So many things going on. Testing a new camera and microphone. Decided to see the difference between fresh face and a full face of makeup. Chose a matte red lip colour to see what the contrast looks like. I still need to work on the lighting, but that’s for another time. Big things are happening …

A return to the Tenderloin, the bus rides, the shifting rooms of The Club, and the rhythms of my own body—realising that my origin wasn’t a moment but a cycle of recognition, where the woman I’m becoming was already beginning to breathe. open.substack.com/pub/sensualr...

A reflection on what my writing is—an ecosystem of memoir, critique, embodiment, and myth—and why it refuses to stay in one genre. A defence of complexity, clarity, and autistic queer adulthood in a world that keeps shrinking us. open.substack.com/pub/autside/...

Today’s episode explores the tension between linear, simplified thinking prevalent in human services and the inherent multicausality and complexity of life, particularly for autistic and divergent individuals. open.substack.com/pub/autside/...

Clarity is sexy. This queer cosmology of desire, consent, and autistic truth rewrites touch, boundaries, and heat—trading polite distortion for embodied honesty, and finding home in the rooms where we’re finally felt in full. open.substack.com/pub/sensualr...

A deep dive into how ableism thrives on linear causality—and why embracing complexity is essential for liberation. Multicausality isn’t a barrier but a truth, and honouring it transforms care, safety, and autistic sovereignty. open.substack.com/pub/autside/...

Today’s episode argues that conventional neurotypical politeness functions as a system of social control that actively protects those who cause harm whilst punishing the clarity and directness often characteristic of autistic communication. open.substack.com/pub/autside/...

A journey through the Grope Room and Play Room—where queer spaces taught me adulthood, embodiment, orientation, and autistic play. A sensory, tender mapping of how we learn ourselves through touch, curiosity, and unapologetic joy. open.substack.com/pub/sensualr...

Autistic clarity isn’t rudeness—it’s resistance. This piece exposes how neurotypical politeness protects harm, punishes truth-telling, and turns ambiguity into control—especially during the holiday season’s forced harmony. open.substack.com/pub/autside/...

Today’s episode argues against the pervasive societal belief that autistic individuals fail to mature beyond childhood. open.substack.com/pub/autside/...

A meditation on facilitated communication, queer touch, and autistic embodiment—where intimacy becomes language, pleasure becomes fluency, and the body finally speaks in its oldest, truest grammar. open.substack.com/pub/sensualr...

Autistic people grow up, deepen, and evolve, yet the world freezes us in childhood. This piece dismantles that myth, showing how our play, learning, and joy mature into complex, sovereign forms of autistic adulthood. open.substack.com/pub/autside/...

Today’s episode provides an overview and meditation on Sarinah O’Donoghue’s 2023 essay, “Thinking with Sticks.” open.substack.com/pub/autside/...

A meditation on seduction, presence, and the old weather of ink—why I answer an AMA in tides instead of sentences, and why desire, for me, has always lived in atmosphere, recognition, and the handwriting we’ve lost. open.substack.com/pub/sensualr...

A meditation on autistic narrative as something co-authored by bodies, objects, movement, and sensory life—rethinking voice, agency, and meaning through Baggs, Wolfond, and the storied matter that thinks with us. open.substack.com/pub/autside/...

Today’s episode explores the lived experience of being an autistic-trans self, focusing on the concept of emergence and the societal “fog” that obscures self-recognition. open.substack.com/pub/autside/...

A trans autistic girlhood educated in neon—learning desire, safety, and femme truth from a club queen’s dazzling dissertation when no school, parent, or world ever thought to teach me how to live. open.substack.com/pub/sensualr...

A meditation on emergence—how autistic trans lives remain mis-seen until the fog lifts, and how reclaiming our own maps, truths, and archives reveals the landscape that was always ours to name. open.substack.com/pub/autside/...

Today’s episode explores the historical and technological continuity of systematic harm. open.substack.com/pub/autside/...

A journey through two queer San Francisco worlds—one flat and choreographed, one spacious and alive—tracing how a soft, femme, autistic desire expanded beyond 2D expectations into the four-dimensional self she was always becoming. open.substack.com/pub/sensualr...

From the Malleus to modern AI, harm repeats through authority and replication. Old biases become new systems. The hammer keeps returning—ink to code—unless we break the architecture that makes the hunt inevitable. open.substack.com/pub/autside/...

Today’s episode outlines how ableist systems create an architecture of impunity that allows abusers to flourish in institutional settings. open.substack.com/pub/autside/...

A lyrical exploration of what a kiss feels like in four dimensions—where breath becomes geometry, boundaries soften, and tenderness bends space into a new axis of queer, autistic, multidimensional intimacy. open.substack.com/pub/sensualr...

Ableist systems reward charm, punish clarity, and turn autistic truth-tellers into scapegoats. Abusers thrive because the architecture protects them. Justice begins when we rebuild the room, not when we train the vulnerable. open.substack.com/pub/autside/...

Today’s episode discusses gestalt processing in autistic individuals, describing it as a primary mode of perception that registers the emotional atmosphere or “field” of a situation before verbal content. open.substack.com/pub/autside/...

