ate lunch at previous job. 6 people left in the last month. what the hell happened?????

anyways. despite having been fueled by <90 minutes of sleep and irresponsible amounts of caffeine, i had a good day at work today :> i need to go tf to bed and pray i can actually sleep

Mandatory. #pixelart

sends a risky text. eep

i start a new job next week and i think im gonna be ok

starting to wonder if my heart body brain or spirit will break first. o.e

well. theres a food truck competition in the Bourgeoisie Omniplex across the street from work. its fun to exist in public anonymously

fun day to have a funky gender in public. got sirred on my way into work, complimented a trans autistic kid at the register who was so delighted he started stimming, then solicited for sex on the way home

third worst day of my job but at least i only cried twice and neither of those times were in front of people 😎

it's a mirepoix party #art

im so funny #pixelart #ドット絵

finally upgrading my phone though its hindering me more than its helping me day to day

im normal* again

successfully purpled :>

dyes my hair purple again

hooooooly fucking shit i did it 🥹

I DID IT I PASSED

oh god help i have to be patient and have faith in myself 🫠

also i started a new med today thats been rly helpful :>

it is september 11th. my employee benefits have started kicking in. i discovered this on my paystub when i got spooked by a line item shortnamed STD

at least halsey released the badlands 10 year anniversary edition. chef kiss

like even if i fail Itll Be Fine but ive built it up as Such A Thing in my own head i have no choice but to roll with my own emotions rn

STILL DONT HAVE MY SERVSAFE EXAM RESULTS 🫠 if i have a cardiac event in the next 48 hours pls know i went out doing what i hated most: overthinking

spent a few days saying things based off whether or not i could say something that i forgot to stop thinking about whether or not i Should say something. oh my god. PSYCHOANALYZES MYSELF

(overthinking it) oh god

took my servsafe exam today 🫠👍 wont know how i did till tomorrow

IM OKAY IM OKAY IM OKAY IM OKAY IM--

*guy who has to take a test voice* AAAAAAAAA

this week im relearning that people are at their most honest when they dont realize theyre off their guard

ohhhhhhhhh this is so fucking embarrassing. if i hide the question in the emotion then the emotion becomes the shape of the question. 🫠

i am occasionally tempted to change my legal first name to aardvark, which would be ridiculous AND impractical (but hilarious to me)

tests my boss's patience with a very sharp knife and my steadiest possible hand

the feedback i keep hearing from my boss is "you just need to work on your composure" and hes definitely leveraging the fact that My Job Has My Full Attention right now on purpose,

honestly shoutout 2 my brother for visibly learning this lesson a few years ago

CAN'T STOP THINKING (affectionately) abt that last nd stevenson post im gonna quote it to my boss. hes soooo aware i overthink about what he says to me LMAO

im in a real 'relearning what inside and outside thoughts are' phase of my life

I don’t understand people who don’t signal. I love signaling. It’s so fun. Like here I go!!!!

cant believe the fda has a Big 6 AND a Big 9

franklin was about to pounce on her throat when i distracted them to take a picture. bean was removed from the situation for pampering

the stakes are only high in my own head. i pulled back from Everything Else so i could focus on work when i really needed to... and promptly forgot the shit i had to learn to be able to focus on work. facepalms and relaxes. letting. it. gooooo.

ooookay three pronged approach to Fixing My Tryhard Mindset: 1. carving out space for myself away from work - I am human & only human 2. [resolve a medical problem] 3. tackle misunderstandings as they come up instead of just letting them ride conveniently

GOTTA TRY SOOOOO HARD NOT TO TRY TOO HARD AND ITS HARD--

my motto the past few days has been THIRD IMPULSE IS THE CHARM!

at one point today there was a customer who mentioned how much she'd like to come back in the future and try something else and i went back to the manager desk at my earliest opportunity and grabbed a free drink coupon to give her.

im fond of this sticker i see every day on my way to work

the mortifying ordeal of being known.

god bless my boss fr. he's a great dude I'm very grateful for his mentorship 🥹

SCREAMING FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER AND EVER AND EVER!!!! my dooter looks SO GOOD WAAAAA (mrako is a fantastic artist)

in work news i accidentally deadnamed myself in a moment of frustration and my boss corrected me. made my day :>

(accidentally sees a news headline) i cant believe they pink slipped lil nas x for having a rational response to a threat!