BAHAHAHAHAH (On that we're so back phase on the funny graph and savoring it as long as I can) New comics coming in June! 💪

The moment I return to twitter I can practically feel my blood pressure spike. It's such a stupid stressful environment. Actually here even, too. The only place I don't feel that anxiety is tumblr. There's something really nice and calming about it. Prob back in June. My peace is too perfect atm.

Back! China was awesome (especially the drinks---osmanthus milk tea 5ever). Reviewing mandarin proved to be a solid strat since no one in the area spoke English. The whole experience just makes me wanna go back and explore other cities! Revived and refreshed and was just what I needed! 🌸

No new art for a while yet. Busy reviewing my mandarin for a trip and cleaning to do anything else. Also went to clean for my parents too. All are time consuming, but it's a much needed quality of life for them. I may die in obscurity, but if I can improve a life or two somehow then I've won.

My 2023 vs. 2026 FF14 bun siblings Keep going!

I love being angry at the state of things and going doomguy mode and clearing out an area. Cleaning is the BEST and I literally don't think of anything else except pure ragey determination at seeing the space transformed. It's very zen! YEAHHHH. This is how I get my drawing mojo back.

What good are tens of thousands of likes on works when posts about your preferences, desires, and opinions go unnoticed? All I'm getting is "Producing art is all you're good for on this site. Get back to work. No one cares about you as a person" and it makes me more bitter as a result. idk.

I typed out an incredibly long lamentation about wanting people to see me beyond what I create/HSR but the solution immediately became apparent: If I want other people to know that I have way more interests beyond gacha games, then I will have to (post/create content to) let them know as such.

I dunno what's going on but there seems to be a clapback from the east asian side about them 洋人s constantly moral policing media on twitter and I'm all for it. Stifling freedom of expression is the worst thing there is and it's as simple as don't like don't look. It's none of mine or your business.

I watched a fascinating video essay today and it briefly mentioned how we were fed the narrative that "adulthood sucks/is a rude awakening" and how childhood are simpler times to be yearned for because it's "better". At one point I really hated being an adult. But the vid changed my thinking.

Just by telling myself "hey, you don't have to color this, you can just go lineartmaxxing, " I suddenly am able to draw much better lines and have fun with them ...Also just found out I can "render" with just black and white. So that's how the manga folks do it. I'm just beginning to understand ✨

No way, scholar bro. #DrRatio #Anaxa #HSR #HonkaiStarRail

HOLY what is up with the twitter purge I lost like 100+ followers in the span of 3 days it's insane. I've heard about the suspension thing but I didn't realize it's this crazy.

Okay I can feel myself SHRIVELING if I don't CREATE I have to go draw NOW. Guess it's proven that yes getting things "done" can be good but there must be a balance 💀

I'll go back to drawing in a minute if I haven't been so enamored with cleaning and rearranging everything around the house. It's honestly so fulfilling when you see spaces visibly improve before your eyes. "From YOUR very efforts, the world has changed" sorta feeling. Highly recommended.

Just completed Nier: Replicant and getting another one of those incredibly rare and precious "I need to sit and be full of wonder and depresso for a week" feeling. I love being alive to experience peak fiction like this. Human art and stories are the best thing ever. I should replay Automata now.

Scribbled what I saw #NIGHTREIGN

Teensy weensy #ArknightsEndfield #TideRises #Rossi

Reinstalled nightreign Forgot how to drop items from dormant powers Tried to make room for an item for an ironeye Same ironeye swipes my dropped less likely to be targeted as recluse IMMEDIATELY and left us to tank We lose It's like I never left hahahaha

To be a cool wolf #ArknightsEndfield #TideRises #Rossi

IT'S BALLOON DAY FOR ME I SHALL PARTY LIKE NO OTHER thank you all for hanging around, truly 💖

I have to lock in and finish everything before Fatal Frame 2 remake comes out so I can no life as much as I want it may seem impossible but---wait... 😆

A knightly remix #Reverse1999

I have to lock in and finish everything before RE9 comes out so I can no life as much as I want it may seem impossible but I'll do my best!! 💀

I LOVE MANGA!! I LOVE BEAUTIFUL LINEART!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Been playing Endfield and just wanna yell about this little wolf girl (Rossi) somewhere she's honestly the most adorable thing ever and her accent makes her 5 billion times cuter (+bantering with her brother in Italian in the EN dub is PEAK)

Feeble creature #Aglaea #Anaxa #HSR #HonkaiStarRail

I think I gotta outlast these trials #outlasttrials

One of the lessons gleaned from my time away: My value as a human being =/= my output I'd put a lot of value in what I can do or create and for the longest time, I've had the toxic view that if I can't create I don't deserve to exist. I'm still working on that.

I knew this is to be my ending song.

You know it's gonna be a good day when despite everything, somehow you still feel that pure, childlike excitement for drawing. Let's do it!

I made a simp OC in the Outlast Trials #outlast #outlasttrials

I want the time spent drawing and having fun to eclipse any time spent worrying or ruminating. Whatever moves your heart deserves to be put on paper.

Me and my eldritch daughter AKA exercising my free will to scribble whatever fanfic I want

Me: select scholar remembrance, someone else already picked scholar, I go as someone else Beats dreglord (or not) Queues again as scholar hoping to finish remembrance Beats dreglord Forgets that remembrance is still off Repeat that x3 I'm getting burnt out trying to finish the thing at this point

Yeah it's not like I wanna work today anyway thinking about Scholar & Undertaker angst on top of pita siblings angst why do all the mentor figures keep leaving 2real4me

I really like Scholar & Undertaker together. They have a very wholesome relationship built on trust and mutual respect similar to the way I view Executor & Revenant. It's kind of hard to explain but it feels like a certain deep understanding akin to a secret shared only between them & only them.

I think my post on twitter is getting massively deboosted (only shown to followers). I'm not sure about the cause but at one point I was constantly trying to force my way to posting a reply despite it labeling that it's spam (dumb twitter error). And it said this is suspicious bot behavior.

Y'know what despite the fear and everything I'm just glad I drew and posted it. I remember distinctly feeling an insane joy going wow I'm so glad I'm able to draw and can conjure up any silly thing I want. It's out of my head and onto a page. Manifested. That's all I wanted to see. Next! ✨

Role Model #NIGHTREIGN

The Nightmare before DLC

I'm going to attempt to scribble the fastest comic ever before DLC releases 💀 There's a couple of stupid stuff I wanna get in before canon stuff is confirmed!

What I ACTUALLY wanted to say on main is if you are this guy (like me) then you'd probably really like my weird stuff maybe I should really just make a new account hmm...

One mistake I keep making is wanting to draw a weird thing, but then defaulting to thinking "can I even post this" so none are ever made. I miss it when I drew weird stuff. Fujimoto wouldn't have made it if he'd constantly think about how family friendly his stuff is. TLDR: Draw first ask later.

I'm crying because I know I have no self control when it comes to this crack game

Wild Imagination 🌸 #ArknightsEndfield #EndfieldCreators #EndfieldBetaTest2

Ice cream enjoyer 🍨 #ArknightsEndfield #EndfieldCreators #EndfieldBetaTest2

I only want one thing That is to do GOOD work.

I'm a simple fella. I see Nightreign siblings art. I press like. Happy 11/23 good big brother day (いい兄さんの日) I should go back to finish some scribbles now that I'm more free.

I saw a very cool but disturbing bloodborne fanart that got a lot of engagement. So it made me think hmm, the general public CAN enjoy this stuff(--Otherwise why slashers or horror games?) It made me think about how most people may not be as sensitive to "disturbing" things as I thought.