Don’t mind my absolute crashout. Have you ever found a fic, that’s so unexplainably adept at describing the most visceral, intense, shamelessly mind altering depictions of something that’s so fundamentallyFUCKED on all levels physical, mental, emotional, spiritual, in all ways both legal and moral-

Rewatching Steven universe and I completely forgot how absolutely traumatizing episode 51 was. 51 being “the return” that shit HURT

I JUST SCRATCHED THE FUCK OUTTA MY EYES tryna test out an old pair of colored contacts for this weekend. Fuck. I am in so much pain and regret. The only silver lining is that I had no make up on to redo But watch me forget to put the contacts in before makeup and doing it again 😭

And before anyone tries to mock my work, a lot of the stitching for this cosplay was done by hand or with a vintage sewing machine from the 1980s. I have no experience with embroidery before this. So don’t hate on people’s self-made cosplays even if they’re a little janky 💜

The moon detailing for Loona’s shorts is done. It looks like dogshit up close, but I’m kinda proud of myself for doing something like this for the first time ever. And it only took me 4 fucking hours hahaha 🫠 #Helluvaboss #Loona

Also wanted to share an update on my shitty loona cosplay, the shirt is done, I regret using ribbon for the detailing, but it is what it is. Gotta embroider the shorts n that’s it. Hopefully I get to actually wear it for halloween.

I have no clue if anyone’s writing fanfics of Apothecary diaries or not but if there’s interest in a modern office au, pls lmk. I need Maomao being sick of her boss’s antics while going on little adventures to expose embezzlement or some shit. I need Jinshi FLIRTYand Maomao 1000% OVER IT 😤

In other news, Apothecary Diaries season 3 and a movie is confirmed and I am SCREAMING. Like pleeeease end of s2 had me sobbing at like 2 am after the first time AND during the rewatch. I don’t think I can wait a whole year for s3. I need to write something plssss

Love how I plan to write something, start it, get distracted and forget about it, then suddenly get the urge to write something completely different. Fanfic struggles man. 😓 someone free me from this burnout hell

Going off the soulbinding prompt, I’m taking a page from the anime version of castlvania s2 with the cursed rings for a Prince Jayce and “evil” mage Viktor. The rings are just a backup plan though…

It’s officially October aka kinktober. And so it’s time to get FREAKY. Still clinging to jayvik lol, I made a lil roulette wheel and it landed on arcane sex/soulbinding sooooooo. Yeee. Time to brainstorm whatever little plot I need to get to the fun shit.

The shirt and shorts have been purchased for Loona cosplay. Lets hope I don’t ABSOLUTELY fuck this up. Gonna stop by Michael’s or smth to color match some thread once it arrives Wish me luuuck #helluvaboss

I’m going to a Halloween party and I’ve made the executive decision to cosplay as Loona from Helluva boss and bought a whole tail and ears for it. Plus I’m gonna stitch the clothes myself…. Is this how I start becoming a furry No one tell my friends I will never live this down EVER

What kind of fics are people reading rn? I got no clue. Any popular media that’s got good characters I can throw into a smut blender? I spend too much time watching podcasts and watching cute pet tierlists on yt. #nsfwfanfic

Lowkey sad that my arcane fix is dying down. But that means I get to focus on other media. Aka, actually writing one of the 60+ fic outlines gathering dust in my notes app Currently debating a jjk fic. The question is, character x reader or cxc??

I'm back from vacay and fall makes me want to stay inside constantly. So I'm back on my writing bullshit with a mini fic (~1k words)🤪 For all the jayvik fans who like raw dogging angst and hurt no comfort, this is for yalls. TW: vague suicidal thoughts archiveofourown.org/works/71399036

I don’t think I’ve ever gone over the fucking ao3 tag limit except for when it comes to Jayvik. But it’s ok. Day 3 had me adding so much shit so there’s some untagged characters cause of the limit. Just think of it as a treasure hunt alright? 🥰🧡 #jayvikbdsmweek archiveofourown.org/works/676040...

Its bondage day for #jayvikbdsmweek and while it’s not as much as I would have liked, I got to play with a bit of sensory dep and cages. Which are always a fun time. Jayvik lovers one and all, come see Jayce being a good boy for Viktor archiveofourown.org/works/675291...

I stayed up an extra four hours after a night out so I could make sure I was all set for today. Was gonna wait till I got some sleep but fuck it. Happy #jayvikbdsmweek to all the kinky jayvik lovers out there. I present my humble entry and bid you a safe week. archiveofourown.org/works/674438...

If anyone would like a themed background to upload their fics/art with for #jayvikbdsmweek Feel free to save and use. I probably won’t be able to update the days before I edit my personal one so there’s also a blank one with only the boarder. Have funsies

#wipwednesday and I have some snips for day two of #jayvikbdsmweek I can’t believe it starts this Sunday and I STILL only have the first day completely written. It ain’t even edited yet. I sorta got distracted jump starting day 3. Anyways, have a bit of s&m with Jayce in handcuffs and a blindfold

TAKE ME HOOOOOME COUNTRY ROOOOOAD TO THE PLAAAACE I BELOOONG Even more toxic old man yaoi like please take me back zaundads / vanco like I neeed fucked up angsty shit. I need to up my dead dove tag count prontooo

How badly do you want me to continue this? If it gets 100 likes I might continue it #jayvik

