finally joined the Bolu Babalola train :) (starting it the night before a new school week is wild but i'm enjoying it so far!)

you can do hard things, ama. you can. even if you have to cry doing them. you can.

time is so wild because how has it been 7 months since? 💀

need one of those hugs that as Edwvn puts it, are “long enough to bring you back into your body”

we really need to give everything to time because look at 🥹

the blues have me. whew.

bra, be tsina me nkyen / me pɛ dɛ me kyerew biribi

also i'm sick again because i ate a bean meal i didn't make. it was clearly not soaked for a bit before it was cooked. another reason why i really really need to get home. my belly hurts.

spontaneously decided to go to a yoga class with my friend after work. it was great. but i've had such a hard time trying to get home i can't wait to peel off, have a warm bath & cuddle a hot water bottle. thank goodness for those, for real.

nervous as hell. sigh.

we will cross this bridge eventually.

Love it for you! You're about have a history lesson you won't forget for a long time. 🌻

birthday in a few days. seeing as we haven't died by our own hands & clearly cannot, the goal, moving forward, is to live like we actually want to be here, to be part of the living. don't know how that is going to happen but... 🤞🏿

M'aso ayɛ hye o. M'aso ayɛ hye roff. Ha.

need one of those hugs that as Edwvn puts it, are “long enough to bring you back into your body”

ahaha flashbacks are the devil's armpit.

this city and some of the people in it disgust me god 😭

need just one thing to work out in the next few days. just one thing. 🥺

all q1 has tried to do is take my life. ya allah, ease please. just a little ease.

no idea how to read that & that saddens my heart. but it's out of my control so i will let time do its thing.

losing my mind. haha.

to budding scholars out there: your scientific paper is as good as your ability to present a clear and coherent storyline. without your compelling narrative, i have no reason to care about your data or findings

LMAO

“Oh but what a way to say goodbye: here, I've loved you, save some for later.” — Maria Giesbrecht

i think that the conversation went well and i hope the outcome is positive.

still sleep deprived as hell. frustrated and sad for various reasons too. but the last few days have been wonderful.

need one of dem hugs

these spaces we inhabit are so small and circular chances that you will keep seeing the faces of people who have hurt you/you no longer want to have anything to do with are so high.

love it. "What if next time we hang out on purpose, we walk somewhere new…I mean how else are we gonna make the city feel like home?"

After the epic walk from the south to north Burnaby, I got a text days later from my co-saunterer that confirms this. Walking as a means of situating yourself/meaning making, cool stuff

Introducing Gogomi! A walking companion app that shows which streets you haven’t explored (yet!) and tracks your progress across your neighbourhood and city. Available now for most of Metro Van (Apple Watch required) apps.apple.com/ca/app/gogom...

@kevindeyoungster.com thought you might like this episode because of the bit about walking :) www.instagram.com/reel/DDzvVOD...

really really glad that i can cry at this time.

still so surreal.

A man swims in the lake Bosomtwe, a bird perches atop a wooden plank, another man is out fishing.

people are actually callous hey

going to get out of bed, get in the shower, go do my 2-hour walk, have some tea and hope sleep finds me before 12am.

been going in and out of sleep today and every single dream i've had in the times my eyes were shut were all fucked up. felt so much like they were real but also very fucked up. can't do this anymore. i'd like to have a regular sleep schedule again, please 😭

fuck. should have left home earlier. completely forgot what sundays in this city are like.

lmao whew

i feel like i have absolutely lost my mind, like i am being unreasonable. god.

went and broke my little heart. 🥲

i keep checking my phone for a message that might never come. sigh.

might take a while but i'm going to be okay.

laundry done, sheets changed, excited to cry in my bed tonight.

might not know what exactly i want right now but i know what i don't want.

fuck.

broke my heart again and want to call Charles but he's travelling and i don't want to bother :(

Olivia Dean for all of these feelings

mmm... we've been down this path before, ama. it doesn't end well.