If you walk around worrying that you might be a bad person. Come off as a bad person. Speaking like a bad person. 9 times out of 10. You're not. Bad people don't walk around worrying about that.

Also... he added walnuts to the food we're serving. I am allergic to nuts...? lol.

I swear.. I don't know what my parents TRULY want for me. But I want this birthday weekend to be f*cking over. The absolute stress they both put me through because they don't trust me is giving me heart palpations. It's moms birthday party. SHE is not suppose to do ANTYHING. And my dad is just...

I don't feel good. Like at all. Mentally and physically. So tired. So.. indifferent to excisting. And I don't feel like I "have my people" It's all just pretend.

My water is now brown :((((

They've turned off the water in our bulding 🤦🏻‍♀️ I had energy to colour my hair amd shower.... well... 🧍‍♀️

My thoughts are so f*cking dark tonight. Wtf. It's 3am soon and I should fucking sleep..

2:30 am. I am in too much pain and can't sleep. My vacation week has been a disaster. So much to do for my moms birthday party on Saturday. Period still not arrived and I might think it comes during the party and it's most crucial prep. That means I have to survive it with tons of people around 🙃💔

So my friends basically confirms that RIR concert was shit in organisation. Fans got fried in the sun waiting, fan numbering was allowed, camping too. The guys ended what seemed earlier than expected (they also seemed to struggle from heat) But so did their fans and no RIR staff seemed to care.

Ohhh boy threads is freaking out. HAHA. I can't.

Threads is in shambles between trying to cancel people, rock in roma being h*ll organised and that stupid dating rumour 😂 And ofc the people who try to believe they're some type of... positive angel babies within the fandom. My god...

I'm not ungrateful. It's just I spent 2 days learning the shop, size the items, plan what to make available to sell as products. I barely get anything from the items sold because I pay the website a certain %. It's better you just follow me and share my posts and let otherssee my stuff.

I will complain a bit: People always asked me to make prints available of my ATZ art so they could support. When I finally chose to do so. No one really bought. 2 people have and they ordered a lot (🙏🏻) and I've made 5.85$ for 15 sold prints because I use a third party. I won't go to a shop ⬇️

If my dad calls ONE MORE TIME trying to change the stuff and orders of my moms planned birthday celebration on Saturday I WILL drop everything and not even attend. I am tired of this. I've planned shit since months. Stop trying to CHANGE IT. Oh MY god. He has his duties. Stick to them. Urgh.

The way some creators let their comment section dogpile on someone even though the post is supposed to be " vague" is... beyond me. If you wanna be vague..BE VAGUE. Keep the comment section vague. If we name call.. do that then and stand up for your sh*t. 🤷🏻‍♀️ That comment section IS the weird.

Okay but explain... My family is very adamant thst I am probably noT chronically ill. However when I then work my ass off, take on projects and do what they ask of me BECAUSE it's what expected.... they suddenly get worried and shit? WHAT IS IT THAT U WANT FROM ME?

"Its getting weird" over 3 short videos addressing a subfandom behaving extremely weirdly for, what was it? 6? 7? years now? Bsffr. I'm done. But that subfandom needs to do some deep reflecting if they think 3 videos is "too much" in comparison to their non-stop kveching for over half a decade.

When I panic bought dresses today I had the loveliest cashier. I will def return there simply because of her and the bubbly personality. She offered to help me find good pieces next time. Not my usual style of clothes but for summers. Perfect!

Imagine if I finished this.. lol. My body is killing me again so. Have to stretch and lie down. Hope getting more done tomorrow!

F*ck... I forgot how the 5th Pirates of the Caribbean movie ended. Barbossa is my favourite character all over the series. I cried 😂💔

It's now I find out that people with this illness has jaw and gum issues... I can literally move my left jaw and pop it.. it locks itself constantly... my gums bleed by just touching no matter how well I've brushed... My shoulders have discolated several times. Fingers too... if it's not this I-..

My doctor is not available until mid august/end of august. My ADHD clinic has sent a referral to my doctor. So she can see we've spoken about this. I'll make my list. Again. Of all my issues. ⬇️

Sent a message to my doctors basically begging for them to help me and be referred to Ehlers Danlos specialists. I am shaking because I think I already know the answers. My mom also says the doctors don't treat me badly (they do) and should just send messages asking.

I'm still so depleted from yesterdays doctors stuff. One day if work then I have vacation until the 14th. Don't want one since it's unpaid but I need it too. Taking care od my moms 70th birthday party and tons of other things. But my energy is, gone.