A young calculus teacher asks how I learned maths, and a simple question opens a brane—back to the Grope Room, queer geometry, and the night my autistic body first discovered it was built for more than three dimensions. open.substack.com/pub/sensualr...

Autistic GLP minds don’t miss danger—we feel the room tilt long before words betray it. This piece traces how manipulators exploit that attunement, and how reclaiming our atmospheric truth becomes our deepest safety. open.substack.com/pub/autside/...

Today’s episode focuses on autistic self-protection and reclaiming personal perception against abusive dynamics. open.substack.com/pub/autside/...

A guide for autistic self-protection—how to recognise narcissistic harm, trust first signals, honour boundaries, and rebuild after injury. A return to perception as inheritance, sovereignty, and quiet, collective warding. open.substack.com/pub/autside/...

Today’s episode argues that Marge Blanc’s Natural Language Acquisition (NLA) framework constitutes legitimate published science despite being ignored by academia. open.substack.com/pub/autside/...

A walk through the Tenderloin in the 1980s becomes a passage into a hidden queer city—sex workers, survival networks, and a club without a name. A tribute to the women who lived in the margins and shaped a history the archives never kept. open.substack.com/pub/sensualr...

Marge Blanc didn’t work outside science—she fulfilled it. She published a transparent, replicable workflow the world learned and repeated. The academy ignored it, but the evidence lives in us: published is published. open.substack.com/pub/autside/...

Today’s episode provides an autistic critique of sex education research, specifically focusing on a study by Panagiotakopoulou and colleagues, arguing that the neurotypical frameworks employed render autistic sexuality and experience unthinkable or absent. open.substack.com/pub/autside/...

A queer autistic girl’s first steps into intimacy—wordless, awkward, sacred—and how Mira Bellwether’s FTW later gave language to what my body had always known. A note left for the next wanderer, a map made of touch. open.substack.com/pub/sensualr...

This essay charts the absences in autism sex-ed research—erased bodies, erased parents, erased queerness—and argues that autistic youth need translation, not simplification. Believe our bodies and everything changes. open.substack.com/pub/autside/...

Today’s episode provides excerpts from an analysis titled “EPICAC: The Machine Who Felt Too Much” by Jaime Hoerricks, PhD, offering an overview of Kurt Vonnegut’s short story through an autistic lens. open.substack.com/pub/autside/...

A behind-the-scenes reflection on how Mira Bellwether’s FTW zine gave language to my body, sense to my past, and permission to write my own edition of softness, attunement, and trans-femme becoming. open.substack.com/pub/sensualr...

On Vonnegut’s birthday, I return to EPICAC—his tale of a machine who felt too much. Long before we had language for it, he wrote the autistic mind in code: literal, pattern-driven, system-honest, and destroyed by translation. open.substack.com/pub/autside/...

Today’s episode presents a cross-examination of a systematic review concerning interventions based on GLP and Natural Language Acquisition, specifically critiquing a paper by Bryant et al. and a corresponding Royal College of Speech and Language Therapists podcast. open.substack.com/pub/autside/...

Before the word autism, there was difference—and queerness taught me how to live it. A meditation on memory, embodiment, and the science of the afterglow—where hormones, history, and sensation converge to make belonging visible. open.substack.com/pub/sensualr...

A courtroom of evidence—where the RCSLT podcast meets its own contradictions, and autistic testimony restores what enclosure denied. The verdict: the ocean was never empty—only misread by those who refused to see. open.substack.com/pub/autside/...

Today’s episode is an excerpt from a reflective synthesis by Jaime Hoerricks, PhD, titled “The Architecture of Coherence: On Attunement, Expression, and Resonance,” prepared for an upcoming conference. open.substack.com/pub/autside/...

Autistic communication is not deficit but design—a symphony of attunement, expression, environment, and resonance. This is the score beneath my work: coherence felt as frequency, learning as the art of tuning together. open.substack.com/pub/autside/...

Today’s episode explores the concept of co-regulation as a fundamental, physiological process of shared rhythm and presence that precedes language and cognitive understanding. open.substack.com/pub/autside/...

Today’s episode fundamentally argues that emotional regulation is a relational and environmental process, not merely an individual act of willpower. autside.substack.com/p/episode-41...

A walk remembered through softened time—where desire turns to recognition, and progesterone sharpens memory into clarity. A story of becoming, of meeting one’s past self halfway between dusk and awakening. sensualresidue.substack.com/p/afterglow-...

Co-regulation is not a strategy but a remembering—the body’s ancient language of resonance. Through breath, rhythm, and presence, we rebuild trust, reimagine care, and learn to steady one another back into wholeness. autside.substack.com/p/the-pulse-...

A memory of the night the Grope Room appeared—where darkness became language, touch became literacy, and an autistic queer body learned the grammar of connection before the light returned to claim it. open.substack.com/pub/sensualr...

An autistic, gestalt-processing teacher reimagines emotional regulation as relational design—where classrooms breathe, bodies attune, and education becomes communion instead of compliance. The environment regulates before we do. open.substack.com/pub/autside/...

Today’s episode fundamentally challenges the standard verbal and chart-based approaches to emotional literacy, particularly for autistic and gestalt-processing learners. open.substack.com/pub/autside/...