thinking about 1990 Lexus LS 400...

wish my name was an MD5 hash. very doable to crack but still requires more effort than most people want to put in

swinging from suicidal to "I will take care of my body because being alive is kinda good actually" within 3 weeks is fucked but i'll take it

history of self-destructive behavior

return of the freeway but i brought ms. camera this time

Big sis who comes home drunk late and shows you her PS2 games on emulator and you don't really get it but you love her and she's so so nice and you cling to each other a lot she's so cool

new moon last night

lol

mmmh . freeway. been watching freeway for 45 minute

goin thru breakup. heres my first sona ashe from '22/'23

stray

i think i'm allowed to at least be a little annoyed

perhaps ready to. make more things. and art more different. ziptie

peace on earth

yep yea yuh yur uh huh yea doodle mhm yuip

pretty much never feel like me anymore, whoever that even is (was?)

this really is what it’s like

3 weeks clean, again

there are a lot of things wrong but i dont hate the world only myself maybe

PET

some more self loathing because apparently you can never have enough

cw sh don't even know who i am anymore anyways so

misc doodle whatever

actually been able to draw figures without. hating everything. more art in my future i pray

perhaps i post here a litle bit of photo i posted on tumblr when we had 3 days of fog. as a treat

blahblahblah grrrr growl whatever

ugly feelings, ugly art, ugly mindset, ugly

cw sh posted out of order but oh well

its time