why is november still so far away i need amphoreus back on my screen IMMEDIATELY

everyone's most deranged friend (me) is once again back on their bullshit (the equinox was barely two days ago and it's already too warm to exist so i'll make sure this entire city pays the price by becoming Insufferable)

"phaidei f1 au" this, "phaidei moto gp au" that, where is MY high speed vehicle (sorry evryone im. so high on asrenaline rn)

#hsr not sure how i'm feeling over the sudden thought that cycle 366 phainon is the only one carrying the weight of killing the chrysos heirs in previous lives while not actually having done any of it

#hsr pov you may just be cerydra irl: logged into irl's account to buy him a trendy headpiece, saw hysilens show up on the screen, got so furious i genuinely saw everything turn red for a moment, remembered i too own her in my account, seethed (a bit) less from jealously

#hsr not to get philosophical on main, but in reading the scepter's files on as i've writtten i noticed something. hsr places a lot of emphasis on the aeons' eyes and who THEY look at. and in what i'm sure is no coincidence, because with hoyoverse these things never are, so does the scepter.

rewriting my fic in hopes that it'll get me into the phaidei writing mood again, because all i've done the past week is play round after round of endgame content until my brain goes completely numb

#hsr a chinese player just hit the damage cap of currency wars (99 trillion, 999 billion, 999 million, 999 thousand, 999). everyone get ready for shit to get exponentially harder from now on as hoyoverse takes it as a personal challenge to entertain this one person

#hsr anyway. not to be salty or anything but player trust is lost incredibly quick and i've already got issues with hoyo so i REALLY hope they take a page out of the current apocalyptic shadow and integrate elation with other "metas" instead of repeating the current memory of chaos elation-only shit

#hsr it sure wouldn't be fun if currency wars also got hit with the elation meta and nothing else did big damage forcing you to build the same boring team every fucking time 🤪 but hey it's impossible to prove currecy wars is also in the elation meta so i probably don't need to worry about anything 🤪

#hsr the greed they talk about in the bible or something

#hsr hyacine what the FUCK are you feeding this gluttonous beast (little ica's follow up just sent pollux's HP from 79% to 55%)

#hsr mydeimos the undying did nothing wrong, if i saw a puppy coded man with a choker looking at me with those loving eyes phainon has i too would would let him kill me lest i kill myself from cuteness aggression

i think my most white person trait is looking at animals twice my size and thinking "i wanna pet that SO BAD" (not pictured: me heading up to this massive dog barking nonstop and using puppy play sounds so i could boop it with my own face)

#hsr planarcadia thought of the day i think it's fair to tolerate it during THE planet of elation and chronical unseriousness BUT i do agree that hoyoverse has been treating blade as a meme character and blade fans aren't wrong in being bothered by that

#hsr sometimes i remember phaidei now have the memories of falling in love 33 million times and i. i.

and an extra

daily mood

shout out to me finally finding the original version of the picture of dorian gray in my local book store and buying it on the spot despite claiming earlier that i couldn't spend any more money whatsoever this month

week one: beautiful dagger week two: rock soup

#hsr i just got here.

#hsr kafka and blade truly picking up all the sidequests while silver wolf tried to keep firefly from going into a coma in penacony

amazing how i binged pjo season 1, then as soon as it ended i got into epic the musical, then as soon as that ended amphoreus started, and now just as we leave amphoreus for another planet a web comic about apollo and daphne debuts. i'm truly never getting over ancient greece

another day, another hole on my scalp 😮‍💨

me: yeah i can't buy ice cream cuz i gotta pay my doctor next week and it's gonna be EXPENSIVE oomf: you bought an actual dagger 5 minutes ago. you're CARRYING it. me:

maybe it's time i write another text crying out my loneliness and maybe i'll feel better (i want to cease existing for good)

sometimes i wish i could disappear out in the world and never come back i think i could truly find bliss this way

oh to be taking phaidei nuis to greece (just saw someone posting pictures from the odeon of herodes atticus and i couldn't be more envious)

#hsr 3.8 and 4.0 thread i guess

#hsr star rail devs making not-tokyo, not-mario and not-anime for planarcadia

one of my besties will be stuck doing doctor stuff for 4 whole days instead of being free for me to cry my heart out until i'm done being dramatic and a massive baby i hate it here also how do doctors even survive through life i'd kill myself after the first 20 hours in a hospital

#hsr if what aha says is true then it's kinda hilarious that the fuck around and find out aeon was lovers with the fuck around aeon and killed by the find out aeon

#hsr still insane that the nymphs narrate the phaidei bath scene as a chase between predator and prey with mydei's sights on phainon's neck

#genshin sorry to everyone who believed i could change in the last 4 years but i suddenly remembered why i love kaedehara kazuha genshinimpact and it's STILL for all the wrong reasons

what does a person need to do to find a medieval knight around these parts (several centuries too late)

tiny tiny worm 🎵 digging a little hole 🎶 oh would you look 🎵 the earth is stronger than you 🎶 tiny tiny worm 🎵 you shouldn't be here 🎶 haven't you learned? 🎵 stone is not the place for you 🎶 tiny tiny worm 🎵 alone, lost, and blind 🎶 be careful where you dig 🎵 or a heart will crush you to bits 🎶

and i keep unceremoniously barging into people's lives trying to make anything that resembles a home in their hearts but every time no matter how much i want to believe that i've found my space i'm always forced to face that no one actually sees me in their future. and at some point i have to wonder

everything hurts and my head feels like it's gonna explode in pain from crying

#hsr if all the curses of the crysos heirs were broken in the eternal page then so should be mydei's theme of being alone, just saying. give him his friends back, you cowards

#hsr wait. i don't recall all the tidbits of how cyrene created the eternal page right now, but if she used "the memories of thirty million lifetimes of every ordinary amphorean", why aren't the kremnoan detachment 5 in it?

#hsr i have a confession i still don't know how amphoreus hours work. what the fuck is a lucid hour. does a quint actually mean ⅕ or am i just crazy. amphoreus why

i'm in so much pain suddenly and i can't tell if it's due to my medication getting messed up or if i got sick and the back of my right eye feels like it's going to explode i want to die

#bsd my controversial opinion on bsd art direction is that no longer human should be white instead of blue. yeah it doesn't work on manga bc everything is already b&w and neither on anime bc the abilities' visual effects already combine white with another color but still it should be white. fight me

taking back my "today is a day alright" post, today is just a nightmare

EGG！

irl being a blade runner fan and me being a hsr blade fan is leading us into levels of wordplay never seen before

#honkaistarrail #bladerunner2049

tiny vent before i go back to amphoreusposting but i'm just. so frustrated by my constant feeling of loneliness. i want fulfilling relationships, i want friends who put as much energy into hanging out together as i do, and by god i DON'T wanna be a massive bitch over others' relationships because

snow cold bf warm ❄️

#hsr version 4.0 throwing ahavili into the hot new ship podium wasn't in my 2026 plans but i'm entertained and that's probably what THEY would want