the learned helplessness i see from so many uk trans folks is so sad and it got to me for way too long as well. you really really need to get DIY hormones and tell your friends about it bc thats the only way out.

i sincerely believe that the nhs waiting list for transgender care is just gaslighting atp. nobody who has gotten on the waiting list post ~2018 is ever getting care from the nhs and they know it

like all of my friends are bi or lesbian which means my algorithm shows me all the hot women they click like on. how do i let the algorithm down gently and let it know im straight

thinking of opening up composition/music theory teaching courses soon, idk how much interest there is tho

i think its worth remembering theres a reason why every member of the trump administration is afraid to be seen in public. if they didn't have good security it would go much worse for them. don't run from or disavow your own power.

osrs leagues coming out when i have like 3 intersecting deadlines is rude of jagex

I now have a demo reel in 3-minute video form for anyone thinking of commissioning me! youtu.be/JIQAU4tMZsE

last month I wrote the soundtrack for a game jam game by @mixter.bsky.social and i'm very happy with how it turned out! ive uploaded it to my portfolio on bandcamp here: evevickers.bandcamp.com/album/game-s...

i need to write a piece for string quartet. not like because i have an opportunity or a comission or anything just spiritually.

my new piece 'New Advances in Alchemy' was just premiered by hispid ensemble @ CURIO Festival yesterday!! video to be uploaded soon!!!!

NEW PIECE premiering at CURIO festival @ AATMA in Northern Quarter, Manchester on the 27th of February!! to be performed by hispid ensemble (who are all lovely people!)

got a pretty big week for music coming up so if you like it when music is strange stay tuned

need to finish a piece for the 29th but deadlock updated. this is going to be complicated

my music is going in a very conceptual angle recently. which is fun but also means i haven’t actually written many notes on a score in a while

i need to do more networking like freelance musicians are meant 2 do

!! NEW ALBUM OUT !! A compilation of 4 electroacoustic pieces written from 2024-2025, written using recorded improvisations on objects of sentimental value to me, about home, familiarity, memory, and the environments we create around ourselves. evevickers.bandcamp.com/album/ideolo...

played a lot of videos games in 2025 so i decided to give my thoughts on them. here's the full list but im going to give more detailed thoughts on my top 6

i ran out of time to do a more complete end of year post but here's a picture of my cat + a picture @ llandudno (i went there this year with Massive Nun!) + a group picture of the CAPPA course @ snape maltings (i went there this year with Britten Pears arts!)

i unfortunately was unable to get a full recording from a good angle, but the full performance for my piece for CAPPA 2025 should be coming in june 2026 at the aldeburgh festival!!

In general, it will strongly benefit you to experience art the "wrong" way from time to time. Watch a sequel first, read the funky scanlation, play the shitty port. See what you get out if it, and how that differs from what people normally get out of it.

My piece for the CAPPA open day went so well, details/video coming soon

final day of CAPPA… its been so good

Britten Pears CAPPA day 1!!!!!

starting a movement to make train station onigiri as cheap and common as greggs sausage rolls

i dont post gaming stuff much on this account but i might start. i played a lot of games this year so i might do a top whatever list of that type sometime soon

week-long composition course coming up in a few days and it still doesn't feel real. i need to get back to listening to New Music or its over for me

i dont have a spotify wrapped to post because i do not enjoy using spotify or the mode it proscribes for music listening

getting out of my music making slump by making background music for my vtm campaign. hope it works

its been a week since i saw all that jazz in my movie nights and i cant believe a lot of my friends did not like it that much. to me thats such an incredible movie

decadent creature complains whenever she doesn’t get to sleep on the velvet cushion

i need to stop having piece ideas that require a lot of preliminary work that i can't be bothered to do

had a good day today. saw a friends piece in concert and then ran my first vampire the masquerade session and both things went very well!

i sometimes wonder why i can never seem to write anything good september-december. i typically only have the ability to make music i like for the first half of the year.

i didnt have much respect for the bbc but its so funny that the right wing still hates them for not being sufficiently reverent enough to them. they'll never win because the new right wing authoritarianism is corporate and not public

piece title?

massive nun

had to get up early bc im going to llandudno today, 8 hour journey if im lucky

i have too many pieces i want to start writing i need to invent time travel so i can go and write each one of those pieces and see if i like it or not and then go back to decide which one is the best one

Breaking: Miss Major Griffin-Gracy, the legendary transgender activist and veteran of the Stonewall uprising who dedicated her life to the liberation of trans people, especially Black trans women, has died at 78.

i need to write an open score piece soon but this is hard. im too used to writing extremely precise music now i need to go back to the opposite direction

i saw One Battle After Another and liked it a not. but i don't get why this is being talked about as a 5-star best picture contender (it wasn't imo)

it seems like my instagram is hacked. i reset the password with 2fa and its still posting weird shit so i might need to do a full windows reinstall just to be safe

so like presumably the company that makes tylenol did not give trump the bribe money he demanded and therefore this is happening

beat tokimemo girls side. unfortunately tokimemo 2 clears

i think people need to start realising that right wingers are much more toothless than they think. the worst they do is get drunk and yell at people and get themselves killed.

how many charlie kirks will it take for right wingers to listen to reason? we know he's not the first and he won't be the lsat.

that's silksong done. maybe i should get back to having a life now

about 2 go see my neighbour totoro stage play at the theatre

silksong is eating up all my time and the worst part is its not even close to over yet

today's bandcamp friday which means you can get my album and all the fees will go to me! don't miss out - it's 30 minutes of high-quality atmospheric music!