My goal is to get 3-5 pieces ready to perform on stage by the end of this month, as well as drafts of as many noise/dark ambient pieces as I can make to hand over to Meika to play with. Let's see if I can do it!

Shameful confession as a goth - I _just now_ got around to listening to the new Cure album. I am a huge fan of this. Just what I needed this time of the year. I also hung out with Clint (of An Identity), who apparently lives down the street from me. Awesome! […] [Original post on thecave.social]

“What if they made a fucked up hybrid of yuri and yaoi where it’s a girl and a boy 😳” is a funny meme because that sounds at first like a typical heteronormative couple but, per the rules of yuri and yaoi, it’s probably a tomboyish bisexual girl and her gay best friend who’s actually minsexual […]

Merry Winter Solstice ​:black_nails:​

I'm a very ritualistic person in some ways. Might have something to do with my OCD or might just be my personality. But I'm also not a religious person. But it does mean that holidays, some of which religious, are a big part of how I mark the change in seasons. I love to make holiday things like […]

Wild rice (not a rice, but a different, darker grain native to N. America) has such an enchanting aroma. I seldom get it because it's expensive though. At least anywhere I've lived in America, you can get it by itself or as part of mixes where it's mixed with long grain rice. The flavor mixes […]

Everyone seems to hate you. You’re blamed for shit you couldn’t possibly have been responsible for. People make up conspiracies about you and your friends constantly, say the most heinous shit about you with impunity. In many places, someone freaking out so bad they kill you is a legal defense.

My main response when I see goons romanticizing a mythical past of workplaces that are just a huddle of indistinguishable men in suits smoking their cigarettes, no women in sight, is that this person is evil, ignorant and fucking booooring. But I also sincerely feel sorry for people like this […]

> Without your consent, no destiny is determined, the most ingenious solution finds no favour. > To run fast, to slip away, to calm, to pacify are yours, Inanna, > To dart aimlessly, to go too fast, to fall, to get up, to sustain a comrade are yours, Inanna. > To open high road and byroad, safe […]

> I don't want to be in the same class as him > I don't want to be in the same school as him > I don't want to be in the same planet as him > I don't want to be in the same solar system as him > I don't want to be in the same galaxy as him > I don't want to be in the same galactic cluster as him […]

T4C couple costume idea: a witch and a pumpkin 🎃

__and on soft beds delicate you have satisfied desire__

I love history because I love humans, and like history is full of evil, people often frustrate me with just how bad or how complicated they are. Knowing history inspires me to carry forward us being the weird, petty talking monkeys we are but with hopefully better morals that will free us to […]

One practical difference between how fedi and bsky work currently, not necessarily reflective of fundamental differences in the protocols, is that curating a good feed from a new account emphasizes additive vs. subtractive curation, respectively. Presently, you tune bsky largely by blocking and […]

I'm scared to get in a time machine because I have a reoccurring nightmare about being mauled by Lystrosauruses who found some of the mean things I've written about them.

[Jeff Foxworthy voice] If you're a gay girl who talks like a gay guy, you might be transgender

"im not gay! im not gay!!", i continue to insist as i slowly shrink and turn into a lesbian

thecave.social has been updated. We also set authorized fetch to on because I think it's widely supported enough that it _shouldn't_ cause issues but let me know if it does. Another thing that I'm seriously considering is putting this into allow list mode, which is actually what I was planning […]

Leftists invented whining about cancel/callout culture and it was a dumb idea from its inception. I have so many opinions that are unpopular on the left but I get away with it because the cancel culture narrative is simply inaccurate. I do see other people not get away with having unpopular […]

I can't ignore the emotional aspect of how the current political moment affects me. It just makes me mad. To the degree I might do things out of anger more than anything else. So many people being so gullible, taking obvious liars at their word as they claw their way to the top, capitulating […]

Here's one really fucked up thing about the global anti-"woke" backlash. Authoritarians around the world have this paranoid idea that African American intellectuals are planting ideas in peoples' heads about wanting equal rights. The thing is, there is a kernel of truth to it. People come from […]

Most people on the left don't care much about these distinctions, though people would absolutely be reacting differently if it was a generic conservative who didn't just demand that Taylor Swift submit to her husband. Many liberals basically think that's what just happened though. Kirk's early […]

I saw Spinal Tap II last night, despite mixed reviews from critics. Glad I did, it was hilarious! It feels more like reunion bonus content for the original than a proper movie in its own right, but that's okay. Of course it's not as good as the original. How could it be? And one new character […]

I just made a followers-only, instance-only post and I realize probably almost no one can actually read it. So consider this an invitation to personal friends of mine who aren't already on the fediverse to join this instance! I'm a little afraid of federating that post because too personal (more […]

I'm not clear on what "poptimism" is but have a vague sense that it's probably an overcorrection of some sort that itself commits the same mistake as what it's correcting for by insisting on a heuristic instead of just liking what you like. Classic talking about entertainment in a hopelessly […]

