I knew this is to be my ending song.

I've always had unhappy holidays for many years now and this year has been no different... ...BUT I'm determined to make the most out of it despite everything. Despite it all we MUST carry on. Thank you all for sticking around. It means a lot. HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE

You know it's gonna be a good day when despite everything, somehow you still feel that pure, childlike excitement for drawing. Let's do it!

I made a simp OC in the Outlast Trials #outlast #outlasttrials

I want the time spent drawing and having fun to eclipse any time spent worrying or ruminating. Whatever moves your heart deserves to be put on paper.

Me and my eldritch daughter AKA exercising my free will to scribble whatever fanfic I want

Me: select scholar remembrance, someone else already picked scholar, I go as someone else Beats dreglord (or not) Queues again as scholar hoping to finish remembrance Beats dreglord Forgets that remembrance is still off Repeat that x3 I'm getting burnt out trying to finish the thing at this point

Yeah it's not like I wanna work today anyway thinking about Scholar & Undertaker angst on top of pita siblings angst why do all the mentor figures keep leaving 2real4me

I really like Scholar & Undertaker together. They have a very wholesome relationship built on trust and mutual respect similar to the way I view Executor & Revenant. It's kind of hard to explain but it feels like a certain deep understanding akin to a secret shared only between them & only them.

I think my post on twitter is getting massively deboosted (only shown to followers). I'm not sure about the cause but at one point I was constantly trying to force my way to posting a reply despite it labeling that it's spam (dumb twitter error). And it said this is suspicious bot behavior.

Y'know what despite the fear and everything I'm just glad I drew and posted it. I remember distinctly feeling an insane joy going wow I'm so glad I'm able to draw and can conjure up any silly thing I want. It's out of my head and onto a page. Manifested. That's all I wanted to see. Next! ✨

Role Model #NIGHTREIGN

The Nightmare before DLC

I'm going to attempt to scribble the fastest comic ever before DLC releases 💀 There's a couple of stupid stuff I wanna get in before canon stuff is confirmed!

What I ACTUALLY wanted to say on main is if you are this guy (like me) then you'd probably really like my weird stuff maybe I should really just make a new account hmm...

One mistake I keep making is wanting to draw a weird thing, but then defaulting to thinking "can I even post this" so none are ever made. I miss it when I drew weird stuff. Fujimoto wouldn't have made it if he'd constantly think about how family friendly his stuff is. TLDR: Draw first ask later.

I'm crying because I know I have no self control when it comes to this crack game

Wild Imagination 🌸 #ArknightsEndfield #EndfieldCreators #EndfieldBetaTest2

Ice cream enjoyer 🍨 #ArknightsEndfield #EndfieldCreators #EndfieldBetaTest2

I only want one thing That is to do GOOD work.

I'm a simple fella. I see Nightreign siblings art. I press like. Happy 11/23 good big brother day (いい兄さんの日) I should go back to finish some scribbles now that I'm more free.

I saw a very cool but disturbing bloodborne fanart that got a lot of engagement. So it made me think hmm, the general public CAN enjoy this stuff(--Otherwise why slashers or horror games?) It made me think about how most people may not be as sensitive to "disturbing" things as I thought.

Maybe she won't notice...

Y'know what after seeing all the art of the Undertaker trying to kill Ironeye or being an absolute menace to him, I dig it. If they ever have a ship(?) name it'd sound horrible either way (irontaker? Undereye? LOL). As a yandere enjoyer it's pretty peak. Time for scribble.

I hate that there is one reasonable incentive to play Nightreign NOW and that is to hoard some murk for the new nightfarers' relics (and outfits!!) upon DLC drop but NO I must stay stonk until then RARGGGG

I hope they go full bloodborne with her.

Undertaker has that irresistible scary lady yandere vibe I cannot deny I must sneak in a few drawings here and there...

