excuse me

had my 3 weeks of ok to good drawing which means its time for a month and a half of insane drawing torture

marathon gets more than 30 concurrent players and now all of a sudden the servers start acting up

let me on the backrooms set man ill be chill

if you ever speak using hyperbole in public online spaces people do straight up try to scalp you

misc

misc

all day drawing into all night melee (or any fighting game) is carpal suicide

trying to study anything lineart related or to draw in any way differently than you normally would feels like trying to breathe through my knees or hear using my lungs

my coworker has gotta stop looking at me in the eyes and saying things like ”thank god youre gonna be here forever” while on the verge of breaking down man or i am also going to have a very different sort of breakdown

ee

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getting back to it

went on a cs surf server for the first time in like a year and a half or something and its just 10 people scream arguing about religion and abortion

coworker trying to talk to me about “the firmament” please man get me outta here

2026s been the year of gaming which has unfortunately come at the expense of most other aspects of life including the ability to paint

last one

as much as i do kinda wanna keep messing around with 3d / graphic stuff i would have to like, meaningfully learn how to model better and rig anything at all to make anything interesting and man i do not want to do that right now, maybe sometime in the future...

last one

you can measure a movies appeal to the general public by the amount of people wearing hats in the theater

describing anything as “kino” instantly marks you for death

i think the chainsaw man ending is fitting and like it alright and i wont listen to the swarms of illiterate gnashing barbarians who say otherwise

cryo with randoms today, time to lose so much more than the house

marathon has me gaming in ways i havent in years this game induces a nightmarish fugue state where your only god given directive is to run it up

gonna start getting into arguing with people online

another go

another go

i need marathon to come out man im fiending and frothing at the mouth

bro working in 3d sucks so bad i feel like im getting my finger nails, toe nails, eyelashes and every hair on my body plucked off my body all at once forever

im the goat of drawing heads i can not put a body on and drawing bodies i can not put a head on

kinda want to make another, larger marathon-esque piece but not only would that require learning more blender but it would also require playing less deadlock, so its probably on the backburner for another like, 3-7 months or so

quick one

quick one

throwaway

as a society we have given too much power to people who make moodboards

throwaway

new glasses gave me depth perception and now i feel 2 inches further from the ground at all times

with every eye appointment i am more and more so under the impression that by 40 my right eye will be under a patch or have been scooped out

this is the year of no drawing ever

after hearing everybodies opinions on the visuals for both the new odyssey and marathon ive decided that nobody should be allowed to give opinions ever again and those who do get blasted to bits

posting twice glazed asaro head studies in gif format on crazyporno.onion as a form of protest

for christmas, i would like the power to point at and explode cars with headlights too bright

errh

desperately need to get back to drawing but have fallen into the trap of sleeping and reading and scrolling on twitter, not even doing anything fun and meaningful like video games or playing online games

the amount of jayvik accounts that found that last drawing on twitter is crazy man they seek lithe, shirtless men

quick one

scraps

somewhere out there is somebody who wakes up to play league of legends then watch the league of legends tv show, then listen to league of legends music while playing the league of legends fighting game

marathon test over… back to drawing i guess…

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