I'm feeling much better today, let me finish setting up this reading journal and finally share the new reading bingos for 2026. I'm really excited about these. 🥰

Harlequin, what are you even doing. Listen, I've been keeping an eye out on the print copies of the Game Changers bc suddenly a lot of ppl in my life wouldn't be opposed to reading them & I only have a couple of the old mad market paperbacks & I'm keeping those. So I keep checking.

I’ve had to up my fundraiser for overdue rent and bills. I’ve made a partial payment on my rent, but I need to get the rest of it covered ASAP to keep my housing. Thank you for donating/sharing!

I feel weird making statements like this but also I feel like I need to. I'll very rarely comment on political things in the future, especially ones I can't do a thing about for various reasons. I share things I see & repost things, but this TL right here is going to be books & my brain rabbits.

Oh yeah, I've just posted about this the other day I think. To be fair, sometimes I don't think ppl actually know what exactly they love about HR. But also the amount of low-heat/ closed door romances, YA books with a romantic plot and myriad of m/f not-sports romances I've seen are concerning.

Oh this nerve pain is kicking my ass badly, JFC. It's not the biggest reason but also one reason I hate the whole ai slop shit is that people do all the fucked up things nobody wants and you tell me nobody figured out how to make my spine even moderately healthy again?! That's just extra fucked up.

I haven't watched it yet, but... called it 😂

Oh, somebody posted something about this. That means I can- NO. M. Don't do it. Don't do it don't do it don't do it Fuck it. Now that we've entered the "and they didn't show the lube!" part of the discourse, I cannot wait for the arguments about what lube substitute is okay to write in a book. 🫠

I'm hereby declaring I'm not reading a single piece of media about HR anymore, no matter how nuanced or thoughtful ppl tell me it is. I'm living at the crossroad of "I started reading m/m in 2008", nonbinary & bi & "I was on Twitter in 2015". I can't.

So. Today certainly was a day. I am in so much stupid pain and I could feel it coming all morning, so here we are. Blergh. But for as long as the hands work I will try to get this reading journal set up. I can't start the year without a ready to go reading journal, I can't read like that! 😅

Well. Would you look at that. And suddenly a streaming service *is* able to show queer content in the original version on German television screens. Interesting, that.

If you have a queer middle grade book coming out in 2026, now's a good time to tell me 👀👀👀👀

Sometimes my brain gets fixated on a band and I keep listening to them for hours and hours and it's actually really sad when it's one that isn't together anymore. Even when it's sometimes better when they aren't. (Brought to you by me listening to the HEAVEN album by Dilly Dally all day)

A friend of friend is having a hard time. If you can't spare a dollar, please spread this post? gofund.me/5aeb3973f

Seriously. This year is already off to the races, mhmh. Love to see it. 🤌

Oh we're like starting starting this year, okay

Oh also, in case anyone at all is waiting for my reading bingos for the new year: I have them ready, I'm very hopeful that I'll have the energy to add them to storygraph tomorrow and then also upload them here & on insta 🫶

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Okay, I don't know where it started but I now had several people on two different apps & timelines talking about Heated Rivalry *clearly* being a sapphic story because a woman wrote it and it's so filled with care, consent and softness, obviously it's from a woman & quintessentially sapphic.

I'm not doing shit today. I went on a short walk to get cigarettes, I am done now. Some light reading, listening to Dilly Dally obsessively, cuddling up to Mr M who goes back to work tomorrow. Gobbling up leftovers & being fiercely in love with my found family. That's it. The rest can wait.

I feel like I should explain that this a bit bc there's actually an incredible story being that. So for over ten years Mr M told me about his closest friend in high school. After they graduated they both went to the army, then suddenly his best friend went no contact with absolutely everyone.

I hate surprise visits, but I especially hate them on new years. But Mr M is so happy about it all, I can't even be too mad. I am really fucking tired though. 😫

Since it's time here, happy new year to all of you. May this new one treat us with more kindness and bring you all the strength and joy you need. ♥️

I need this brain to do some shit and we're not getting anywhere so now I'm creating a soundtrack for my own personal "things I need to get done" list, which will also be my playlist for the evening. I've been very emotional lately, might be a bit pain related, so music has felt different lately.

Listen. If there's one thing I will actually try to do next year is celebrating the tiny little wins I can get, especially during flare ups. Fuck what everyone else accomplishes or manages to do, today I washed my fucking hair despite exhaustion, nerve pain and tingling hands. Give me a gd medal. ✨

Also BEHOLD I washed my hair. Applause.

