Still working on the butterfly cardigan. Still iffy on the fit. But I have two different ideas on how to adjust it once it is done. So at least I have a plan.

Been having writer's block. Lots of reasons for it, really. So been crocheting in the meanwhile. Thinking of trying the butterfly cardigan, even with the reported issues. Meh. Yeah will give it a go.

Discord is being ridiculous. When my son was 13, he had facial hair and was often mistaken as a teacher or TA in the hallways of middle school! Likewise, there is an entire Reddit where people talk about being mistaken as too young. Meanwhile, let's make it easier to steal identities?

I have to go back to work tomorrow. So, I food prepped easy to eat and make food for husband, and two of our daughters are off work tomorrow and will hang out with him off and on. I still reminded him I will be within a few miles with phone on.

Husband is back from hospital. He is so sore.

Finished the youngest grandchildren blanket. Tomorrow I will start a sweater while I wait for husband to get through surgery.

My father in law is Silent Generation and pretty deaf. He is listening to Leave it to Beaver and YouTube AI videos on full blast and I am being over stimulated way too much.

Got my FIL's kidney function up to 54! I am thrilled!!!!!

I feel like I am going so slow on projects that I am traveling backwards in time.

Have food prepped for tomorrow. Not staying up tonight because I am old and get cranky past my bedtime and have to work tomorrow. But I will have a glass of mead, a cookie, and will crochet. Thinking Pestilence needs a larger part in my story.

In a one week period, I have made 26 containers of fudge in 7 flavors. I am also doing the lions share of the cooking and baking tomorrow. Tired.

I adore my pups, but damn I am sore cleaning up after their chaos.

Made fudge! Sending some with one daughter to another daughter and her wife in California! 7 is visiting 2 for Christmas! So it is easier to send with her. I have 8 kids. (5 step, 3 bio). So online instead of names will assign birth order to differentiate!

I am extra extra broke this Yule. I also ended up with the flu, which made crafting impossible lately. I always make gifts for Yule. So, making candy and cookies it is! I feel better but have no energy.

Best feeling for me today? My youngest grandson doing a literal happy dance to eat my cinnamon rolls!

One of my daughter in laws passed away last night. Just speechless.

So far, this last week: 1/3 done with blanket, made fudge, made sugar cookies, and completely managed to procrastinate on anything important!

Finally made progress. I hope to get it done in next couple of weeks. Yule/Christmas gift for 1 year old granddaughter! Mosaic blanket with bunnies!

I spent three hours frogging and re crocheting 4 rows because, of course, when I am trying to count, people need to ask me questions.

Keep jumping today from reading to game to crochet to movies. As a result, nothing accomplished! Doesn't help that the game is buggy.

I realized that two ways I tend to show affection are baking with yeast and crocheting with black yarn. Just took 4 hours to make my FIL cinnamon rolls.

Tomorrow, I can finally take off the saniderm. I am having a lot of trouble with artistic and literary motivation. This is a depressing time line.

Husband will have surgery after first of the year. Trying to figure out what costs to slim down to save money before then to save money. Realizing that not much to cut. In other brighter news, I am being gifted a tattoo redo!

Things are getting tight, as we suspected they would. It is triggering my ED. Food scarcity is a major trigger.

So, about half the basement is okay. Not great, but okay. But, I hurt my ribs and have to take it easy. So will crochet a bit. Hope to write soon downstairs!

Started working on the basement because I decided to make my workspace happen myself. I have a suspicion it will take a minimum of 3 weeks to do. And will eventually need to rent a dumpster to throw some stuff out.

I try not to post too much angsty whiny stuff on here. But I am struggling right now. My husband's prostate cancer is now intermediate level after only two years, and now treatment options need discussed. Add in the crap going on in our country and other issues, and I am so overly.

I can't take anymore bad news this week. Just can't.

I am so tired of everything. This ridiculous... everything.

Nearly done with the laundry bag I am making for one of my kids. Also, Hell House LLC marathon for meeeee!

He is so weird coming out of it. He has told me he was violated, mentioned aliens and probes, that he would like to river dance, and now he has passed gas on me. Gonna be an interesting day.

Husband is having another biopsy today. 3rd one. Since prostate cancer tends to move slowly, they take a wait and see approach at this stage. But any new lesions have to be tested.

Lemon bars made. Ingredients for supper purchased. Birthday dinner for 29 year old, planned. I feel so old. Sigh.

Had to call off work. My leg locked up and would not work. Hurtssss!

Carpal tunnel is acting up. But so close to finishing the huge bag for one of my daughters.

Baked Golden Bubble Rolls for FIL and my husband. He ate about 7 in one sitting. And he wonders why he gets heartburn?

Told a friend yesterday that sometimes a bad pug in ESO is cathartic if you are also in a party with your friends because you can complain about how many times the DPS stand in stupid and die and/or roll away from the buffs I give. Please, unless you are a tank, don't stand "there"! Yes, I am heals!

This has not been my week. Got my wallet stolen Friday. Of course the little idiots don't realize, but all they really got was my ID. Because I am a broke bitch. Literally. No money. At all. So all they got was practice and a baby Yoda wallet. Now bringing out the Chuckie wallet to use!

I am just so tired of this whole... era.

I made my father on law two loaves of fresh bread. I had a slice and it was perfect! Looking at the bread in my kitchen and wish I made more!

Made someone laugh. Said I was going to need to brush more huskies to make more yarn, because... tariffs. Iykyk. But seriously I am making a small bit of yarn from my dog's fur because it is fun and warm.

1/4 done with this bag for one of my daughters. Wish I had more time to work on it this weekend.

Husband gave me unintentional inspiration for a character in one of my novels.

I am enjoying the pattern I am using right now. I am also trying to stave off anxiety and despair. So I am embracing the small joys.

My ribs were bruised last week. Still healing. But managed to weed beside my house this morning by sitting down and scooting around. Progress!

The Lawyer You Know on YouTube had a very interesting video regarding AI being used disastrously in courts. I think this is something that is going to need guarded against on all levels of the court system in the coming years.

For the first time in a long time all my alarms are off for 24 hours. Sleep time!

Having the only car with 5 people working and needing rides is going to make me crash out at some point. Love my family, but I am not made for less than 8 hours of sleep.

Back to work today. I don't feel ready. But, will still show up. My back muscles are already quivering and threatening to cramp.

Holding on to my peace by a thread. Can't work till Monday because I hurt my back, again.