When you no longer receive daily texts saying, "good morning, have a great day, I miss you and love you." That is emptiness in its purest form. 😞

And just like that.. my world grows colder and lonlier.

Devastated.

😞

While I do think the Mortal Kombat Legacy Kollection should not be bought at this time, it is a blast to play offline. Trips down memory and nostalgia lane. Especially with the Genesis, SNES, GameBoy versions of games. Its a fair preservation. It shouldn't be $50 (maybe 40).

Gotta love when you take a day off because you're not feeling well, it's seen as a reason for punishment and more tasks. Fuck off.

V for Vendetta

Uh, yeah, it's CLEARLY not 97° outside. It feels much worse, like, maybe 106°??? Hmmmmmm

This is from my solo death/doom project, lux.xul This is a soft release of a demo. 3 full songs. All instruments performed/programmed and recorded by me. "Illuminate Void" youtube.com/playlist?lis...

Mixing and mastering my music (Amateurishly, for sure) is sooooo time-consuming, but very fun. Glad I still have decent enough ears to tell a difference. No wonder its such a separate beast to work out. Sheesh!

Going to see Nine Inch Nails live for the first time ever, tomorrow night in Houston, TX. I'm taking my girl too. Excited!!

Show us the last four albums you listened to NIN - The Downward Spiral Blood Incantation - Absolute Elsewhere Deafheaven - Lonely People with Power Jade - Mysteries of a Flowery Dream

O M F G TWISTED METAL SEASON 2!!!! I POPPED THE FUCK OFF!!!!!&#&÷>+9<2_3&(BBBDOQLAKDH

Beginning to lose my grip on everything. 😔

It's incredible that im not supposed to have any human limitations while working 40 hours a week, for 18 dollars an hour. Sorry, I'm not the machine you thought I was.

I need a complete overhaul of my daily routine. Ideally, a much more efficient morning routine. One word is the reason... diabeetus. I'm going to be 40 years old this year, and I'm already showing early symptoms. It's scary. So I need to turn this ship around. To a healthier and longer life!

Got a new haircut. I like it. Goodbye, long hair.

Weapons was a brilliant film. Although, I could've used more happier with mouths MORE open.

I'm thinking of coming back to streaming. Took a long enough break. But.. I want to try to get a new PC up and running first.

"If it all comes crashing down That's alright with me Guess its time to say goodbye It wasn't meant to be" Envy Of Them All - "Last Call"

Saw the movie, The Audition, last night with my girl. I went in completely blind. No trailer or anything. Didn't even know it was a Takashi Miike film until AFTERWARD. Incredible film. It disturbed me and got under my skin. First time in a while. Loved it and definitely wanna see it again. 😅

Please give my girlfriend positive vibes/thoughts while she goes through surgery today. Its nothing life threatening, but its always scary to see your loved ones go through such measures. I love her with all my heart, mind, and soul. 🥲💞

Call me emotional, but I feel like you can actually FEEL the sting of loss throughout the world. RIP to the Prince Of Darkness, Ozzy Osbourne. He truly made an impact. Listening to all of Black Sabbath and Ozzy for the rest of the day

I'm pretty happy with my latest song creation. What surprises me the most is that it's only under 4 minutes of runtime. Usually, songs created by other bands extend much longer. 8, 10, or sometimes 15 minutes long. My idea was that "time is short." It's all we have left on this miserable planet.

New song is now available on YouTube youtu.be/MLxI6LWNnPM?...

Brand new song from my solo project, lux.xul "Absent" This song will be uploaded to YouTube at a later date. 🔗 to the song in the comments 👇

Yup. Definitely want to see James Gunn's Superman. No questions.

Being in relationships is tough. From time to time, I feel a sense of worthlessness and that my partner can do so much better than me. Feels like I don't deserve anyone.

"When we listen to each other, we all grow. And that's called culture." Beautifully and brilliantly said youtube.com/shorts/w5319...

May you learn to live without fear May you be at peace May your beauty unfold before you Everything's changed Everything's changed But I am home

I feel like I'm going to break. I hate this feeling.

"You're my favorite customer."

Furthermore, TX is proposing a bill to oppose affirming care to transgender adults. Also, segregate transgender adults from facilities. This is not Texas anymore. It is a joke. With spineless, heartless, and mindless cretins running the state. No, I won't just leave Texas. I will fight this.

Texas: "We have decriminalized low-level THC and hemp products (up to 4oz)" Texas now: "All hemp and THC products are banned and you will be fined and possibly jailed for any possession." Fucking backwards ass state LOVES their CRIMINALS that literally do no harm. Fuck this goddamn place.

There's so much I've been thinking about recently.. about the world, the struggles, and other things. Here's a thought: Why can't we leave people in love alone? Why can't they love who they love? There needs to be a lot less hatred and bigotry in the world.

Another brand-new instrumental demo track from my solo project, lux.xul "Stir" m.youtube.com/watch?v=ivXC...

Sup. Got a new instrumental demo track from my solo project, lux.xul .. "Quelled" .. Its instrumental dissonant death/doom with a tinge of black metal. Think Krypts, Portal, Blut Aus Nord. Cheers! youtu.be/AuUC7WUGaME?...

Last new demo track 3 of 3.. "Stir/Bestir" - lux.xul This is the latest creation. Vocals are to be added later. Pretty thrilled with how this one turned out. The title with be either "Stir" or "Bestir" .. Maybe both. Haven't decided yet. Also, best heard on headphones.

Here's new rough demo track 1 of 3 from lux.xul, my solo project. "Crimson Horde" As I said before, these aren't finished, and vocals are to be added. Just want to present a sneak peek into what I have in store. The same goes for the other tracks that I will reveal today. 1/2

A new beginning. Cecilio 3/4 upright double bass I have a lot to learn.. LET'S GO!

I may not drop 1, but 2 new demo tracks from my solo project, lux.xul. They do not have vocals yet. While I am presenting both, they are not officially done yet. I just really want people to hear what I have in store at the time being. Anyways. ITS COMING.

Still holding on.

Me -- Every time, the rare occurence my coworker's friend's dog is dropped off for us to look after for the day.. 100%

Being in a relationship wears me down. I say because of the distance. We hardly get to see each other, except for the weekends. If that even happens. Idk. I feel so hollow, empty, and sad that I can only have short times of intimacy with her. It feels unfair. I just need more time with her.

TONIGHT

I'm officially done with streaming on Twitch. I just don't have the heart to do it anymore. It was a fun run! Lots of funny moments. Met great people. I'll still be in the chat for other people's streams, of course. Thanks to all for giving their time to watch my streams. I see you! Later!

Got 2 new songs I'm working on for lux.xul. Won't be out for a while but I'll tell you; this some of the most crushing and chaotic I've written. Both will have vocals and the song titles are: "Crimson Horde"* "Nightmare Mass" *subject to change Beyond excited to share more of my work!

I'm thinking of retiring from streaming. It's been on my mind for a while. I just want to focus my time and energy on other things. Specifically, music creation and making art.

Here is another demo track from my solo project, lux.xul (I posted this already lol) This one is instrumental. Funeral doom/darkwave. It sounds like a creepy soundtrack to a cosmic horror movie. Check it out.. if you dare. Please Share/Like/RT "Lurker Of The Abyss" youtu.be/Upm7mIGMXU8?...

Spamming this nearly everywhere. This is from my solo project, lux.xul .. its instrumental atmospheric death metal. Check it out.. if you dare.. This demo song is called: "The Escaper" Please Share/Like/RT youtu.be/9Syjjp4Uz_I?...