bizarrely enough, the fact that the game crashed when i tried entering the coliseum at the end of the dungeon let me keep some items that would’ve been destroyed if i went back to town immediately (those crystals, regardless of rarity - they’re purple here! - always break when exiting the dungeon)

i was just playing moonlighter 2 and the game crashed right as i tried to enter the greed coliseum after finishing a dungeon to get more loot (even though i already had a ton of rlly good stuff), honestly super immersive game to punish me for my greed like this

honestly i’ve been thinking abt it for a couple of weeks now and i think the reason unbeatable has stuck so hard in my brain is that, besides it being rlly fucking cool and fun the entire time, i can’t point to a clear example of why it means so much to me.

being a closeted tgirl at family gatherings has got to be one of the worst sort of experiences ever. somehow the ~30 minute dinner table discussion veered into both harry potter and hurtful jokes about my hair being too long “for a boy.” like i had a better time playing duplo with the toddler.

gods alive i REALLY want to try composing something and recording it to a cassette specifically so that i can take advantage of its artifacting and distortion and stuff (i mainly just want to be able to hold my music…..) but wow it‘s hard to figure out where or what to start with!

an additional fun resistance would be if before your egg broke you *were* the sort of person that was very captured by nostalgia in this way bc of bad circumstances in the present.

youtube’s such a sucky website but genuinely i rlly like the recommendation algo sometimes. i click on one track from an obscure ps2 game and all of a sudden the recommendation will regularly give me niche ripped albums from the 60s/70s with some of the best music i’ve ever heard in my life.

yet again another mark on the “times ani vaguely heard of people praising a recently released indie game that seems right up her alley but she decided to put off playing it for a stupid amount of time for some reason” wall, i played unbeatable in like one sitting last night and. it’s good! shocking.

you guys ever get misgendered by your headphones bc it just randomly decided to revert to its factory name on the bluetooth popup and then immediately switch back when you go to look at it. cool how that happened. nothing at all today happened that made that hurt even more nope nuh uh.

something something ai‘s inevitable and will do everything, you‘re just digging your head in the sand if you don’t use it, etc

i‘m afraid that i‘ve reached terminal celeste brain because i‘m genuinely considering playing one of the b sides again for fun

one time when i was visiting a museum on a hs field trip i remember feeling so tired and awful that i just put in my headphones and spent the entire time listening to a yume nikki playlist on shuffle to cheer myself up, and i swear it had the best timing of any playlist i’ve ever listened to.

why have stylization and atmospheric lighting when you can sell your kidney for the opportunity to perceive a bunch of games with asmongold-tinted glasses

the one time i try to learn how to make a parfait and literally all the required ingredients have expired……

i had a bunch of dreams as a super lonely teenager where it was just me talking/venting to an older, woman version of myself named ani. eventually these dreams stopped happening, but they had such an impact on me that i decided to name myself ani to always have some of those dreams with me.

i love youtube ads. when i’m trying to make myself go to sleep and feel safe and comforted and okay after a truly shitty day i love it when my ears get assaulted by a full volume ai voice saying “HAND STITCHED ORTHOPEDIC SHOES“ accompanied with Royalty Free Corporate Motivational Music #49240

oh my god i feel like flipaclip is specifically built to try and ask me for money to do anything i need for rotoscoping.

i played through this game on steam’s nextfest thing called cicadamata and i absolutely loved it, so i’m gonna rotoscope like a minute of cicadamata gameplay.

why the fuck does my water tracker have an ai feature

i love to wake up to situations that i am unable to say anything about in public but „oh.“

the fraud layer for ultrakill is genuinely so good but i have to say that it’s definitely the nail in the coffin for any plan i had to play on brutal like i had such a bad time processing some levels i had to physically *look away from my monitor*, just can’t be doing than on a harder difficulty.

feels awesome to get out of bed and go to school and see in passing how the government is committing horrors and exterminating me, my friends, and those i look up to, and then i’ll have to look away and pretend that people will care and do something and i’ll maybe wake up ok tomorrow.

i keep getting this weird ad on yt and while idk what the ad is abt i can recognize the music and it has to be ai or smth bc it just constantly feels tense and dissonant. like there’s no release, it’s just 30 whole seconds of what i can only describe as “orchestral rendition of a clown car crashing”

writing smth and i just need to rant abt the word “moist” for a sec bc it literally doesn’t fit in any scenario you could possibly use it in. it’s too sexual in regular contexts, too awkward in sexual contexts, like when would you ever use the word moist over wet or soaked or damp. stupid word.

figured i might as well bite the bullet and finally get rid of my spotify acc since spotify sucks and i’ve hardly used my account since middle school, and it’s certainly quite nostalgic to see what sort of music i was listening to as a depressed eggy teen around 2021.

more than anything i wish people who play games (or just people in general, frankly) could actually think critically about things and not have a blind, borderline religious devotion to nostalgia.

