Who the fuck adds someone on Snapchat and then when asked if they did ignores the person who asked and then blocks that person? Fucking assholes is who.

Man they saw me at my worst and dumbest when I went through a stupid tiktok phase and I can never take that shit back kill me now

Once again doordash has fucked me over. That bitch stole my fucking frosty and now I have to wait about a week to get my money back.

According to an etsy psychic I should've gotten closure by now which in hindsight that sentence sounds kind of stupid but damn i wish it were true because holy fucking shot i miss you so goddamn much but part of me feels like you want me dead and gone

Being humbled by having to handwrite every medication I take for both psych reasons and just medical in general rn

I never want to feel like I have to come back

Ope found a big ole lump on my jaw lol gg universe gg

I wonder if you still think about me, I wonder if it's mostly negative, mostly positive or neutral. I know i still think about you from time to time, I'm reminded when I see a specific thing like "oh (person) would like this maybe I should get it for them" before remembering that you hate my guts

I am genuinely surprised that I'm still alive and today is a reminder that I can easily end that streak if I had the guts to do it and like idk man celebrating alone definitely makes me want to at least attempt and see how far I go hahaha haha the illness is definitely mentaling

It my day of borth today I turn...even older now

You ever just and then you and then yeah because you know and yeah okay me too me too

I've burned all of my bridges, and now that I need someone to talk to, there's nobody there, and it's my fault, and I legitimately don't want to be on this planet anymore.

"We cannot confirm nor deny" that's all I fucking heard from where she was supposed to be at JUST FUCKING TELL ME IF SHES SAFE OH MY FUCKING GOD

She still hasn't called or showed up anywhere i don't know what to do I've called every hospital I've tried to do a wellness check I've tried filing a missing person's report but the police won't help us because they think she's at a medical facility when she was at a homeless shelter and

She's missing again she's fucking missing AGAIN WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK HOW DO YOU LOSE A WHOLE ASS ADULT?

Checking in at an appointment and suddenly forgetting what you're supposed to sound like so you just gesture vaguely

I'm dying, lmao 🤣 😂 😆

Update on the doordash debacle: my sister kept getting notifications and even had confirmation that they hand delivered it but the kicker is: the pizza was never on the way...it was just chilling at the restaurant and there was never a dasher assigned to it. So we just got wing stop for zero

Doordash is idiotic and i hate every fucking driver that I've ever had to deal with also today is my nieces birthday so she ordered pizza apparently this place uses doordash and anyway time for pizza comes and goes and there's no pizza, the thing is there's wing stop on the porch for some reason and

THE FUCKING HELICOPTER KEEPS COMIMG BACK IM GONNA START FUCKING BARKING OUT OF PURE IRRITATION

4th night in a row that a mili chop flew way too fucking low over us wtf is going the fuck on

Yknow i was scrolling through here one day during my "hiatus" and saw a woman post a selfie right? Cool cool cool very beautiful hope she has a great day HOWEVER the fucking thirsty ass comments only talked about her dick as if she were just some piece of meat and I fucking hate y'all for it*general

The strength I have for fasting is thin and weak because, like, I was offered a monster and some honey mustard flavored pretzels and caved so damn fast. I need to lock the fuck in y'all I can't just cave because yommy snacks! But I should also forgive myself, right? Starting now, I'll try again.

When you've been practicing accents due to the dream of one day being a voice actor and suddenly forgetting what your actual accent is so you just don't talk until you finally remember what the hell it is

Why the FUCK am I always so tiny and soft spoken when making appointments but after that and i hang up or leave the place I'm mostly "normal" again? FOR WHY?!

There's been an influx in military copters flying pretty low around here and it's making us anxious

Okay NOW it's day 22 a song that moves you forward open.spotify.com/track/2ZTIw0...

Day 22 a song you like with a person's name in it open.spotify.com/track/5PUawW...

Day 20 a song that has many meanings to you (yes it's more jhariah open.spotify.com/track/1fXMYW...

Day 19 a song that makes you think about life open.spotify.com/track/3B8MFP... I'm kinda flying by the seat of my pants at this point

Day 18 a song from the year you were born open.spotify.com/track/3DUcaE...

Also hi I'm back from my damn near month long hiatus but ngl I'm probably gonna take another break sometime soon I plan to fast and kind of break away from social media once again in a few days or possibly sooner idunno yet wish me luck! Or don't. I'm not your dad or mom or parent thingy.

I can't play dmc for trauma reasons and I've noticed that some fans manage to dredge up things that remind me of said trauma that I never managed to get over nor do I ever see myself getting over it anytime soon which sucks because the game looks so fun but nooooo trauma brain won't let me enjoy it

Goddamn motherfucking etsy fortune telling ass bitches

Sharks are so majestic

Maybe I should finally read golden kamuy...I've been pushing it off for a while and it genuinely looks interesting but I ended up not being able to find a way to read it and lost motivation to even try to find a way. Is it worth it? I don't know anymore. Fucking hell why does this make me feel so-

She said, "Stop punching my dad's dick" - Tom cardy Okay, bye again, I'll be back for real in April, probably i just need some time to think is all. I may end up back in the psych ward so I'm not entirely sure when I'll be back but I promise I'll be back.

Fire force just triggered the shit out of me and I don't want to explain further than that goodbye for like several weeks possibly I need a moment or two...hundred.

Karma isn't some revenge fantasy for you to only acknowledge when only bad things happen there's such a thing as good karma as well and doesn't wishing bad karma on someone just because you dont like them just add bad karma to you as well?

Huh, blue exorcist is actually... kinda good. Neat.

All my irl friends abandoned me forever ago and it hurts that one keeps sneaking in only to leave again and it hurts that I feel like I'm truly alone and I just want to talk to people but I'm scared they'll leave again like everyone else has I'm so scared to be abandoned

The fucking toxic hot girl mentality needs to stop, grow the fuck up and stop treating everything like your highschool days.

Two nose bleeds in one day ugh I'm getting a fucking migraine from it too

No, i don't believe you NEED a boo (Although it would be nice, i guess) I'm more focused on getting a better job so I can pay for schooling and become a professional blood stealer (phlebotomist) it wasn't and still isn't my priority so the next time I hear someone say i NEED a partner? I'm suing.

AUGHGHG FASTING IS SUCH A PAIN SOMETIMES I GOTTA START ALL OVER AGAIN BECAUSE I HAD A MOMENT OF WEAKNESS AUGHGHG FORGIVE MEEEEE

Im tired of always being a background character that's barely fucking considered as anything I'm always optional and never a fucking priority

I'm just a nuisance People must find me exhausting to deal with I'm useless I'm worthless How could anyone ever like me? They don't They don't They don't like me They don't like me I am nothing I will always be a nobody

Why can't I just shut up when I need to when I'm supposed to just shut up

Its funny, I dissociated while eating grapes last night and didn't notice the power go out until I looked up from my grapes when I heard my fan slow to a stop only to see a sweeping motion of the lights going out and like I thought I had fallen asleep and was dreaming so naturally I started crying