please come get stoned and watch dawson's creek with me ✨

there is so much snow oh my god, gonna cuddle up with a blanket and listen to black metal all day 🥰

perusing through my tumblr posts from like 2019 and it's causing me emotional whiplash

that geese album from this year is no good at all. like if matt bellamy and x ambassadors got together to make a krautrock album

happy halloween ya'll

go see daisy grenade live if u can! their set last night at the rec room was fucking great

last minute concert with a friend tonight was really lovely

a day or two ago, stoned on a bus

what the fuck is happening feelin like i got 7 days 😞😔

nosferatu / phantom of the opera double feature with live score ruled, great night

this has been such a great year for heavy shit, yay skramz

one of his best tracks ever for real. love how the sample sounds like its being played from a shitty car radio down the block just out of sight

just purchased dollanganger's 'natural born losers' on vinyl, my morning is a good one

listening to the new klein tape she's done it again girlie don't miss

woke up yesterday to my friend texting me that they are going to kill themselves, i've been there too many times to count and whatever ppl told me about hope didn't exist in my mind in that headspace and i have just been constantly breaking down with anxiety & pain over this i feel fucking helpless

how bout no longer being masochistic how bout remembering your divinity

anxiety !! skin crawling anxiety !!

yoooooo where has this album been hiding at, this rules

i wanna touch the nothingness

google searching "can i be platonically love bombed?" at 2am

a new favorite

have been doing nothing but writing tracks for an upcoming ep feat. and a song that might've fit well on an afi record circa 03-06

feeling pretty damn artistically worthless tonight

listening to vivaldi while shaking my ass

seeing ethel cain tonight 🤎

let's go buffalo 🗣️💙

🩸spooky playlist for the season🩸

it's like u never had wings

deftones with husband tonight 🫶🏻

having pure-o sucks but is also really funny, like you're telling me i have to turn on and off a light 8 times in a row or else i don't exist, comedic gold

the new earl sweatshirt is lovely

showing off and talking a about your hyperfixations is cunty

loving the peter rehberg influence throughout this

a bat nearly flew into my apt just now, i think it was trying to make friends with my cat on the balcony

i do have quite a few ideas swirling around for my next project, and i still desire to have a short film for 'i am dead, yet i live.' and maybe a bandcamp release at some point. i have an alt cover art if it ever gets a physical

the intermingling between formalistic storytelling & diaristic behaviors on 'i am dead, yet i live.' indicates my own obsession with being private in public, the act of sharing & indulging in personhood intersecting with an artist intent. john and yoko's 'wedding album' meant a lot to the project.

one thing i was playing with on 'i am dead, yet i live.' is the recording of recorded music, or like the dynamics of listening to a recording of a recording. i wanted the album to dive deeper into itself as it nears its close the "recorded" music slowly changing to a "live" intimacy.

just listening to this all afternoon today honestly

mom's not a metal girl so i shared 'changes' with her and she really liked it !

i had a dream a strange old man was living inside of my walls, and like i knew it was happening and just like, accepted it i guess

my dad has asked me to put together a varied playlist to listen to while he trains for a running marathon, which made me so happy because i love putting together playlists designed for specific personalities !! it's like giving someone a hand made gift in some ways

Happy for The Iron Sheik who has been waiting in the afterlife with a chair in his hands for a bit now.

i just danced through my panic attack listening to this

help i don't know whether to.. (listen to carrie audiobook) (watch my so-called life) (eat more leftover bday cake)

fakemink has put out a handful of soty tracks this year. especially loving 'kacey lola' and 'under your skin'

bday party

sort of starting to thrive in my thirties

hi ✨

it's my bday and i made a friend