Maybe she won't notice...

Y'know what after seeing all the art of the Undertaker trying to kill Ironeye or being an absolute menace to him, I dig it. If they ever have a ship(?) name it'd sound horrible either way (irontaker? Undereye? LOL). As a yandere enjoyer it's pretty peak. Time for scribble.

I hate that there is one reasonable incentive to play Nightreign NOW and that is to hoard some murk for the new nightfarers' relics (and outfits!!) upon DLC drop but NO I must stay stonk until then RARGGGG

I hope they go full bloodborne with her.

Undertaker has that irresistible scary lady yandere vibe I cannot deny I must sneak in a few drawings here and there...

While I'm very happy for the Nightreign DLC coming so soon, I literally had to uninstall it because I found I kept getting way too distracted from work and now... I have to reinstall it... Anyway I'm a scholar main. ✌️

I get it now. Artists don't think about if what they're drawing is acceptable. They just draw. I wasted time on rumination and worrying. Okay. What a run to gain insight. I will take all the wins even if it took 2 months. But I gotta lock in for two things I need to finish first for now.

There are consequences.

Just laid my eyes upon some arts of the most beautiful DS2 ship (The one!) and it moved me enough to remind me that yes I...can draw them? Why haven't I... The stupid gacha fandom gave me one traumatizing experience that literally made me afraid to draw actual m/f ships for the longest time.

Be strong enough to be gentle.

I just realized I hardcore ship all the soulsborne maidens with their respective knights/MCs that's it I just wanted to shout that somewhere

(unhinged) ...idc if it's like one stupid social media like that he'd dropped and never pay any mind to or whatever but being "noticed" once by your favorite horror artist who'd inspired you in your own horror journey for the longest time is kinda hype. I have to keep gitting gud. More motivation!

Ah yes casually browsing my feed and yelling YOU BASTARD every time I'm hit with the Nightreign siblings feels. It's the only welcome sadness because it makes their relationship that much more beautiful. Stupid doomed siblings I crie erryday (stupid low res rant doodles)

Decided to delete that post ranting about a ship that gave me a lot of stress because that's not the energy I want for myself or for others. This is my takeaway from that whole thing. It worked.

Took a lot of honesty + time+ and yoloing, but I guess I can draw again ✨ Back to the sillies!

I'm pretty solution oriented so I've always relied heavily on logic and introspection to get me out of rough patches. But sometimes, the answer is unclear or the reason why things happen is nonexistent. So I'd often end up going hermit mode to rid myself of all distractions. I'm doing better!

Priorities. Message received, see you all soon.

I don't think anybody could've guessed that before all these cute colorful anime comics I was a guro horror artist who only drew in black and white and/or muted colors. All these colors came from my forcing myself to learn it. I think for recovery it's time to go back to drawing ugly nasty things 👻

I'm depresso & burntout for no reason atm so allow me to go nuts a bit--- I LOVELOVELOVE THOSE POSTS WITH WYLDER GIVING THE FLOWER BOUQUET THING TO DUCHESS IT'S SO CUTE I NEED TO SCRIBBLE IT SO BAD AND HEAL MY SOUL 😭

I think the value of peak fiction to sanity in daily life cannot be overstated. A beacon that grounds and helps makes sense of the chaos. For me, it's one of the many things that makes life worth living. I'm always looking forward to the next one. Art be praised.

I JUST REMEMBERED THE PRAGMATA GAME AND IT'S BASICALLY THAT DUO I DESCRIBED IN MY LAST POST AHHHHHHHHHH

What is it called when you want to be the towering gigachad 9000 made of pure passion and muscles while ALSO wanting to be the fiesty little girl who tags along with him while they draw out each other's greatest strengths through pure love and wholesomeness? 🤔

Despair 💀 #NIGHTREIGN

Ah, I know this feeling---it's burnout!😱 ...I know THIS time though that it's nothing to worry about. Proof? Everyone's pulled through 100% of the times we've had them. Sometimes the magic comes back the next day. Maybe it takes much longer. I just need to be patient and let my MP recharge!

