Elderly family member in A+E. Another one insanely ill. Everyone’s nerves shot through and stressed trying to manage everything. I’d love if the world could leave the ppl I care about alone.

i h8 landlords + agents man you can be like 'we have black mould growing in the staircase' and theyre like 'damn that sucks ☹️ i guess we cant do anything about that' bestie they are establishing government back there

Our rent going up again 🙂🔫 wahoo.

Baby boy passed away in the night. Didn’t even last till his vet appt. Really fucking miserable tonight ngl

Is everything not hard enough. What the fuck ever man

My sweet little fucking cat has cancer. Im pissed off I told everyone I told all the people with the means the money the cars the vet info he was sick he wasn’t normal and no one paid any attention. My fucking cat is dead on his feet because no one fucking listened to me. I’m sick of it man

Nah I think I’m done. Im done man

Falling asleep but thinking when I’ve got time I wanna design a butchie hack and slash protag style chara for funsies. Why are all the action girlies high bar femmes where the goofy cunts in baggy jeans titty tape greasy hair and jackets with 547437 bullet holes in them

i cannae take rich ppl man. rot in their hearts and poison in their souls i hope the lot of their estates burn i hope their investments crash i hope they cant stand to look themselves in the mirror everyday every one of them is fucking loanshark scum

whatvever the world if i wasnt stuck on this rollercoaster

ik i have to start getting myself psyched up to start thinking about comms again n reorganising my slots n making new graphics and all those bells and whistles but if im being honest the reality of playling the socmed rat race n job hunt again is withering me somewhat

Had a terrible dream I accidentally spent 1.5 grand on a single pull of a Leon S Kennedy mobile gacha game I downloaded as a joke which proceeded to ruined me financially and then I woke up with a terrible migraine

reading thru some docs on victorian metaphysics today theyre doing sum crazy stuff in there

Consequences of my week long 3-5 hr crash out sleep schedule finally kicked in and I accidentally slept for 10-11 hrs I’m like so cooked

handed in the last bit of workload ive been struggling against i think january has finally been defeated

omfg i got a tax refund. maybe 2026 will be so good actually

I need to stop waking up at 2pm my sleep schedule is so boned right now. We aren’t getting enough hours of sunlight to play this game

wait i lied i have one new art. kamdred 2b pants explosion mechanic real not clickbait

Anyway being a creative lately feels like this

We cannae be serious lads. Indie job listing are getting too bold we have to start cyber bullying

This fatigue executive dysfunction whatever shit pissing me off I’m sick of it taking 5437436 years for me to do basic shit

mordred/cwyllog wind down b4 bedtime

Aware this is a skill issue but I struggle a lot sometimes getting character faces on model to the one in my head getting it perfect once in a blue moon feels sometimes like a fly blindly banging on the canvas window one two three times before unceremoniously flittering out the window

Promise do won’t do this with every book I read I’ve just legit been thinking about that passage for like the whole day it’s haunted me

Anyway sincerity moment over sorry for the highlights ever since I learned you could highlight pdfs I became a such vandal it is a sickness I know

Finished heights of despair quite a lot of beautiful and resonant passages esp in the latter half, think my new fav passage is Ambiguity of Suffering. Can’t get into the whys of it w/ a chara limit lol but like I think it echoes a sort of prickly and almost embarrassing truth abt trauma

2026 i need to go back to being elden ring pilled i havent been a real gamer in months.. nightreign come here

you have to keep going ok.......... for your oc

work distraction. raiden butt scribble poses

desperately trying not to go on a doomer despair rant abt the video game industry rn omfg fuckass ceo talking abt human beings health and wellbeing like theyre fucking coal into a machine i cant take itjnjhgjhgghfrydryudtyifdyt

Really like the idea that you can use one successful company to refute the sustainability of crunch. Can we use the myriad companies that have crunched and gone under to counter this assertion? Well, no.

wip im liking the look of. mentally ill women you will always be famous

also did nearly cry when i saw this a few days after new year when i was in a major downturn and read it 5 times in a row so sorry in advance if become obnoxious and start reading nietzsche..... 🥀

anyway been missing my ugly ps2 wife i need to draw him properly sometime

still on hiatus on my mains bc ummmmm the paranoia demons are going to kill me 🫶 but i can spam here in the meantime yay 🫶

they need to invent a kind of porn thats easy to draw. whatever. t4t sex beam 🏳️‍⚧️💎 (mordred x cwyllog)

Bro I gotta start working out at the library

Looking more and more likely as the second most unemployed-adjacent person in my family I’m gonna need to sub in as a carer for one of my fam not long into the new year which is gonna be a rough thing to try and plan around

Update it doesn’t look good but at least I feel like a faggot again lol

vaguely inebriated stressed as balls abt life feeling vulnerble lately lowkey dysphoric/morphic af strongly consideringat 2:30am giving myself a haircut in a bathroom w/ a broken overhead light will cosnider actions for about 10 minutes then update in the cold morning hours

Trying to tackle my silent hill demons then breaking one open to discover a bigger, worse silent hill demon inside 🥀

screenshots of despair

Going to bed at 7:30 waking up at 4pm my sleeping so cooked bro

Barely just woke up finding out one of my fam is getting sent out to hospital with a laundry list of problems (they’re elderly) gotta be honest this is already sapping my will to do much of anything today

whatever battling the demons by going back to making softcore porn refs in the sims

trying to remake my comm post bc my hours are p heavy slashed for at least the next few months and man rationally ik this is probs just a temp melancholia of the night but idk i feel like i have not made any personal art the last few months ive actually felt proud of 😞🚬

Finally cracked and pirated a shitload of sims 4 so I can finally live out my the dream of mordred being a homeless goth squatting in the basement of a burnt out building. The only thing standing in my way is every cc creator seemingly being allergic to making half decent side bang hairstyle

sorry ik i made this side acc for porn but all i do is use it as a journal and complain lol 🥀 can you all just imagine mordred getting railed instead for the time being. theatre of the mind is a valuable thing

omg literally me hashtagFatigue hashtagSleepy hashtagImTired hashtagCrashOut

kamdred break.. ik i draw him as a catboy bc thats his temperment + a kitty is a good pairing for him + i like nyanya boys but cna you take a moment to imagine him surrounded by excited dogs slobbering all over his face