Yeah I am just kind of miserable in my existence right now, the few things that bring me joy are heavily outweighed by the feeling of failure and lack of purpose in life... I need a change but I am not sure what can change that will fix me at this point.

Thinking about how my poor mental health lead to ruining several friendships over the past year is not good for my mental health... but here we are.

Update, sony still sucks, Marathon still rules. youtu.be/BN0JSxL6I-E

Following sony's lead I will no longer be producing physical copies and will only be available in digital form.

I can't watch the footage of the people on the top of the empire state building without having the worst wave of anxiety every come over me, holy shit.

I had a pretty bad day and then had a great evening with my wife... but then after she went to bed, depression decided it was time to visit again... so I just sat here and played Marathon all night, in the dark, by myself. I'm gonna be real sad when this game implodes.

FOMO week is coming soon...

As the only Marathon enjoyer I'm just here to say I enjoy marathon.

Shout-out to the mods of the world series of poker YouTube channel for smiting the shit bags immediately who are bothered by a trans woman at the final table of the ladies championship. A rare W in this day and age on the internet.

This game is quickly becoming one of my favorite games ever. in 14 days I've logged basically 10 hours a day every day.

I never want to post something that gets any kind of traction on this website ever again.

Yeah... twitch.tv/drex23

Maybe this is a hot take, maybe not... You aren't building a PC as capable from a gaming perspective as the steambox for a similar price right now. I've passed up opportunities to build PCs for people lately (and the income that would come with that) and just told them to buy a prebuilt.

Marathon is #content let me tell ya. www.youtube.com/shorts/BAKH-...

More Marathon. I just love this game so much. twitch.tv/drex23

yeah, basically all I want to do is play Marathon now... this is bad :)

Oh the shit bag from the UFC thing is local to me... that makes complete sense, this place is a fucking shit hole lmao.

Wife and I started it takes two tonight and man is it a lot of fun. We are gonna play some more of it the next two nights :)

My mom is in the hospital yet again. It's almost like my mom and my wife's mom are having a contest to see who can be more unwell. Ugh.

Marathon with Trios with special guests! twitch.tv/drex23

Felt like a little break from crawlin tonight to do some shooty. twitch.tv/drex23

Oh yeah forgot to post. I'm playing my first ever dungeon crawler! Shining the Holy Ark. So far it's pretty wild! twitch.tv/drex23

I never been in to extraction shooters but Marathon is my jam.

Mega Man X3 is brutal, but... I am a gamer, so naturally I beat it. Without the Z-Saber or the Gold Chip.

Am I depressed?? *looks at the mess on my desk* Yep.

Playin some Castlevania Dawn of Sorrow for a couple of hours before we do our monthly music video reactions. Should be a nice chill night, swing by and have a cold one with ya boy. twitch.tv/drex23

I finished WoW today... I can squeak out another .3% DPS or so with a few "optimal" upgrades. Most seasons I end up leveling an alt but, I haven't really felt like doing that, I may push for the 3400 rating in M+ but I am burned out on pugging.

Some days I truly feel like I am just a burden to everyone around me. Chronic illness sucks and I hate feeling like I have no power over my situation.

My new favorite sleepy time noise is 1940s war time radio with a good thunderstorm in the background

Yo Bubsy 4D slapped.

Hi Hello. I am starting a freshhhhhhhhh newwwwwwwwwww blinddddddddddd playthrough of Bubsy 4D right about now. twitch.tv/drex23

Yeah you should totally play the critically acclaimed FFXIV with a free trial up to level 80 they said. 5 minutes in to my journey...

Vet confirmed today that Izzy has IMHA which is an autoimmune disease where the immune system kills red blood cells. If they survive the initial crisis, medication can knock it in to remission. Of course I have a dog with an autoimmune disease.

Yeah... I know that things could be worse, but I feel like I've been in a perpetual loop of disappointment and crappy things happening for a long time now and it sure would be grand if ya boy could catch a break.

Rare Friday stream to make up for yesterday and I forgot to post... Balatro naneinf hunting and we got a sick run going twitch.tv/drex23

One of my doggos is very sick. Please keep poor Izzy in your thoughts. She's been a trooper and still wants pets and to play with other doggos at the vet despite being severely anemic.

Back to the N64 tonight and knocked out two games... Game #49 will be Top Gear Rally 2 starting tomorrow around 6PM PST ok see ya then.

Last couple of months have been pretty trying times for my wife and I. There's a lot of uncertainty with her job right now, our health insurance debacle took nearly 3 months to resolve and her mom has been in and out of the hospital and is back in the ICU today. If you have positive energy send it.

So after a lot of discussion between my wife and I, this is the stream schedule we have agreed makes the most sense. I have promised to take 2 nights off a week and she in turn has promised to leave work every day by 5 to make this happen.

First I get viewbotted... Now I can't log in to my twitch account. Everything is just coming up drex right now let me tell you.

Probably will be learning super meat boy 3D next week... it's got a lot of SM3DW energy and I am enjoying it quite a bit. Super Meat Boy was also the first game I ever streamed (way back on Justin.tv) and it holds a special place in my heart. A grind other than WoW soudns like a good change.

Running some keys, leveling an alt, doin things. twitch.tv/drex23

I am sick, streams will return when I'm feeling up to it.

starting off today a little different... we are checking out Raccoin, then some mid M+ and then our dailies. twitch.tv/drex23

if you'd like to add an ISS Piss tank tracker to your OBS as a browser source. I will not be answering any questions as to why I made this. drive.google.com/file/d/1c4zE...

It's a longshot but, I am looking for the following World of Warcraft Collector Edition boxes.. it would be cool if they had all the stuff they came with originally, but even if they are an empty box, I'll still take them, they will go directly into my collection. (see comment for what i'm seeking)

Resilient 12s achieved!

trying to finish all my +12 dungeons today, raid at 6... basically an all day long chill fest. twitch.tv/drex23

just like 547 more points to goooooooooooo. Most seasons I stop around 3200, but there's now an incentive to hit 3400 so... guess I'm doin that.