You know that feeling when you like a thing so much you just keep drawing it but the voice in the back of your head goes, "Stop it, you need more variety!" But wait, if I'm only drawing for myself with no need to show them, there should be no limits to fully enjoy them. 😜 I'll keep doing it looool

It's been such a long time since I've read any actual manga. Now that I've got some experience in roughing out pages (VERY hard) I'm now much more conscious of how these masters do it as I read. Their panels are beautiful and...patient. Pacing is a huge thing. We have to do more and git gud.

Fineeeeeee I'll hop back into silent hill f to finish all the other endings to get the full picture... 👻

The executor has like the biggest gap moe ever how can someone be so intimidating yet so cute LOL I absolutely love drawing him 😂

No pickles...💀 #NIGHTREIGN

Gonna have to take a break from Silent Hill F. This obsession to absolutely decimate it is wearing me down so I'm gonna step back and go back to Nightreign... And yes, I'm quite the vengeful sort.😂

I beat the game on hard mode grrr. Onwards to NG+ and beyond and I'm gonna make the difficulty subsequently easier while I just get stronger for that max difference to just absolutely decimate everything to payback for the pain I endured in NG 💀

DUDE I AM FUMING RN just when I thought these enemy was just REALLY tanky, it turns out they were BUGGED and literally wouldn't die. I had to look up a playthrough to see how you actually kill these things and they actually go down in 3 light hits which is when I found out it's a bug 💀

No, I will not change the difficulty. I don't care if I die 5 billion times to the same enemies in these cramped corridors and get my weapon caught while the camera messes with my aiming and my stamina depletes within 2 dodges and I get ganked by 4 different enemies at once. If I die, I die.

After all these comics I actually still have no idea how to panel, I honestly just bang my head against the wall until it looks right. But you know what, that's the coolest thing about art. You have no idea what the hell you're doing but you make it through 100% of the time anyway. Insane.

Me playing Silent Hill f so far (if you know you know): "You b*tch." "Wow this b*tch" "Omg PISS OFF already" "It's okay it's like a dark souls boss we go AGAIN" "WOW WHAT A B*TCH"

The aftermath... #Reverse1999 #Nautika #Vertin

Shopping day ✨ #Reverse1999 #Nautika #Vertin

Frothing at the mouth wanting to draw more Nightreign siblings so bad for more wholesome angst BUT AHHHHHHH

I caved and simped on main...

You know that "one bad comment can ruin a whole day" thing? Just found out that it also works in the opposite way for me surprisingly and my motivation goes through the ROOF with a single kind/reassuring comment. Thank you all! Please keep hopeposting and spreading joy, we ALL need it YEEEEAHHHH!

Okay introspection over, I understand my thought patterns better and will now channel this gigachad to carry about my day, as always.

I think the reason it's so frustrating is in my brain it feels like I'd be copying them from the moment I'd seen it. On the other hand I could picture some imaginary crowd yelling at me about "stealing" ideas. And you have no proof that you've thought of the thing already before you saw it.

The absolute frustration of seeing somebody else draw and post the exact idea you were gonna draw first is quite unmatched...💀

I have a thing I need to finish before this one but have a panel of the edgy duo

Something something oniichan

idk why I'm hatching and adding so much detail for this one silly comic. Perhaps it's curiosity. Perhaps it's love. Having fun drawing is the BEST.

Picked up some weird relics from the new mode... #NIGHTREIGN

Don't tell the Twitter folks I secretly simp for BBH as if it's not obvious already!! cough hack blegh I mean big buff knight with hooj soord + aura walking + thrilling instadowns? Hello? Also BBH = BigBurlyHugger come on he seems so cuddly just put on some anti thorn gear or sth. What a gigachad.

Imma heal and self care so HARD. Supplements/ SLEEP / exercise/ mindfulness/ less phone/ cute bird posts LET'S GOOOOOOOOOOOOO

I want to go faster. But I think it's less about pure speed and more about how the process of drawing can be interrupted as little as possible (from erasing/redrawing/fixing things which I realize I do a lot; wastes a lot of time) so I'm gonna be more conscious of that and see how things improve.