✧ Allen Walker, The Crowned Clown 🤍 ✧ I hope we all live to see the end of this story (including the mangaka, good luck to her) 🤍🤍🤍 #dgrayman #дигреймен #allenwalker #алленуолкер

there's this prominent rise of rp groups that want 'canon compliant' characters and while it's all good and valid, at the very same time i'm just ... where's your whimsy. where's your creativity. y'all never played with dolls and it shows.

may fit ! despite the huge amounts of glitches i did manage to put on the cute lil lavender fit ! i was undecided on the bun or the free hair and i ended up with the latter ! bonus on my own nikkisona, witch edition uvu

i just feel very pathetic, and alone. and like all i do is upset the people i really don't want to upset.

i don't know. maybe knowing that i will never be first in someone's heart is what makes it all ache. the fact that it's never going to be 'just me', but 'x and me'. maybe that's why i can't jump back as muchbas i wish to.

my body hurts. my head hurts. my heart hurts. all i want is for this to be over and to disappear, the temptation to jump into the raging sea is a big temptation.

i kinda wanna return to doodle again but ough. my complete lack of perception of pressure on pencil. the true ultimate enemy.

03/30 - day 25 finished with allen!!! YAY #dgrayman

alienation #dgrayman

i am tired of being nice.

What y'all know about D.Gray-Man and my GOAT Allen Walker

if i reach out it's a problem that i reached out if i don't reach out it's a problem that i didn't if i try to be present & understanding i'm being too much if i try to give space then i'm absent just tell me what i'm supposed to do then ? i am fucking tired of being shaken around like a pinball ?

i think i need to be off servers in general for a while.

all i want is to feel safe. but all i feel is that i am just a random decoration for someone else's cute little story being written up right in front of my eyes.

at this point i wonder what i've done to deserve this. at least to be aware that it is my fault and atone for it somehow.

i just want to cry and feel like utter shit for asking for certainty and reassurance when i constantly feel like i'm being sidelined and replaced with someone else. it doesn't feel safe. that's how this whole fuckin thing fucked me up. i can't heal from this. i can't feel safe. probably never will.

🌹 #dgrayman #art #allenwalker

wanting to speak about something that is currently upsetting me bc i value honesty above all vs the petrifying anxiety of knowing this will 100% upset others and not wanting that because duh, of course i wouldn't want to upset others. i am inept but not an asshole.

listen i may have lost my mydei 5050 ,,, but it's to gepard, and i'm so fine with it ( bronya you're next )

hewwo world ig i shoud start with my fav ones #dgm #dgrayman #art #allenwalker #tykimikk

#vent incoming because honestly i am tired and fed up.

negl i have some ... concerns / worries, i guess. my experiences so far haven't been exactly stellar. hopefully it's just me being overly cautious and it'll all disappear with time.

oh my god i've never wanted to leave a group so fast. the way i just wanna scream to high heavens and just leave, i'm just. ugh. UGGGGHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!!!

today's mood.

anyways infinikki update tonight / tomorrow who's ready ( i am not )

with the way fanbase puritanism in rp space is held to such moral ground i do personally find hilarious that SOMEHOW roleplaying as actual celebrities is okay but hetalia / aph adjacent characters aren't. especially when personifying nations has been ALWAYS present in art since the dawn of time.

made a poll on tumblr asking which of my WIPs to go back n finished and this was one of the tie winners and now since im better at painting i was able to actually do it some justice 💃 #hetalia #usuk

" little clown, how painful it was to wake without /him/ next to you ? don't you wish for /him/ to be brought back to you as if god never ripped him off your hands ? "

i don't need the new 5* ! i like it, very trad lolita style, but i gotta save for nicer pieces ! > is a purification fit > the associated 4* is dark and has another type of fur shawl YOU CAN'T DO THIS TO ME INFOLD !!!!

#Dグレ #dgm #dgrayman

gives the nikkified wisely the dance till dawn's bear backpiece as a stand in for the road plush because yes

honestly so excited for the new nikki stuff because ?? new optimization for he camera ?? new poses ?? DYE FEATURE ?? PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD LET ME DYE THE JELLYFISH CUT FROM THE PUPPER OUTFIT SO I CAN MAKE LORE ACCURATE ALLEN WALKER !!!!

"I'm cringe but I'm free" is a catchy meme phrase and all but it's also 100% true. Life is a lot more fun when u can just openly enjoy weird shit you like without worrying so much about peer pressure or what other ppl will think. Why live ur one precious life so beholden to other ppl's opinions of u

i may be sad and upset right now and feel like screaming to high heavens but the nikkification of dgm characters makes me happy like what do you mean you made allen walker and wisely kamelot on infinity nikki

@ohlivkanda.bsky.social consider : nikkified yullens

ah, why the fuck did i ask. it was stupid. of course i am not wanted, it was idiotic to think i was.

inspired by new DGM event "「D.Gray-man」 POP UP SHOP" in Japan #Dグレ #dgrayman #allenwalker #kandayuu #yullen

i've made an allen shimeji for everyone to have some company when they use their laptop!! it's available for free download here~ ko-fi.com/s/8cb2596060 * please note it requires windows and java to run! #Dグレ #Dグレイマン #dgrayman #dgm

we failed as a society the moment we started using 'consume' as a verb for describing the interaction we have with basically anything leisurable instead of their appropriate verbs ( enjoy, read, write, sing, listen, etc. ) and it shows every day.

to have no place to belong to sucks.

anyways time to disappear again wheee

i rarely speak about the game per se because i really don't want contacts with the community and their very homophobic views but i unironically like the lore and ship the boys with one another and no one can stop me we always did that with all otome games and it's so not gonna change

the mullet from the current banner makes him so breedable™

thread dedicated to my very own self imposed styling challenge for my nikki dedicated slot, since i do love playing as /her/ when exploring and doing quests ! "rules" : 1 ) styling for each month to be kept all month long ; 2 ) since it's nikki, her hair and eye color must remain unchanged ;

“porn is dangerous” is fascist propaganda

Really self-indulgent but I drew Zayne and Caleb inspired by that one frame from "Alluring Secret ~Black Vow~"!!! #applesnow #snowapple #Zayne #Caleb

"What my heart was longing for all this time was the Akuma" #dgrayman #allenwalker

> logs in > shares the only accurate depiction of nea d. campbell i will tolerate in this multiverse > logs out