One way that flat maps distorts our sense of reality is, even if it's not the Mercator projection, it usually makes the polar regions look more spread out than they are. Like obviously circling the globe is a much shorter journey the further you are from the equator. But that means that […]

Derogatory beliefs are so different depending on whether you hate and fear a group of people vs. when you actually know them or are one of them. Like "the transsexual menace hates children, bald eagles and God!" vs. "_Fucking Trans Women_ always canceling on me at the last minute because they're […]

Guns are an insidious presence in American politics. Because the thing about the right wing of mainstream US politics is it is more authoritarian than the left wing. And they have convinced conservative voters that 2a rights are a litmus test for civil liberties writ large. That creeping […]

_reads graphic depiction of a vampire unable to restrain themself from ending yet another life and the existential dread and guilt resulting from that_ wow, this is just like when I eat too much of the garlic bread that I made and realizing that my family won't be able to eat as much garlic […]

To be clear, there no contingency of people who want trans people to wait until 25 to transition. That isn't a position anyone sincerely holds. It's something people who want to ban _all_ transition across the board push for as a step toward their goal. And people who want to ban all transition […]

This morning, I was listening to Christian Death - Only Theatre of Pain (album) for the first time in years, not knowing yet that Dobson had died. I especially was thinking about Rozz's big question mark after "love" in Romeo's Distress, to mock the idea that those racist Christian nationalists […]

In a world of edgelords, be a carelord

If you're a cis man and don't understand why a trans man is a man, I'm not sure you really understand why _you_ are a man either. And similarly, I don't think someone understands trans people if they erase or misunderstand queer or gender-nonconforming trans people. If you're surprised that gay […]

One thing that Ozzy's final concert illustrates is that, when your image is creepy and spooky, age and illness only enhance the aesthetic. It didn't seem sad at all that he was sitting down. It actually made him look _more_ like the prince of darkness than ever before. Yes, it has a lot to do […]

(what I remember and can articulate of a bizarre dream I had that woke my jetlagged ass up at 2:20AM) Someone was playing interesting music for me and emphasized something creepy - that the location it was recorded is too low an elevation for there to be people there. It was music emanating […]

I think many people, maybe most people, have what could be considered _their food_ - things that they kind of need to eat on a semi-regular basis to feel normal. And my pet theory is that when people are in a foreign place, they're more adventurous with enjoying new things once they've convinced […]

Japan gets a lot of tourists yes, and many of those tourists might like Taiwan just as much (it even has its perks compared to Japan!) but as someone who spends most of my time away from the major tourist destinations, I think tourists are missing out on much of Japan! There's so much beautiful […]

Wanting to live in the end times is kind of cowardly since it absolves of you of the burden of building a better future. Some great compelling force will come down from on hight and sort it all out. Since you don't really know what times you face it's more responsible and brave to live as if […]

It seems every year I have to re-learn that I do, indeed, have SAD when the weather gets hot and to not act surprised when my stupid brain acts up.

Political junkies are going to treat Sarah McBride as an expert on how to advance trans rights. There is no reason to do this. She probably has something worth saying about how to succeed in a transphobic field despite bring trans. Until she establishes a history of preventing transphobic […]

Growing up having OCD, I always had this anxiety that I'm as crazy as Brian Wilson, but without his talent. My OCD wasn't as severe as his (and I never got into drugs, thanks hypochondria!) but I was certainly right that I, like most people, don't have that kind of talent. He was a #freebritney […]

I wish I could afford laser so that I could have a chest as smooth as my brain

> Unfortunately, when people choose to remain ignorant about something, it doesn’t necessarily follow that they fail to form opinions about it. If people have an understandable tendency to limit the effort they put into learning about social or public policy issues, they frequently also have a […]

Periodic reminder that this is a small #goth and other dark culture themed fedi instance if that sounds like something you might be interested in!

My thinking is less "why would I read something someone didn't bother to write?" and more "why would I read something someone didn't bother to edit?" If you let your cat step in paint and walk on your canvas and, upon inspection, found the result worthy of publication, then I'll check it out if […]

Happy mother's day to my mom specifically

[racism] Someone called my daughter a "ch*ng ch*ng" dog-eater, called her a J*p when she said she's Japanese. Then he asked her what she is on the white side, and she mentioned German, Italian, etc., so he accused her of being in the mafia and broke spaghetti in front of her. He apparently […]

Another stream-of-consciousness mini-zine I drew out of boredom while subbing

I'm way too familiar with Brandolini's Law 😩

I used to just straight up lie to my friends and get them believing shit that's not true on April Fool's because I'm kind of a piece of shit. But I also revealed that I'm trans as a "prank" one time and my friend said "yeah well, it was pretty believable" so you could say he's always known, lol.