Feels kinda strange editing together a project that will only end up being shown to a very small amount of people. And having a second project in mind for the same purpose.

[mh (-)] Everything feels impossibly insurmountable. Mistakes I make ripple out and make huge waves. I just want to be able to exist without concerns.

Summer months are hard, things are more expensive, struggling to make it. Out of money for the month, if you can help it is greatly appreciated. https://paypal.me/Harleyidhra #mutualaid #transcrowdfund

Summer months are hard, things are more expensive, struggling to make it. Out of money for the month, if you can help it is greatly appreciated. https://paypal.me/Harleyidhra #mutualaid #transcrowdfund

Learning that someone diagnosed with dyspraxia has such difficulty with shaving that they have cut themselves with an electric razor. Something I have done three times, one of which was very recently. Things continue to make more sense.

I need to be wearing tighter clothes, my curves stand out a lot more in tank tops and such.

[HRT, joke] I take my spiro with baja blast, as intended.

[Gender (~)] I rapidly oscillate between being happy with my breast development and feeling like it's inadequate.

I forgot a goal could be set like this (in attached post). Rent is due the 3rd of June, and I've gotten $6 on kofi and $6 on paypal. Anything helps!~ I hate asking because I know times are tough for a lot of folks. Incredibly appreciative of everyone, I appreciate the previous post shares too!

[Gender, HRT, TMI? (+)] Finally gotten to the point that I can feel bounce going down stairs quickly even with a bra on~

I am rapidly getting exhausted by defenses of anti-intellectualism in regards to children's media. It's further encouraging future generations to not look for deeper meaning in things.

I had no idea that Tomodachi Life was going to be such a stressful and difficult game. The need to talk to folks I know to ask them for permission to make them or their characters on my island just makes for a very challenging time.

[Gender (+)] So happy to be breasting boobily today

If you've only ever heard one song by Chumbawamba, and you know which song I'm talking about, you really owe it to yourself to listen to some other songs by them cus that one song is NOT representative of them at a band. It's hard to say what would be representative, they are pretty eclectic […]

The super mario movie, the old live action one, is the only adaption I can think of that uses the "reverse engineering" approach to adaptions. ( that is, instead of trying to be accurate to the game, imagine what sort of movie the games would be a less-than-fateful adaption of and make that […]

I'm forever frustrated with myself for skipping on Outer Wilds and TUNIC when they were new because I miss having conversations about the weird and new things that were stumbled upon by people as they were playing. Nowadays, though, that situation seems rare because of how averse folks are to […]

I think possums should be honorary rodents.

[ph and mh -, emetophobia warning] went to the doctor due to some physical pain I had a couple times that were bad enough that I had to vomit. found out I have what is likely an esophegeal spasm. one of the meds for it cost me the money I would have spent on bandcamp today. on top of that after […]

[gender euphoria] despite the absolute dogshit morning I've had, I saw her in the mirror today.

Another year older another year wiser

Calvins Dad voice: All weird video games are either Twin Peaks or Earthbound. Disco Elysium is Twin Peaks, Undertale is Earthbound. Despite being a spiritual sequel to Undertale, Deltarune is Twin Peaks.

[Mh -] It has been a cruel fate to be suffering from severe anxiety and also desire nothing but spending time with friends.

Feel like I am going to have to start begging people to have a more nuanced opinion on everything.

There's something about accumulating knowledge that is intoxicating. I don't know why some folks choose not to continue to pursue seeking more information all the time.

[mh (-)] Having a bit of a rough night tonight. Losing fellow travelers who were on a similar path as I... tends to hit a lot harder.

[HRT, Progesterone, TMI] Oh, holy fuck, the jokes were not kidding. Feel so horny I can't see straight.

[Griping about butterfly site] I've been dabbling on Bluesky out of curiosity and other ulterior motives. It has not taken long to show me stuff to get me polarized and outraged. I'm so tired of several various discourses and how often they are driven by groupthink instead of a more […]

Cruel fate for me to learn I actually really enjoy playing Path of Exile 2, but it's so big I can't really justify leaving it installed. Really need another solid state, if my Mobo can support another m2

[Medicine (-), sarcasm] I was checking for interactions with any of my meds with nasal steroids for allergies and accidentally read that my anti-anxiety meds can cause hallucinations. So I am totally and completely not anxious about that. /s

[HRT, medicine (+), mh (-)] Feel as if my meds are slowly starting to cause the blossoming portion where I emerge from the chrysalis hotter, more confident, and extroverted. In the meantime though I am feeling horribly lonely because it also feels like I require friends around to get any happy […]

[Not sure how to describe this one, read at your own risk] So frustrated that folks I'm supposed to be feeling close to are seemingly appearing quite closed-minded. I don't have quibbles with all of them, but I also don't feel like I have overstepped in any manner. I'm hurt and still haven't […]

Am I being vibrated by the ceiling fan or am I the one who vibrates

[Financial woes (~)] Been struggling for a while to maintain bills being paid for my behalf until recently. Problem being that as that concern and worry starts being abated, my mind wanders to frivolous purchases that I would like, but cannot justify asking for while multiple folks are covering […]

Got stalled on my tarot studies, again. I think I need to really take a look at the court cards, they're the ones consistently tripping me up, but in theory should be the easiest to gain some grounding on. Part of it's probably them being remnants of monarchy, but I can also just understand them […]

Feel as though I am making good progress through tarot studies, finally. The process of writing things down and attempting my own interpretative practice on a deck I've not seen described is doing wonders in making everything click. It's going very quickly at that, too.

@Damienfox Happy birthday!

[mh -] Really struggling with how often I get interrupted. I just want to be able to interject with a silly little joke that's time sensitive, and often the conversation just goes off in a random direction because I wasn't able to talk. Also just like... needing space to think and some folks […]

I'm gonna need a push to finish my weekend project I think. Even though I am close to finishing it, I just know I will wake up tomorrow feeling defeated.

[Trans stuff, probably TMI] Huh, okay, I can still get horny, but it doesn't result in a physiological change anymore. Interesting.

Note to self: No Will Wood at karaoke, he's way too fast.

[Trans struggles] How much longer before I start looking like a girl

[mh -] I miss having someone to confide in. I either exhaust the current folks around or don't feel comfortable sharing or know they are already going through too much. Therapy is great and all but one hour once a week is not enough

I thought the future would be cooler

Oh my gosh, The Last Dinner Party has a new album coming out in 10 days!? This is great! I'm so excited!

Listening to music, a song starts I'm not familiar with. "What is this Sonic-ass music?" Get back to my computer, turns out to be Guilty Gear Strive OST with woman vocals. (The Disaster of Passion)

[Hades 2 spoilers (mild)] Darren Korb's music is great, don't get me wrong. But I need a mod that replaces the Scylla boss fight music with Siren by Castle Rat

[HRT (~)] Really feel "on the clock" as it were for trying to do everything I can to encourage breast development.

I finally have a better idea what to put on an #introductions. I'm very avidly into #gameing, enjoy #writing and generally being #creative. I love #movies and #music. Also big into #media #analysis of all of the above. I generally enjoy the aesthetics of casinos/gambling and especially jesters […]