Finally got to drive our pride bus 😁😁

Loneliness has crept in bad this evening. Suggestions of discord servers or other new places I could join to talk to and meet new people on? 🥺

Another week done on the road at Doncaster - the end of week five and I still have no regrets about making this move. Driving better buses on nicer routes working with a lovely team and fantastic customers, has really reminded me why I do this job in the first place. Oh, and a commendation…!

I’m currently sat in tears in a motorway service station unable to get myself home safely but with literally no one still awake to even just talk to to ground myself and this is genuinely one of the worst feelings I’ve ever had right now.

Two 57s and two Thorne’s in two days. Love it. I think that’s nine new routes ticked off over the course of this week too.

Only a little one, but another route ticked off for me today between my X3s. An interesting week so far; another five routes to tick off tomorrow as I embark on a handful of town rota duties for the next couple of days!

People should be careful about what they read on social media. Not everything is as it’s made out to be………

Pleased to report I managed to remember I was doing a Doncaster X2 and not go into autopilot mode having turned left for two and a half years 😭 bustimes.org/vehicles/fsy...

Not hopeful for this X2 - you’d probably win some money if you bet on me turning up Salisbury Road in Maltby!

And it begins….

To clarify out driving on the road, not mentoring like this week so far lol

She’s out on the road tomorrow what??????

Three days in at Doncaster, a mix of route learning and mentoring so far but an opportunity to drive a 314 this afternoon has given me my first bit of “proper” Donny mileage - not bad to say it’s a route I unintentionally learnt whilst showing X3s!

Another shift over and done with. Just one more to go…

Nice little treat for my last 120…

Is this...genuinely what healing feels like?

What a fucking day.

Back at Walkley toilet for our final run of the day - a short run on the 95 as far as Brinsworth.

It is in *desperate* need of a lick of paint - but it sounds so good!! Love these buses.

69441 next to finish today off.

Actually made it all the way to Maltby on an X5 for once! I wonder if I can actually make it back to Sheffield though…🤣🤣

Ever had one of those days where you wish you’d just phoned in sick? 63409 is my first bus today for four hours of 95s; just a couple of days before its third birthday! No Volvos today though sadly, as my X5 later does appear to currently be 35316.

3 more trips…

Three days later than planned, but it’s finally my last tram replacement duty. Been dreading it because it makes everything more real, and the knowledge that I won’t get to do something I really enjoy at work anymore… 37116 to start off with; currently on break before joining 37483 to finish.

Finally got round to giving this baby some TLC for a couple of hours 💛♥️

Today I am continuing to pretend that I am a tram.

Places I expected to go to today: Hillsborough and Totley. Places I didn’t expect to be in today:

It's amazing how much this undiagnosed ADHD lark has actually ruined my goddamned life oh my actual days what on earth have i been doing up until this point

And that wraps up my last Sunday for a little while!! Words can’t describe how much I’m looking forwards to having Sundays back again after working pretty much every single one for two and a half years. Round the estate here at Maltby then back to depot so I can go home and have a little cry 🥲🥲

Spoke too soon. Got two this week now. 😂

Another shift done. Another shift closer to the last one…

I actually hate my brain

Does not feel like I’ve been driving this for three hours already. Just another hour and a half to go.

I’m a little disappointed that this is my penultimate tram replacement shift - over the last year they’ve by far been the shifts that I’ve enjoyed the most and what a nice surprise to have 69442 all evening for it! @acedemio.bsky.social on the other duty this evening hasn’t got anything on this 😎

When you get told to go prep a bus you’ve never managed to drive without breaking down before.

Yes, I am still playing trams. Yes, I am still enjoying playing trams.

I’m continuing to learn so much about myself and I’m not always sure it’s always a good thing.

Coming out the other week should’ve been such a joyous change in my life, so why have I been anxious and depressed and losing my closest friends every single day since?

How do you get help and support for doing things when you’re basically as undiagnosed as it can be? Asking for a friend.

52a ✅

I think it’s absolutely fantastic that the team at our depot are finally starting to get next stop announcements rolled out on our 67 plate Streetdecks, which had the system fitted from their Leeds days. What I don’t think is fantastic is the fact that it’s already given me a massive headache!!

My existence has never been announced before!

Back on trams 🥳🥳

Really struggling tonight.

Love these Voith Geminis.

Posts that aged well. Had a realisation that I’ve got way too much shit to work out for this. I need to get better before I try and make any more new connections. Let’s face it, when the time is right, something will come… Until then, I need to work on and focus on me, myself and I.

Another day another changeover 🙃

I fucking hate this city.

I am home, I am fine and well. I did however get really angry and upset this evening, and so therefore I have done something which some people may see as stupid…but you know what, it’s made me feel so much better for doing it, and I feel like I actually have a life ahead of me again.

My “punishment” continues.