Flashback: Photo by Gareth Jordan

Not gonna lie, ever since I found out about Throne, I've been setting mine up to be as unhinged as possible.

Flashback: The boy spends an afternoon as my little pup with our new remote-controlled shock collar by @DiscerningSpec . I even got a tag engraved with my details in case he gets lost.

The Boy is back home with some gorgeous bruises and his cock still firmly caged. It's times like these when we both realise how much we both love our lives 💕

I just packed The Boy off to the home of a VERY strict and beautiful woman for a weekend of - well, he doesn't know yet. Life is good when we share!

This magazine article is more than just a piece of vintage fluff journalism. It's actually VERY important to me. In fact, this is the March 1998 UK issue of Marie Claire, which first taught me, age seven, that BDSM was real, and possible. Everything changed for me right here.

Out of the sleep sack and showered off - then back into the steel belt and his new pair of #mrriegillio leather pants. Just in time for a trip to the kink-friendly hair salon where I can leave a leathery, locked boy safely in their lobby.

After breakfast, the boy was taken out of the steel belt... at a price. This is a #fettersuk hood very kindly lent to us by some lovely friends. The boy likes it (I think? I can't hear him). This is the thickest leather hood we've ever played with!

"What, were you expecting to be wearing something different when you woke up?" Unleashed from the bed frame, the boy takes a moment to take in his situation before he goes to make me some coffee.

Goodnight, my little thing x. The boy spent the whole evening in the straitjacket, and now he's prepared for a cozy night in my bed - leashed to the bedframe and locked in chastity, of course. What a nice reminder that he hasn't cum in two weeks.

Just some casual, relaxed clinking on the sofa next to me this evening. Nothing quite like kinky cuddles at the end of a long week. Yes, I know I haven't done the "4000 minutes in bondage" challenge yet, but the boy and I will be using this weekend as a warm-up.

There's nothing quite like having a sub harnessed, defeated, locked up, blissed out and at my mercy. An utterly objectified creature for me to use, nurture, command and enjoy. It's times like these when I like to pause and really take in what I've done to them.

My favourite part of playtime - when he tests the limits of his chains for the first time, and realises how screwed he is. That little "clunk" as a chain jerks to its tightest extent - that's the moment I live for. After that, I can feel the helplessness radiating from him ❤️.

A short break between locking up and locking down - I watched my boy squirm as he tried and failed to get comfortable with a plug and a biting leather strap locked deep in his ass. Such a subtle moment, but so enchanting for me. I could watch this for hours.

2020 Flashback: we made sure that our new Working From Home arrangements weren't too strenuous.

Flashback: You're bored, but then you remember you have a boy hooded and chained up under your bed. (I'll post more up-to-date content at some point - until then I hope you're enjoying some less-censored archive clips)

Flashback: It was 2019. I'd just met the boy. We'd been on a few dates. He brought this to my house and set it up in my bedroom. Then he let me lock him in it. Reader, I married him.

Edged for the hundredth time... and then left completely alone. No way out, nowhere for that desperate energy to go, no way of knowing if you'll be forced to squirt or locked up again, nothing to focus on except your need.

Flashback: Trialling one of my favourite setups ever. Really must try this again with fewer clips, more padlocks, and some tension on the balls. Any more recommendations?

Today I want something simple. Something to cuddle up to in my bed. Something that's soft and pretty and compliant and completely trapped.

The fact is, I spent years thinking the scene expected me to look and present a certain way, or nothing I did was worth much. It took the joy out of it all. I'm taking a different approach these days, one that feels right for me, and makes room for the things that really matter.

Flashback: As much as I love total lockdowns, I absolutely live for the kind of bondage which is just practical enough to be worn around the house for hours with no need for release. It's so satisfying to have the boy on display out in the open, too.

Flashback: Padlocked? Always. Overkill? Never.

The boy has been to three scene events this week - each time saw him cruelly played with by my friends and me. Poor thing, he really does so much work for the community. After last night's party, I brought him home bruised and desperate, and finally let him have his reward.