I have like five hours to finish these two reads and get the apartment ready for when the bff shows up to eat and chill on the couch until midnight That's like... Absolutely doable, right? Right. Maybe I'll just read until 23:59 and see how that goes. 😂

Ha. Hahaha haha, High School Musical just turned 20 years old. Hahahaha Ha What do you mean What

I haven't seen any Stranger Things episode since my attention span left somewhere in season 3, and Mr M hasn't watched yet bc he doesn't need to for work anymore (and his attention span isn't great either these days). I did see that there was a coming out & subsequent review bombing.

I'm so annoyed at my brain for being utterly *stuck* at this fucking coming out scene in the HR finale. Which I guess is a sign that it absolutely did what it set out to do, at least for me. But I'm also annoyed bc I'm not an obsessive fan in general & this is more about my shit than the show really

Hey, I’m just a sapphic author who needs some help to get by in the new year. If you can’t contribute, can you boost? Every little bit helps 💖

I wish I didn’t have to do this, but I have no choice. I need some financial help to pay my rent and bills ASAP. You can also support me by buying books directly from my ebook shop as well: ko-fi.com/A356F63/goal...

This whole fucking year has come for a lot of people, it feels like the end of the year is coming completely unglued with death. And like, rest in piss Bardot and good riddance, but like... So many and so many before their fucking time, can't it be the ones we're all collectively rooting for?! JFC.

Fuck yes, somebody asked on the other app what the best Paramore songs are and I'm only willing to do that here, but let me share my top 10 of this month. 😌 10. Brighter Underrated imo and also one of the ones I've been playing at the center non-stop. The kids are kinda over it. But I'm not.

This book is so lovely, y'all!!!!

I was treating myself to a hot chocolate in one of the oldest cafés in the city. The one with the dark curtains, comfy chairs & dainty floral cups. Helge Schneider (don't ask) was drinking coffee right next to me. I smiled to myself briefly. We both finished our drinks in peace, not a word spoken.

Oh God yes, give me the AITA-style pitches all the time, those practically sell me on everything!

Funny, that just happened and I think it was the only time this year (that I could see). All I said was I'll never accuse indie authors with years of work under their belt and a big catalogue of published books of theft/ using AI on principle. It is kind of funny now, at least.

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I started a gofundme to try to get through this (hopefully!!) last month of income loss. I'm SO grateful for any help, including sharing the fundraiser. The more folks who see it the better our chances! Thank you all so much 💜💜

I downloaded threads bc I wanted to see this one person talk about something and then I scrolled down twice, closed the app and deleted it again. It's not worth it to me. I can't be there, it feels like Twitter ~2017 and I barely made it through that year. Nope. Absolutely not.

Honestly, I'm sending a ton of extra strength to the queer authors whose books have been recommended to ppl who loved Heated Rivalry, but without context. Because I can imagine things getting intense and not in a good way when I look at some of these rec posts that just throw everything queer in.

You know, there's this scene at the end of The Cottage episode when they talk with the parents & there's this line in the book "Ilya likes both." And I was hoping so much they would change it on screen, or leave it out. But they put it in there exactly as it is. Of course I flinched again.

Holy shit, I just stumbled over someone by accident who I spent a lot of time talking to on Twitter ten years ago and then completely lost track of. There's something absolutely shocking in a very delightful way to me about finding someone again after so many years - especially these latest years.

Oh no, someone did a fan edit of episode 6 to The Fray's Look After You and now I'm crying again.

Good news, y'all! I start a new job in early January! Yay! Beyond relieved at the prospect of a regular paycheck again. The bad news, I won't get a full paycheck until the end of January when February's bills are already due. Help? 💜 Thank you, friends. gofund.me/0aa47e25f

In light of this one screenshot going around, I'm happy to report that this year I've read ~90 porny books and a lot of them were absolutely delightful. I also read ~190 not porny books and a lot of them were also delightful. I'm actually a little sad I haven't read more porny books this year.

Insomnia. Also I'm still thinking about coming out things today. Specifically the difference between coming out (to someone) and being out (in front of people). When someone tried to out me as lesbian in highschool things were complicated. For one, homophobic af small town.

So I spent the day with my parents & sibling. Little one & I were watching news, stepfather sits next to us quietly. Once the tone got really agitated he quietly tapped me on the shoulder to ask what's going on. Sibling says "Fucking Trump!" Him: Oh thank God! Me: What

I'm not ready to admit defeat on any of the books I'm still currently reading, who knows how many I'll actually finish in *checks notes* 3 days. 😬