As soon as I get my return im bolting to the piercing shop, if no job wants me than im getting my swag back damn it 😂

Losing weight is all fun and games until 90% of your wardrobe is TOO big 🧎🏾 I wear baggy clothing but now everything is too baggy and I feel like a child wearing their grownups clothing 🥲🫡

At the end of the day, no one wants my ass & I don’t blame em. All in all it just makes restricting easier. Clearly the universe doesn’t want me to eat. I have another interview Wednesday & im only going b/c my bf is making me. If it were up to me, id just kms 🤷🏽

Told yall 😂🙃 I knew it was a wrap the second the interviewer called me out for not making sure contact. I want to deep throat a gun

I had 7 W-2s…not 3 so now I have to ammend my taxes in February and refile them…YO I FUCKING HATE BEING ALIVE HUMAN 😀🔫 This is the 2nd year ive done this shit. All I want is to make a quesadilla but can’t even afford to buy tortillas. I fucking hate ARFID. I wish I could be normal…

Interview was pointless 🤦🏾 I fully expect a rejection email. Im going to get high now & contemplate my existence like I do every damn day

How I look being 25min early to my interview (this happens every time 🧍🏾) Fuck my life. I want to go home & binge 🫠

Yaay lax hit before interview but nap time has been interrupted 🧎🏾

BSKY FUCKING PLZ GIVE US PRIV ACCOUNTS THIS YEAR I BEG OF THE. IM TIRED OF BLOCKING SOMEONES GRANDMA OR A PORN BOT

Just finished my fucking taxes 🫠 I HATE hate doing this shit every year. why I gotta pay to file for something that YALL (IRS) WANT ??? Whatever I got my usual amount, half going to bills and the other half going to weed and new clothes 🕺🏽

All that I ask is that this hits before or after my interview today 💀🧎🏾 Drinking more than 1 cup induces 🤮 so if I don’t feel cleared out w/ just one cup…well then I’ll drink 2 🙃

Being black & queer just sucks 😂 If its not racism im dealing w/, its transphobia. if its not transphobia, its ableism. if its not ableism, its micro aggressions. if it’s not micro aggressions, its misogyny 😀🔫 It never ends.

This place I have an interview @ I have been in contact w/ last year & I didn’t get hired last time b/c I said I don’t like working w/ others b/c I hate being responsible for someone’s else’s actions than I was told that “that’s not how the world works” 😀🔫 IK that’s why I want to KILL MYSELF SHARON

I don’t want to do this interview today 🫠 my bf tries to help me but it just sounds like more masking & I hate masking. It doesn’t matter what I do. If a recruiter doesn’t see me as someone who they can make friends w/ or fit in their weird work hierarchy I don’t get the job. Simple as that 💀

Tonight has been a mess. Im f@sting…not going to say when I will stop b/c I always shoot myself in the foot when stated otherwise Taking l@x tea tomorrow morning as punishment 🧎🏾

Now my tummy hurt🧍🏾🧎🏾 ate enough food to last me a week tops

I ate 90% of this tin in less than an hour womp womp 🫠😵‍💫

Okay now I have 2 interviews this week 💀 but the stress of interviewing is hitting me & im binging. I NEED TO GET IT TOGETHER. I don’t even want these jobs fuck. I hate being autistic man I can’t even hold contact let alone a job 😀🔫

I bc all the time b/c my closet door is literally a full siza mirror 😂🧍🏾

I wear the stonerexic badge w/ honor 🥇

Nothing like waking up to FOUR rejection emails back to back to back

My step schedule is off b/c bf called off Thursday so now I need to do 30k steps for 2 days instead of 1 before Friday 🧍🏾

Oh im in the part of my disorder where I think 800 is too much and if I don’t fást longer than 72hrs imma failure 🕺🏽 I need to stop weighting myself everyday b/c I start acting this way so back to 1 month weight ins starting on the 1st 🧍🏾

My partner kept rubbing my hip bone while I was dozing off last night & I enjoyed it way too much 😵‍💫 🧎🏾

WHY must my body hold onto a pound EVERY TIME I want to get to the next tenth place 🫠🧎🏾

Deleted my tt account. good riddance b/c wtf.