What's being poured down the tube? Wrong answers only, please. Mask by @fxtnuk

Do I miss working at an HMP custodial facility? Nope. Do I want to build my own prison so I can do the exact same thing forever, on my own terms? Yep.

Flashback: You're loaded up with heavy, rigid steel. Every tug and movement is felt through your uncomfortable head cage. The chains drag against your steel-encased cock. You're like left to struggle hopelessly, knowing that your clinking will make your owner happy.

So thrilled to have played with two beautiful and wickedly enthusiastic dommes last night. It restored my faith in kink and community. I think @_compelme_ is thrilled too, but he's currently a happy puddle on the floor.

Opinion: as a top, it's not enough to establish a safe word with a play partner. You have to know exactly what your response to the safe word will be, tell the bottom what that will look like, and mean it. Not enough people get past the first step.

Flashback: It looks like I'm wrestling her into submission, but she was actually very compliant when I put the @fxtnuk mask on. She even let me lock one of our dildos into the front port.

Flashback: The final layer: ballgag, vet wrap, leather hood, then a neoprene respirator hood, with a zipper padlock as the cherry on the cake. I really love head bondage - is there any better way to make someone feel helpless and overpowered?

I get asked about my tattoo a lot, as it shows up in my photos when I'm manhandling the boy. It's got a couple of meanings - mainly it's an ancient symbol of an ox/bull. It's also got "Alpha" implications which I'm sure haven't passed you by. Either way, you know it's me.

Just overheard my boy using an unexpectedly top-like voice on the phone as he was negotiating an upgrade to my spa suite. It gave me a giggle ❤️

Flashback: I strapped on a Silencilicone gag, sealed the boy's head with vet wrap, then laced the whole thing under a leather hood. The boy was more cruelly gagged than he'd ever been, but he stopped complaining after an hour or two. I adored hearing him gulp and whine. X

Even when his mouth is stuffed, the boy is very good at showing his appreciation when I lock him down. His relaxation was short-lived as I took the opportunity to edge him, obviously.

I can't do the "My Future Husband" femdom meme :( because I've already gone and married the lucky little bastard.

My Insta, which I was told had been super-mega-ultra banned for eternity, has just reappeared. I need a coffee.

Idea: dommes charging cum tax, but subs have to produce relevant paperwork stating their cum tax bracket and evidencing any expenses which contribute to their tax-free allowance. There's a joke about "relief" in there somewhere too, but it's too early for me.

Lazy Sunday afternoon. I had a busy Saturday and slept in while the boy took care of my house. When he was done, I made sure he had an opportunity to lie back and rest. (Do you think I should get a better camera, or do you like my shaky footage?)

Hi friends - I'm still here, but my Instagram isn't. Sadly it looks like it'll take some time to get it back, if that's even possible. In the meantime, I'll try to get back to posting over here, and looking into other options too. X

Memes!

Good morning, little one. I hope you slept well. I can tell you've been dreaming about being locked into my gear all night... Let's make that dream come true.

Some very awkward wrapping later, and the boy was very much under my control and ready for more pup conditioning. It wasn't long before whining turned into happy tail wags as he accepted his new role. I love having a happy, locked up pup boy to play with - he makes an excellent therapy animal.

Stop whining, or I'll start pulling on your tail plug again. You'll have to get used to being kept this way - I've decided I like having a plastic pup boy around my house.

From the Archives (2020): Missing - a boy to rest my boots on.

You asked for videos - and I heard you!! You'll have to forgive my less than professional filming. Here's a more intimate demonstration of what sometimes happens to my boy once he's chained down. What do you think? Does it look like heaven or hell to you?

From the Archives (2021): The boy gets some exercise in chastity shorts

From the Archives (2021): My boy enjoys some freedom away from the latex and leather... kinda.

From the Archives (2020): Is this thing on?? Me, a few haircuts ago, getting rubbered up ready for a fun little sesh.