Did not plan on reading a 88,000+ word series today. Still has 2 chapters to be posted no less, but I'm okay with that. Got to the end of the posted chapters right when I needed to break off to start winding down for bed.

Here we see Kenna's expression after falling off the bed at what felt like 5:40 a.m. in exactly the wrong spot and thus hit a piece of furniture and caused a large framed art print to come crashing down almost on top of her.

Happily, I have sewer service again. Bonus: I had the foresight to order groceries right after I called the plumber because I'm exhausted from doing virtually nothing and am not going anywhere. Still have to clean the basement though.

Saturday afternoon 😒

Saturday morning

Need to go upstairs to my office for the first half of the day and that’s kind of a high bar this morning. I need at least another hour (or two) for coffee and post breakfast nap, but I have 7 minutes.

My brain has fully lost any productive motivation, which would be fine if utilization to stay employed wasn’t a thing I’m invested in

ANOTHER fic posting notice I want to read and can't. This is harsh, AO3.

Just tried to open an AO3 page and literally went "WHAT. NO."

While AO3 is down... 🎶 They say all good boys go to heaven, but bad boys bring heaven to you. 🎶 www.youtube.com/watch?v=wskU...

Anyway, related to the previous, he was 11 months younger than me, but sometimes I still forget we didn't share a womb. Losing him the first time was the price of being adopted, then I lost him again to the family's religious rift, and the final time to stupid chance and death.

Therapist said the phrase "unresolved grief" this past week and you'd think the timeline on that would be 7 years, but I'm realizing the hard way this afternoon that the real timeline is 13 years and it is so fucking complicated.

Today's action packed agenda: Tumblr and staring off into space

Yeah, I made it home, upstairs, and into bed. Definitively not downstairs and onto the treadmill.

My exciting Friday night is, currently, waiting on a haircut and planning to get on the treadmill when I get home because it’s Friday and I don’t have a bedtime. This feels like it says something about me, but I’m not sure exactly what

mid-20's, Smallville Clark/Lex fic stumbled across very, VERY far down a search rabbit hole re: James Baldwin. Had never seen Smallville, just billboards, but obv knew who Clark and Lex were. Went "what the fuck did I just read and how do I find more"

I've been putting off scanning and emailing a critical form for over 2 months. I missed the original deadline, but it was extended to February 28th. After browbeating myself for the entire 2 months, I finally did it. It took less than 5 minutes.

Watching my work computer flash its bios and wishing profoundly it was a longer process so I could nap

A line from this song has been my header or subheader of my DW for a loooong time (since the beginning maybe? 2009?) so I may be a little biased, but I love this vid.

Shoes acquired. It was a 1 hour errand and that included a 20 minute drive both ways, which is my favorite kind of errand. Did not buy them to match Tavi, but don't tell him that.

Is it new running shoes day? It might be. It prob-- No, okay, it is. In 3 hours, anyway, once the store opens.

with alt text 💖

WEEKEND

4 more hours and it's the weekend.

I have achieved bed! \o/ The world is a better place.

I'm very post-exercise sweaty (actually it's mostly dried at this point which isn't actually an improvement) but I need the laundry to finish drying so I can fold the stuff that I care about wrinkling before I go upstairs for a bath and bed 😔 Please laundry. Dry faster.

Today's goal is to pass as a functional human being 🤞

Today's functional level on a scale of 1-10 is 0.2 We've all been fed and I think I can get on the treadmill today, but I'm also very close to abandoning the couch in favor of being in bed under the covers.

Important news: I heard a bird singing this morning.

Got brought in this morning to write extensive documentation for a client on a particular type of work project in the short and long term, from the very brief up to and including academic paper(s), and now my brain’s all fizzy and I can’t focus on anything for love or money

Ah. Have just looked at my full calendar and realized this afternoon is my performance review.

I have to log off work at 4 today for an appointment, which means I definitely shouldn't be logging in late, but here we are

Is it spring yet

Did laundry! The second thing will not be happening.

I have been zoned out via reading (/Tumblr) for most of 9 hours and it doesn't look like that's going to change much, so that's my day sorted. My goal list is now: 1. Load of laundry and 2. Treadmill.

Had an appetite for 5 minutes for the first time in months and I'm using it to eat hummus mixed w/ rice and an apple w/ chocolate peanut butter

As I was walking into Costco and wondering why tf there were so many people, I remembered tomorrow is Super Bowl Sunday. The good news is I survived.

Without naming your job, tell me something you say over and over at work. “If you touch the LOD so help me god—“

I'm at an incredibly annoying size where everything I own is 1 to 2 sizes too big OR 1 to 2 sizes too small. I'm not going to wear running tights to my hair appointment at the barber shop, but I did think about it for a hot minute.

Okay, who broke Tumblr?

WEEKEND \o/ dogs are fed, dinner is cooking, and I don't have to be anywhere until 2 pm tomorrow

The absolute latest I log in to work is 8 a.m. It is 7:59 a.m. and I am downstairs an in pajamas. Winter is a bitch of a season.

The treadmill definitely didn't fix my headache but I care way less about it now, so I'm calling it a win

I was all sleepy and ready to drift off and then my brain started spiraling so now I'm up distracting my brain from itself so that I can maybe, hopefully get some sleep tonight 😑

Spent 3.5 hours this morning fixing things *I* did not break. These things should have only taken 0.25 hours to update. My feelings on that are probably what you would expect.

The problem with having a long Tumblr queue (non-HR. the HR just gets straight up reblogged you're getting the full firehose experience) is that I've completely forgotten what's in there and the chances of reblogging something from myself is very high

I SENT THE EMAIL. I retyped it like 10 times trying to hit the right tone, but it was only three sentences long so that's not a lot of retyping.

Survived work and I'm sure there'll be less existential despair once dinner is out of the oven and eaten, but also I have a non-work email I 100% have to send tonight. Why must I continue to function.

Today Is A Struggle