ultrakill deltarune half life 2 tf2 (and like 1500 hours on 2fort specifically, there’s no saving my psyche)

ok so correct me if i’m wrong but we currently know ai is bad bc: - massive environmental damage - makes people go insane - use cases are just slop, fash propaganda and cp - people who make it suck - it doesn’t work but if this is true the last line is now: - ITS GOING TO MAKE EVERYONE UNEMPLOYED

finished the coin operated boy mission in cyberpunk and it’s kind of unreal how fucking prophetic that whole side quest line is (at least assuming that brendan wasn’t lying and he really isn’t agi)

started playing cyberpunk a few days ago, honestly is super fun if the thing wasn’t bugged out half of the time (seriously, don’t have pictures but the first time i call my car it explodes and presumably gets flung into a loading zone because i get loaded into it clipping through an apartment).

it’s so ridiculous that people somehow convince themselves that ai “democratizes” art when you’re literally handing your expression over to a corporation. i can still hum melodies i like. i can tap them out on desks. that doesn’t go away when some rich prick gets bored and decides to cut losses.

i’ve been taking actual formal music theory lessons lately, and honestly i’ve come out of this with not only a way to keep making music when i’m not feeling inspired, but also just an appreciation for how composition can switch between “abstract, feel things out” and “build from formula” so easily

realized through tadc that glitch made (produced? i’m stupid and don’t know the difference) meta runner and that i had actually seen a bit of the first season forever ago through smg4, so i decided to watch the whole thing in one go on impulse and. i’m not okay.

would you look at that: for the low, low price of clean air and beautiful oceans and our collective sense of reality we can finally play a blatantly unethical ripoff of a game that already exists, but in the innovative new medium of slideshow with short term memory loss. ain't the future bright.

who on the peak dev team decided that the game needed zombies. what was going through your brain man. why would you do this.

i played a little tf2 tonight and i think this is the first time i’ve encountered a casual 2fort game on a us server that not only isn’t bigoted, but is actively and brutally mocking someone for being a bigot. is this the same game? is this what nirvana feels like? have i finally achieved heaven?

ok brain….. you could either put in two minutes of effort and wrap up your college applications that are stressing you the hell out like a sensible adult…. or you could lay in bed all day and watch the cast for the amazing digital circus play a fast food sim for the 18th time…… what’ll it be

thinking back to earlier this year when i was staying at a boston hotel and i was in a real bad depression/dysphoria slump, and right before i was gonna take a hot bath i saw this ad on the tv that was selling testosterone or smth and i was just sitting there feeling so. gutted.

forget where i saw it but i can’t stop thinking about some social media post where someone wrote “have you forgotten that you are a divine ape?” like idk why but genuinely it will not leave my brain. i wish i could come up with prose that’s almost half that existentially sticky.

looking up snacky recipes online bc i’m a hungry insomniac goblin, and something about the way this one appetizer recipe article is titled (“10 holiday sliders recipes guaranteed to disappear first”) is deeply unnerving to me. like it obvs makes sense and should be completely innocuous, but man……

me to my dog who’s visibly drooling watching me eat the notably rlly-fucking-bad-for-dogs chocolate: perhaps you and i are not so different

it‘s depressing the amount of people that say “x game is objectively bad” and if you keep asking them to explain their reasons for disliking it they either can‘t articulate it or end up just saying the game/genre didn’t land for them personally.

playing ultrakill as someone who gets rlly easily overstimulated is so weird bc i adore that game to pieces and always find it so fun to play and at the same time if i get above wave 25 in a cybergrind run i need to literally lay down for ~5 minutes to have my brain start functioning again.

i’m such a sucker for dungeon crawlers man. a few months ago i was playing night in the woods and as soon as angus installed demontower on the laptop i just played that for like a couple of days straight (like i would boot up nitw *just* to play demontower), beat it, and then stopped playing nitw.

i’ve spent so much time hearing about the deltarune RIBBIT mod and watched playthroughs of it, but i’ve honestly never just sat down and played the thing by myself (for some reason) until like a few days ago and like. holy shit it’s fucking amazing to play.

thinking back to my freshman year of hs (as one casually does) where i was walking between classes and saw a middle school classroom had put up a bulletin board of a drawing + 1 word on what the students liked best about math where this was one of the pictures (recreated to the best of my ability)

more deltarune drawings bc it has been eating away at my brain like actively. this time, the philosopher: prolly my favorite generic deltarune npcs think ever. granted i didn’t draw the actual enemy variant and instead chose one of the random mask shapes but yeah!!

so like i totally forgot i had a bluesky acc, but like, what if i posted here more anyways on an unrelated note, i played deltarune chapter 3+4 a few days ago and decided to draw exactly two gueis and posted that on the community tab a week ago, so here u go debut post now, enjoy and pls be kind