january 2025.

sorry for being gone

sorry fo being so inactive ive been going insane

merry Christmas who else up feeling fat

Goodnight. I hope tomorrow is a binge free day for us all

i feel so sick all the time

woke up wish such a bad hangover today

pooped twice today who cheered

leg bc :p

I dontlike how I feel right now, kinda paranoid and on edge uggh

Im going to eat a lot today to reassure my partner, I hope I dont gain, I will try and exercise tonight but I'm sure I will be too tired

my leg hurts so bad, im gonna go get stitches today i think

it's been a while but lord did this feel gooood

how to convince my family that bmi 16 is not deathly thin and i still have 2 bmi points to drop

im gonna go walk around town for a few hours

december update (T-T)

if I semi recovered in december how much would I gain, I could relapse in january and get back down to my lw next year... maybe I could find my metabolism and loose faste but that's just wishful thinking

tmi but I'm waiting to weigh myself till I shit bc I haven't in like 3 days and I bet I'm gonna be so much lighter 😭

「december calorie tracker」 12.01.24 #edsky #caterpillarsky

how much did everyone loose in november, i lost a total of 1.8 kg :/

look who i got at the mall today

im basing my cal goal off my steps next month, so if i get 9k steps i can have 900 cals etc.

WILL I GAIN FROM A 2000c DAY

happy thanksgiving!! im not counting calls today but hope i can hit 10k steps

I want ice cream so bad but that will put me over my cal limit grrrrrrr

head hurts sooo bad

aftercare pro

i cant do anything right i make mistakes everywhere i go over and over again no mater how hard i try im a failure and should go die in a hole

grrrrrr (tw sh)

i worked a shortened shift today tell me why it feels so much longer

ate like a pig today I want to kms why can't I just have restraint

this picture triggers me so bad

IT'S ALMOST DECEMBER AHHHHHHH

there was broccoli in the cafeteria yesterday so I didn't bring a lunch today hoping I could get cooked veggies or a salad and th only thing in the cafeteria today is mac n cheese and hamburgers 😐

egg and protien yogurt for breakfast tomorrow, lunch will be something small from the cafeteria and hopefully my partner doesn't drag me into eating dinner twice which happens too often

first rain of the season (≧∇≦)b

I was doing so well staying under 500 today and then I had a slice of cake (눈‸눈)

I'm so hungry but I'm going to go to bed so I can't eat any more

im gonna try and omad ben and jerrys sometime soon

the day I choose to recover I know I'm going to be so much happier but the fear of gaining is too much right now

playing a game where I take a bunch of sleeping pills and then try to stay awake

my partner is ordering pizza and I know it's intentionally to get me to eat

work lunch (ღ˘⌣˘ღ)

I need the purple colorway of this set so bad

私のキーボードには自動翻訳機能があります

I don't know what's coming over me but I have the urge to make today a "give in to extreem hunger day" and just let myself binge I will regret this tomorrow

update: it's moldy