I hate the feeling of my food coming back up (hence why im a restrictive type and not 🤮 type) Will be going back doing salt cleanses if I really need to 💩 cause I hate this 😂 💀 Yall purgers are the strongest soldiers 🫂😭

…So side effect I have come to notice w/ this tea is that it sometimes induces vomiting & I had no idea 💀😀 Everything is coming out both ends & im gonna be real w/ yall this is probably my last time drinking it 😭

I was sleeping so good, then the lax hit and now my cats are harassing me because they think imma feed them like liquid isn’t coming out of my ass 🧍🏾💀

I ❤️ Cannabis 🧍🏾

Goal was to f@st today but forgot I never got my free jersey mikes sub so will be inhaling that tonight as an omad 😩

Lax tea down the hatch 🫡 we are a pound away from the 120’s folks

My favorite spo is literally someone’s furry oc and Bayonetta 💀🧎🏾

🧎🏾 im so close to the 120’s ugh im so happy even though earlier this morning sucked im in a much better mood. Walking always makes me feel better

My mom does a facebook post about me every year on my bday even after I moved and I have to remind myself its all an act. A narcissist loves attention & to play a part they can’t fulfill. I hope she doesn’t try to call me on my brother’s phone like last year b/c I cannot handle that right now.

Okay last post for tonight but new lw 🫡🕺🏽

Im officially back down to 134 🎉these past 2 weeks have been all over the place plan wise but after tomorrow and some lax tea I WILL be in the 120’s by February. BELIEVE IT 😤 Maybe i need to stop trying to do 10k steps a day, havent done any steps in 4 days and I think that’s helping

I guess tomorrow I will spend my birthday walking around town to see who’s hiring, talk to whoever and hope for the best and I also have to go to the snap place just to let these folks know IM BROKE AND STARVING MYSELF 😀🔫 I can’t do another year of this man. I really can’t.

Once again, I wish I could survive off protein bars but why is a 4ct box 10 FUCKING DOLLARS ???????????? I miss the 99¢ store so bad 🧎🏾

Fucking finally! I am finally back down to my ACTUAL weight. If I can extend my f&st to 5 days I know I can hit the 120’s and still be on track. Overall I still lose 10lbs a month just the first 2 weeks of a new month are always all over the place. Either way the tea did its job 🫡🙂‍↕️

Welp ptsd nightmares are back in full swing & if it were up to me id never sleep again. Im glad I can run on 2hrs of sleep but I hate it My bday tomorrow and it’s just another year wishing I were dead or my parents died instead so I can finally feel free. Moving 2k miles away was never enough.

I have been too scared to weight myself since the 12th b/c I haven’t been tracking as much as before and I wanted to make sure I eat @ maintenance b/c I do not want to go through a FOURTH plateau I decided to bite the bullet and weight in and im still at 135! Im so happy 😭🧎🏾

6 bowel movements later and theirs more to come… this tea works better than regular lax in my opinion 😔

Out of weed. Too broke to do anything for my bday on Wednesday. It’s going to be a LONG 2 weeks 😀🔫

I just wanted to omad some ice cream and my bf tried to help by saying “its just a cookie dough ice cream” and my brain did not take that well and kept crying more 😀 Now he’s trying to make me feel better by playing RE6 but I just want THAT specific ice cream 🥲

WENT TO WALMART (I HATE WALMART) TRYING TO FIND MY ICE CREAM AND DIDNT SEE IT, BROKE DOWN CRYING B/C OF IT AND B/C SO MANY PEOPLE WERE IN THE ISLE JUST TO FIND OUT ITS A SEASONAL FLAVOR. LITERALLY EVERYTHING I LIKE IS SEASONAL AND I HATE IT.

Plan is to omad until i run out of weed so the next 2-3 days 😀🔫 and then Its back to f@$ť❗️ng for me. Im tired of seeing 137 even though I was @ 134 as my lw so far

This app can’t/won’t get rid of me. imma say what I want till the end 🤷🏾 anyways Ate: 1199 Burned: 1184 Net: 17 I have callouses on my big toe 🧍🏾

Welp this app took my pinned post and now i have 2 strikes 🙄 I can’t wait to kill myself man im over it 😂

Why do I even apply anywhere if its just rejection after rejection?