How much of myself did I abandon to hopeless dreams that wouldn't follow through?

This was where it started btw "Becoming" (I could 100% become an artist if I tried, I'm not dogshit, I'm focused on my formal education right now.)

Staying here is killing my soul off, slowly. I have nothing left to show for this version of myself, so I will cut off that part that weakens and hurts my heart. I'm better than this.

I'm better than this, I won't be the man I used to be and cry about what I cannot change. I'll change myself instead, no matter who I have to leave behind to do so.

I'm done with being disrespected in all aspects of life. No good has ever come to me in my life when I've laid down and taken crap from literally everyone and their mom. It's time for scorched earth.

One time, I passed by my siblings' school, and this man, it must've been right after I turned 18, he lowered his window, he told me to look his way, and when his eyes met mine, he told me that I'm gonna be a great man someday. Almost like a drive-by, but instead of violence, hope? I'm gonna draw it.

The affairs of this world couldn't be anywhere farther than where my mind is at right now <3

I have been to hell and back, I finally understand what I am, what I want to achieve, and who I want to be. I would like to thank all of the people I held a personal connection to in my life. It's time for me to start showing everyone what I am capable of <3

you mf, I know you can see this, how dare you do this to me right after I was feeling better about things. i was so close to just being happy but no, you had to make me question EVERYTHING because you had to be a "bro" to me? I want to just fall asleep, never wake up than deal with this shit now.

WHY WONT YOU LET ME BE RIGHT HOW COULD YOU

please let those be deepfakes or some shit my heart cant take this

please god, don't do this to me

"No one can act alone in the name of all and no one can accept the anarchy of a society without rules." Maybe I was meant to reach that conclusion, that I was as good as a manipulator as she was and be a different, kinder person than how my mother was. It's time to move on from that.

TW // Pathetic Rant // 1/5 I hurt so many people in my life, and I'm tired of what I do subconsciously without realising that I have an impact on people like that. I don't think I'll ever change in that way, giving people advice on how to optimise their life as well as be exactly what they want.

Work study of Hirohiko Araki (+ references) (sent using Postybirb! @ 16:55 GMT)

After a long drawn out thought experiment, I have decided to leave social media completely. I won't really be using this account to send anymore tweets or reposting other people's content, I'm going to keep it as an archive for my art and that's all. It's been nice. Live happy.

Hey guys, I'm gonna leave social media for a while. This was a choice I should've made for a long time, but I kept shying away from it because it was scarier to admit that I needed to put time into myself to develop as a person. I hope you guys have a great life nonetheless <3 Love, Alex B

This is why you ALWAYS post WIPs I really just forgot 4 years of perspective for the hand despite working it's detail perspective for an hour straight lmao His belly button is also super low on the body and I'm SO GLAD I post WIPs lolo

WIP - Thorn Claim Cover Would anyone actually read this? Js curious lmao

It's not bad to be honest. I'll never lie to those I love again.

#rezearc #furryart #WIP

Oh?~

Journal update - 0.1 I've finally moved out! I am going to still be pursuing the engineering course I have enrolled in, I should be more active soon, I will be posting more in the stoat and discord servers I'll have on my carrd/linktree! I'm finally taking my life into my own hands, it feels great

[Troll Hunters Concept art Leaks] WE WERE SUPPOSED TO HAVE A SEASON 2 OF WIZARDS !!???  #TrollHunters #TalesOfArcadia

MY BOYFRIEND MADE THIS I'M SO PROUD <333 Thank you my darling <3

Meum sentis vindicare.

Expergiscere, tempus est recuperare quod semper tuum erat. Tam parum temporis rebus tam curiosis habemus.

Tempus est nobis id quaerere.

Si haec omnia scio, quid est proximus gradus?

Pretium novae vitae tuae est pretium veteris vitae.

Hic locus non est nostra originis.

War.

So I heard/ read about the things happening in Brazil (basically the place where I grew up and I'm still living till this day) And Tr#mp is now targeting Brazil, I'm really concerned and I'm hoping this is actually fake but if it isn't I'm scared right now, and I don't know how to feel about it

Who's this schmook? New sona redesign sketch, even though it's time for hard focused math work. Don't forget you need downtime too <3 Alēx the |||||||||||||||||| everybody! Huh. I thought I said ||||||||||||||||||? Whatever! He's a Bull-Bear hybrid. Enjoy!

Please keep yourselves informed about this, this is bordering on dictatorship power and we do NOT like the look of it. Don't feed the US media about the Brazilian government, gangs and anything to do with negative connotations. It feeds their power trip. Please be considerate of our Brazilians 🫂💐🧡

Made a piece in my spare time. Not finished, maybe one day. The Black hole. (Self portrait.) WIP

I'm still working on this, renamed to Plaza Abrigo, stay tuned <3

New personal ref sheet - Alexander J Black It took me a while to come up with the character design, lore and implications to "Plaza California". It's a huge weight off my shoulders to have a conceptualised character to depict myself 🫂

I can't celebrate Christmas this year because of the people I live with and it gets a little harder every year to convince myself that I'm gonna get out of here one day and be able to have my own traditions based on those nostalgic days. It's hard to keep it together, especially right now.

This shit warms my heart man I hope you two have a long beautiful life together because people are falling outta love a lot more often 😭🫂 Happy holidays man 🎄🎶❤️

Can't let it go, what hurts you the most, is I wasn't there to beg you. Baby don't go, put on a show, light it up.

Don't forget that sometimes you'll forget about who you are. Take the time to remind yourself that you're valuable too. You deserve happiness as well. Don't stay too hung up on what others want from you and be yourself 🫂

You really oughta know by now, That you get what you give And if you don't commit, You'll be desperate just to fit in. They don't practice then they wonder why they suck Patient? Always been, now don't get outta touch I should've told them that I know better now I'll show them that I'm no quitter.

never again

Maybe one day

If I build it up, who will burn it down? Do I believe in a god who can save me? Can I be enough, when I'm feeding my doubts? Should I give it up? Do I stick around? Is everyone always trying to break me?

I will be taking a break from art, gaming, socials and other things along with that. I am running out of time to learn the skills I need to succeed. I hope you can understand guys 🫂🧡 Have fun while I'm gone and don't forget, 🌺

EAGLES VS CROWS My new reference sheet across all platfom :p This is me <3

United in grief (unfinished)

Me hour 58 in on transmutation learning: