At my gate and waiting to head to see my mans 💚 my heart needs this so much

The biggest lesson I've learned in the last year or so: Anyone who treats your happiness like something is being taken away from them, is not someone worth spending any amount of energy on. Ever.

3K Celebration on Saturday 2/28 starting at 10AM central! I will be doing group games with friends and community games. Come celebrate with meee before I leave for the UK! 💚

Last night's stream gave me hope I haven't felt in a long time streaming. Honestly with the whole bully situation, I've been made to feel like I don't belong and that I'm unwanted, so I have stopped going to a lot of streams I used to enjoy. I had so much love and hype last night

I feel pretty confident in handling bullies in chat, but what do you do when the bully is another streamer? Like what can you do? Especially when the majority of it happens in discord or off Twitch?

My dad’s cat violently attacked my step mom and I within less than a month last year. He has said he will get rid of her because we aren’t safe. Because she’s old he cannot find a shelter that will take her (of course he purposely doesn’t disclose her violent history with us).

The way I love this goober who is my partner! He told me he was tempted to get back into Overwatch and I offered to play with him. He said to install and now I'm waiting 84 years for this thing to finish 😆 I haven't played since Overwatch first came out back in the day, so give me all the tips!

I'm going to see Iron Lung tonight and I'm super heckin excited! I've heard good things and the complaints I've heard were pretty small like run time could've been a little shorter. I might do an Iron Lung playthrough at some point?

Since last summer, I've been feeling like I don't belong, even in close circles. One of the best things I've done for my mental health is taking a step outside of my usual circles and getting to know new people. I've met some really nice creators and have gotten exposed to new

First episode of my partner picking my game/ Ori and the Blind Forest gameplay is up now on YouTube youtu.be/MxG4sqE_XJk?...

New hair don’t care! Live now on Twitch continuing Ori and the Blind Forest 💚

I will be live on Twitch at 5PM central to continue Ori and the Blind Forest! See ya in about 30 minutes 💚

Live now on Twitch - playing the Resident Evil DLC

Long distance is weird because what do you mean I met my soulmate and I can’t hug him without having to wait several months 🥺

Live now on Twitch! I am spinning a wheel of games hand picked by my lovely partner- hopefully it lands on something good! 💚

Live now on Twitch! We playing Phasmophobia now that I’m back from the UK!

Live now on Twitch! Last stream before my UK trip. We are checking out The Other Side Halloween event, maybe Phas later 🎃

Live now on Twitch with some more Resident Evil Village! Will we get to the end finally?

Mmm manblood! Bela D is live on my Channel now about to play some Resident Evil Village 🖤

2 WEEKS!!! only 2 more weeks and I get to be with my lovely partner in the UK. I am over the moon excited 💚💚💚

Apparently today is my affiliate anniversary! I’m live now on Twitch about to hunt some ghosts with the bestie 👻

I have been so burnt out with life and work that I almost forgot why I love streaming. I played community games tonight and stayed laughing the whole time. I also got to play with so many wonderful people and for the first time in a long while completely unmasked while live. 🥺💚

We hunting ghosts with the community tonight! I am live on Twitch 💚

It really bothers me that no one used possessive language on my partner until we got together, now it’s so common. By all means compliment him, engage in banter, but calling him yours in any capacity feels like a boundary crossed. Unless it’s like ‘my friend’ or something it’s just inappropriate ☹️

I am live now on Twitch!! Celebrating my birthday and 3 years of streaming for a full 12 hours 🎉🎉

Martin and I played a little of Lego Voyagers last night and I don’t think I’ve ever enjoyed a co-op game that much. There is a sing button and both little blocks sing. The puzzles challenge you but are also not too hard. Plus only 1 person needs to own it at least for PC to play together.

Any ‘friend’ who frames your healing and care for your own well-being as betrayal was never a friend to begin with. That’s been a big lesson for me this year.

I am extending my hiatus until the 20th but I will be doing a big celebration when I get back! No sub goal just vibes but I will be giving away some merch 💚🎉

My schedule for this week! We have The Exit 8 with their newest update, which includes new anomalies alongside a bunch of chaos! Also welcome to the new starting schedule! Night Time seems best for people :)

Last night was the first stress free sleep I’ve had in a long time. Only problem is now I am overly tired because body is like ‘oh sleep we can do that now’

For those of y’all not in discord - I am taking some time for me. Birthday/ 3 year celebration still on 9/20 💚 See ya soon

Time for ghost hunting - I am live on Twitch right meow

Surprised him with the Dune 2 Popcorn bucket. He mentioned it once months ago, so I sent him a package with the bucket, some American goodies, and a love letter spritzed with my perfume 💚 his face was priceless hahaha

This man just watched me cry all evening and said he was gonna stick with me through this, gave me a lot of reassurance and soothed fears I didn’t even tell him I had but he instinctively knows. You’re telling me men could be like this THE ENTIRE TIME?!?! 🤣

I had a great stream yesterday and I still ended up in tears from the time I went offline to the time I went to bed. Small things right now feel big because lol burnout. Really hoping that lets up soon

Made a few new characters~ This is my cursed werewolf girly, Ethel

Cosplay stream is a go on Twitch! 💚

Surprise cosplay stream on Twitch at noon central (in about 10 minutes)! Lady D is playing Resident Evil: Village 🖤

Still super proud of this collab with @thennecan.bsky.social - "Proof of a Hero" from Monster Hunter, orchestra meets rock! I arranged the orchestra and had the fortune to get to work with a bunch of super talented musicians. Go have a listen! :) youtu.be/rc8EPyVBddw?... #monsterhunter #vgmcover

For those not in the discord. This year has brought me tons of beautiful things, as well as things that have been difficult dealing with to say the least. Taking one week-ish long breaks haven't really helped, so I'm changing up the content a bit. 💚

After years of not being a priority and not having my needs met, having someone who wants me to feel secure and loved is like a balm for the soul 😭I can't wait to be in the UK to put my arms around him

Do I know any other ADHD folks in the streaming space who have issues with hanging with people? It's not that I don't want to, it's that it takes up time and energy I usually don't have. (all spoons - day job most of the time). I am trying to break out of that more. How do you do it?

Playing Peak with my lovely partner on Twitch today 💚 we're getting started at noon central

I got my partner in the UK a really nerdy gift and all sorts of American goodies to send to him. I don't think I've ever been more excited to ship a package in my life 😅

My dog turned 11 yesterday and I remembered this picture of him DEAD ASLEEP exists 😆 He did this a lot when we lived at the previous house. I'm sure he still would if there was a coffee table for him to rest his chin on hahah 🎉My goofy bb boi is getting to be an old boi 😭

Meme brain: when you search for mercury retrograde by searching for 'mercury haterade' and 'mercury gatorade' because you can't remember the word retrograde 😅

After what I've been through this year, there are things I will never do for anyone again. Even if they come from a kind place, it's better for me in the long run to protect my mental health. I won't be used again, sorry 🤷‍♀️my mental health and well-being matters too, and I'm allowed to be happy

Got hit in the feels with something unexpected before stream and almost didn't stream due to that. Then had constant tech issues, that I troubleshooted all day and still wasn't able to make a full stream happen. Today sucks, this weekend sucks, and I need a hug.

Been getting more 'I miss your face' comments whenever I go PNG. While I love that y'all miss seeing me, please also understand it's so heckin hot in my room. There's some days I won't be able to keep the lights on due to the heat and the lighting here is not great. You wouldn't see much anyway 😅

Is it bad that all I can hear in my head right now is Ron Perlman saying 'War, War never changes'? it feels so shitty to be an American right now