The nurse today asked if I gotten checked for Ehlers Danlos syndrome since it's heavily connected to ADHD and Autism when I explained my physicsl issues (had ADHD check up). Bawled my eyes out. I said no. Because no one listens to me when I state my symptoms.

Just saw a Tiktok where someone said: "A word to the fake-Atiny who are mad about Chase being in the music video.. I hope she dates your bias... I HOPE she marries your bias....... I hope she marries MY bias so then I can have them both!" I am CACKLING hahaha 😂😂😂

Happy with my pulls! I am waiting for a signed unit album to arrive to my friend (manifesting MATZ) and also have albums coming in at a later date. But yay! Look at them all 🥹

Yeosang has tagged a fashion house. He doesn't do that a lot doesn't he? Maybe it's something. And if it is. I swear if people can't be happy I will erupt into a volcano outburst.

The thing is. If it was WooYoung with the M*ta glasses people would be absolutely livid. Ofc it's not up to me personally to educate. He is smart, an adult and not my friend. It's his thing to deal with. But I don't cherry pick because he is my bias as I keep seeing. And I won't like or share.

I am so FUCKING frustrated and MAD. And petty. I am so fucking petty.

No one forces you to make content. Speaking as if you're held at g*n point. It's the entitlement for me. The way you speak genuinely as if KQ should pay you? And making people feel bad for not sharing your opinions..? Please. If you feel this miserable about the CB, group & fandom. You can leave.

I wrote about my disappointment for the Meta glasses and HJ. And that I can prob only make fans aware of how bad those are. Someone VERY mad. It's my first time experiencing someone being aggressive right of the bat. It's kind of exciting but also gave me anxiety 😂😩🤭 "AI IS HERE AND TO STAY"

OMG 🏃🏻‍♀️🏃🏻‍♀️🏃🏻‍♀️

Hongjoong nooo... stop the Meta glasses IG stories.... no 💔

I would love if we got a Fallin' MV actually. Epic.

Flashwarnings for the ATEEZ Hyde Park concert videos! They're flaaaasshyy.

My favourite pack Omega.

I think people underestimate the way Yeosang's voice actually is used. His deep tone is difficult to sing. What he does is amazing. The way he can harmonize with it too. Not many do this. And ESPECIALLY not in KPOP. Remember when T.O.P debuted? People were confused. Yeosang is cool as f-. ⬇️

I have 2 coworkers. Who repeatedly try to change their shifts or give them away because they wanna do other things. Today one called in sick. Again. We know she isn't. Sorry, but if you don't want to work just give the hours to us who do..? My morals could never. Not even at her age (20).

I didn't clock it first when he posted but... I didn't enjoy seeing HJ with Meta glasses. Truly didn't.

This heatwave we got this weekend can FUCK off. My body can't deal with it. And I have so much to prepare on top of work. I am losing my absolute sh*t. Want to lie down because so f*cking ill feeling but no time. Crying as I am trying to cope.

In case anyone didn't know. I live HongJoong. A normal amount. He blessed me in the vinyl. K, bye!

WHY CANT I PULL BANANA MINGI?! WHY DID I PULL MY BIAS ALL OF A SUDDEN, ORGANICALLY. HELLO...??! Goodnight.

Picking up my vinyl now and 4 GH4 digipacks because I NEED BANANA MINGI. N O W!!

If it was me seeing my fans behave the way slme of you do I'd be so F*CKING embarrassed. Learn when to STOP.

I now plan to draw a big poster of all the members and Chase from the MV 🩷 Can't wait to get into a big project again!

There you go. Just because he isn't fully in the title tracks every time doesn't mean he isn't singing or have lines or that KQ don't believe he can't sing. He had great distribution in IOMT and Adrenaline. And MANY other songs. I can agree that Lemon Drop in particular SUCKED. It was weird.

People putting Chase Infiniti down in this MV also disgusts me. It's fine to not know who she is. But stop the gross hate comments? Just say you're racist. If you google she is a good actress shy of 3 years and already been in big Oscar nominated film. And The Testament (Handmaid's Tale sequel) ⬇️

They're not your playthings where you can dictate what they need or don't need. You're diminish all the other hard work he is putting in to the group. I know you don't like to hear it. But you do. I'll be staying off socials as much as I can. I found at least 2 songs I like so I will enjoy those.

Again, people diminishing HJs words about the company, staff and members being good and fine. Again, people not realising that what they're doing is going to further more make a member not invite people in. You're not helping.