and cuddling convention for trans people animals are welcome! 😊 I wish it was a thing though... 😞

also its hella funny when the libs call other people "part of the problem" and refuse to admit they're the problem themselves or don't even wanna be aware of it which is what exactly enables the worst kinda people to continue doing w/e they want to because libs let them lmao.

casual and often justified bigotry and commonplace psychopathy is what makes it worse tbh Like if every other guy is a fucking racist or thinks you should die for their privilege or w/e else, like brother. Go fuck yourself. You're a terrible person and stop complaining bad things are happening 2u.

also daily reminder: everything bad that's happening in the US is happening because most USians R garbage people & a lot R outright evil. 's well deserved. Now that doesn't mean good people must suffer 4 it or should be blamed 4 it bc of 80% fucking it up 4 them. Go kiss a fag or hug a tranny 🥰

most cis guys don't realize if they put in some work and take care of themselves and don't say insane shit to people, their chances to get laid and have a good time go up by 5000%

I swear every time I go around & see so many 20 summin' year olds who just chill & work their jobs & take care of themselves man they're so hot I'd suck their dick & let them fuck me lmao. I'm pansexual btw. Most guys are lazy & expect somebody to like them(while demanding it from women instead!🤣)

"women don't like me. Everything's wrong with women.... We must do something, this is a male loneliness epidemic, Mr. Trump!" *looks like shit, puts in zero effort, smells like shit, says crazy things, is disgusting to be around* -> random 20 something hottie who's down to earth and cute as fuck 🤤

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bro Alter sucking you from behind the walls with her ult is so broken lol uve no control over that griefing shit I got griefed like that in ranked and we fumbled an easy top1 game and got a 3rd :(

trash servers, lots of lag, broken moon day, below average teammates? typical broken moon day in ranked? 😆

also widow addiction is real when you hit more shots lol Flatline vibes but you just kraber ow2 characters lmao

anyways fuck me. here's a hug and a forehead kiss for trans people. ☺️ hope you guys have a good one today!

or psychotic... lmao

need a stim. feeling like exploding rn from all that shit. ha-ha! (dead tone, sarcastic)

also imagine ur fam members getting off on bigotry. It's fun lmao. well fuck them. Theyr'e evil and they deserve all the bad shit that's happening to them. I got no part in that and I dont wanna hear about it from them. They all treat me like dirt and set me back by a whole lot.

like ALL my family members are the most deranged craziest shittiest people you'll ever meet. Would fit right in wtih the billionaires

I have evyerhting that's going on in my life with relation to my "family" members and the spot I'm in. I hope tyhese people burn in hell for 4 generations later. Anyways, time to take a nap or go stream Apex some more uwu lmao

beggars cant be choosers unless you don't give a shit

holyyy a 2 1/2 hour high octane apex stream was so good lmao very much needed for sure. I got to fight so much that was mad fun. Just kinda tired from learning so much lol. Bang truly feels like the noob saver when team ain't doing well even tho she aint op lol well that was fun! 😳😊

imma go cry. Eyes teary anyways and idc.

now I understand why people just run away and sign up for service. That's the only way to not be homeless and to get away from evil people who hold you hostage and ruin your mental beyond repair.

I really wanna cry because of it ANd about it. Like oh my god why are so many people doing this to me and treat me so poorly, it's beyond evil and sad

I hate all that shit I'm forced to deal with in life that's forced onto me by other people and me not having choice and feeling miserable as fuck over it, Just wanting to make mistakes for a chance to run away from them all.

im convinced you eventually hit a cap on how many people you can ahve blocked on here so even if you hit block it auto unblocks them later. cool.

dry orgasms are funny huh(as in its weird but also cool but also you enjoy it and theres nothing which is hilarious)

ayooo I haven't had a 6hr stream day in a while. felt like I just went away took over am onth off but now I seem so back? lmao we'll see how long that lasts. Altho I'm kinda hooked on Apex right now cuz Ow2 sucks unless there's an ow1 throwback event

2 HOURS OF SLEEP? (sorry caps) what do we do? we go live cuz fuck it lmao

okay Apex is so much fun. I want more of it all of a sudden lol

okay Apex is giga fun if you comm up and IGl and shoot folks and run it down lmao Anyways imma go back to singing cuz its fun lol

tomorrow so that'll be fun and argh im tired of thinking it and once again, BlueSky burn in hell for the stupid 300 char limit.

I got suddenly hit with exhaustion and could barely eat my food. I guess imma drink more green tea, idk. should probably stream apex more and vibe so I at least feel better mentally. A week fucking wasted and a new week has kicked off to a mediocre start. Also I got a gazillion doc appointments