In honor of me actually writing something today, have some instantly whipped Jayce. Btw, this is over a PHOTO. Sex worker Viktor is so hot. #jayvik #jayvikbdsmweek

My soul is restless and hungers for kinky smut but the heat has been melting every single brain cell and I can’t write more than a single sentence at a time these days. I need to pull out the big guns to at least get the first day finished. Someone prep my “I wrote this while drunk” tag pls

I’m not making it in time for jayvikbdsmweek but I’m still determined to make this fic into a reality. It’ll be late af for sure but aksjdjja I swearrrr I wanna do it so baddd I WILL MAKE KINKY JAYVIK FUCK NASTY STYLE BY SUMMERS END

You don’t eat an arancina with cutlery. Not on a Sicilians watch. #oc #ocs

Oops. I drew a lil vanco instead of working on jayvik smut like I was supposed to. Here ya goes. #zaundads

I completely forgot to put I there but Chapter 2 of Different Kind of Love is finally out. #bottomjayceweek never dies. Jayvik freak4freak is complete

I’ve finally started preparing for #jayvikbdsmweek and ahhh why am I doing multi-chapter fic for the ENTIRE WEEK. Granted I’ll have smut for every single day but fuuuuuuuuck if I add an overarching plot to my pwp, screwed. ANYWAYS themes to be used below.

Been working on a cyberpunk au for jayvik and well. Jayce now has led lights in his dick mod and no I will not apologize. You can blame the people int he discord for putting the worms in my head. This is T4T btw with Jayce essentially having bottom surgery done with the help of a ripper doc or smth.

Back at it again with more snip-snaps cause work and depression are kicking me in the ass. It’s taking a lot longer to finish up the 2nd chapter for “Different Kind of Love” especially cause I started other jayvik wips. Stupid I know. Sorrynotsorry. Hopefully the pride month spirits can help me out.

HAPPY PRIDE MONTH EVERYONESSSSSS

Casually thinking about writing TFT Sevika domming tf outa a self insert character just so I can write overly indulgent smut of this beautiful woman. Please mommy step on me- *dies*

Also, I haven’t forgotten about chapter 2 of freak4freak jayvik. It’s taking some time cause of burnout and writers block but it’s coming together. Sharing some bits n boops to get the juices flowin again if ya know what I mean.

#Jayvikbdsmweek is in July, that’s like 2 months out still. But I need to mentally prepare myself for this shit I will NOT. REPEAT. HALFASSING. EVENT WEEKS LIKE BOTTOM JAYCE. NOT HERE. NOT NOW. Not with my fucking lifeblood.

I’m gonna die 🥹 /pos

Day 7 #BottomJayceWeek for the free day/niche kinks as promised Freak4Freak Jayvik is a go! This is unfortunately going to be a 2 parter with the actual fun kinky stuff coming out later this week (hopefully) but enjoy Jayce being obsessed with “his partner” archiveofourown.org/works/65453089

ITS DONE. FUCK I HATE BEING AN ADULT AND WORKING. #BottomJayceWeek I humbly present my Day 5, breeding, marking, and mind fuckary with omegaverse shenanigans. archiveofourown.org/works/65404309

Fingers in his forehead 🥰 I still gotta edit my day 5 for #bottomjayceweek but soon. Soon. I’ll have it…. 🥹

Guess who’s back for more #Bottomjayceweek Day 4’s plot ended up getting swapped from what I originally had planned. Just cause this would be quicker to write up. Well, without further ado, Modern Au with lingerie and masturbation 🩵 archiveofourown.org/works/65318875

It’s officially #bottomjayceweek and oh my god everyone is so talented and amazing and I love them all holy shit have my cringy day 1 entry 🩷🩷😚 archiveofourown.org/works/65300974

It isn’t much, but it’s something. #bottomjayceweek is slowly coming along despite it starting LITERALLY TOMORROW. Peek at Day 4, Modern AU with lingerie and masturbation. Featuring Transmasc Jayce and his glorious t-dick 🩷

It’s may 4th meaning Star Wars nerds are out of their fucking caves (including me). Even the highway signs are talking like yoda. Anyways, Guiding Stars Ch 5 is now out and ready for your reading pleasure! #starwars #nsfwfanfic #nsfwfanfiction #MayThe4Th archiveofourown.org/works/564222...

my turn? there will be two versions for day 1 a lot of these were meant to be comics but um that was insane! so instead i tried to get it all in one go <3 #arcane #jayvik #jayce #viktor #BottomJayceWeek #nsfw

messy sketch of chembaron!viktor cause i have….thoughts. So many thoughts. also chemtech is rad #arcane #viktor

WIP update for #bottomjayceweek brought to you by the lovely and iconic fanart that inspired this Freak4freak piece. I hope I did it some justice setting up Jayce’s obsession with his partner ☺️ @suriara.bsky.social bsky.app/profile/suri...

Hoping that sharing my wips will help get my ass in gear and write more. Some #bottomejayceweek prep. What’s more monsterous than getting fucked by an eldritch god with tentacles like Cthulhu? Lovecraft is rolling in his grave knowing I’m more inspired by Sucker for Love than his actual book. 🤪

Should I maybe start a collection of threadfics or something for jayvik and zaundads ideas that pop into my brain but wouldn’t really make a full oneshot. Or do I go more rarepair/crackfics and make a bunch of headcanon type things for hexquad or smokespark or fucking batfish, shit like that???

pillow princess #jayvik