While I'm very happy for the Nightreign DLC coming so soon, I literally had to uninstall it because I found I kept getting way too distracted from work and now... I have to reinstall it... Anyway I'm a scholar main. ✌️

I get it now. Artists don't think about if what they're drawing is acceptable. They just draw. I wasted time on rumination and worrying. Okay. What a run to gain insight. I will take all the wins even if it took 2 months. But I gotta lock in for two things I need to finish first for now.

There are consequences.

Just laid my eyes upon some arts of the most beautiful DS2 ship (The one!) and it moved me enough to remind me that yes I...can draw them? Why haven't I... The stupid gacha fandom gave me one traumatizing experience that literally made me afraid to draw actual m/f ships for the longest time.

Be strong enough to be gentle.

I just realized I hardcore ship all the soulsborne maidens with their respective knights/MCs that's it I just wanted to shout that somewhere

(unhinged) ...idc if it's like one stupid social media like that he'd dropped and never pay any mind to or whatever but being "noticed" once by your favorite horror artist who'd inspired you in your own horror journey for the longest time is kinda hype. I have to keep gitting gud. More motivation!

Ah yes casually browsing my feed and yelling YOU BASTARD every time I'm hit with the Nightreign siblings feels. It's the only welcome sadness because it makes their relationship that much more beautiful. Stupid doomed siblings I crie erryday (stupid low res rant doodles)

Decided to delete that post ranting about a ship that gave me a lot of stress because that's not the energy I want for myself or for others. This is my takeaway from that whole thing. It worked.

Took a lot of honesty + time+ and yoloing, but I guess I can draw again ✨ Back to the sillies!

I'm pretty solution oriented so I've always relied heavily on logic and introspection to get me out of rough patches. But sometimes, the answer is unclear or the reason why things happen is nonexistent. So I'd often end up going hermit mode to rid myself of all distractions. I'm doing better!

Priorities. Message received, see you all soon.

I don't think anybody could've guessed that before all these cute colorful anime comics I was a guro horror artist who only drew in black and white and/or muted colors. All these colors came from my forcing myself to learn it. I think for recovery it's time to go back to drawing ugly nasty things 👻

I'm depresso & burntout for no reason atm so allow me to go nuts a bit--- I LOVELOVELOVE THOSE POSTS WITH WYLDER GIVING THE FLOWER BOUQUET THING TO DUCHESS IT'S SO CUTE I NEED TO SCRIBBLE IT SO BAD AND HEAL MY SOUL 😭

I think the value of peak fiction to sanity in daily life cannot be overstated. A beacon that grounds and helps makes sense of the chaos. For me, it's one of the many things that makes life worth living. I'm always looking forward to the next one. Art be praised.

I JUST REMEMBERED THE PRAGMATA GAME AND IT'S BASICALLY THAT DUO I DESCRIBED IN MY LAST POST AHHHHHHHHHH

What is it called when you want to be the towering gigachad 9000 made of pure passion and muscles while ALSO wanting to be the fiesty little girl who tags along with him while they draw out each other's greatest strengths through pure love and wholesomeness? 🤔

Despair 💀 #NIGHTREIGN

Ah, I know this feeling---it's burnout!😱 ...I know THIS time though that it's nothing to worry about. Proof? Everyone's pulled through 100% of the times we've had them. Sometimes the magic comes back the next day. Maybe it takes much longer. I just need to be patient and let my MP recharge!

You know that feeling when you like a thing so much you just keep drawing it but the voice in the back of your head goes, "Stop it, you need more variety!" But wait, if I'm only drawing for myself with no need to show them, there should be no limits to fully enjoy them. 😜 I'll keep doing it looool

It's been such a long time since I've read any actual manga. Now that I've got some experience in roughing out pages (VERY hard) I'm now much more conscious of how these masters do it as I read. Their panels are beautiful and...patient. Pacing is a huge thing. We have to do more and git gud.

Fineeeeeee I'll hop back into silent hill f to finish all the other endings to get the full picture... 👻

The executor has like the biggest gap moe ever how can someone be so intimidating yet so cute LOL I absolutely love drawing him 😂