Old enough to understand: That I matter. I am lovable. I am significant. I am safe. I am phenomenal. I’m Sorry for my ups and downs, y’all, I am getting better. I have a heart that I’m working tirelessly to heal, hope you’ll stay with me for the ride.🤍✨ m.youtube.com/watch?v=QhZ5...

This what my hero looks like: m.youtube.com/shorts/iwTcK...

There’s moments when I’m like, “I’ve done a LOT of talking”, but not enough showing.

This is fucking awful. No wonder there’s a “male loneliness epidemic”. Glad to know it’s systemic, not personal. m.youtube.com/watch?v=xgeL...

I am officially cracked open. m.youtube.com/watch?v=PBgA...

I’m done atoning for my parents’ conditional love. I live only for me.

m.youtube.com/shorts/D2diZ... I’m finally home.

m.youtube.com/shorts/rAew9... Right on time.

I thought this was me “retreating into myself”, but no, it’s different. Here’s what my life means to me: I will make an example of what happens when a human finds out just how far he can take himself, for the pleasure of feeling himself—the life—fully.

I’m walking into my own heart like an open gate. I feel grounded again. Freedom is mine.

It’s the moment when silence no longer crushes me, and I find out I can scream and be heard by my own ears.

It’s about finding value in myself and the things I do, for my own sake. This is the start of my freedom.

I will never stop. If I become a silent sage who tends his own garden, then so be it. I am I.

Disappearing into myself. But the will to survive still burns inside of me. I WILL live the joy I’ve always wanted.

How do you reach peace? There's only one way and that's to help another. that's why narcissists will never know peace

This hits really close to home. m.youtube.com/shorts/PCtpY...

I REALLY like Happy Chaos, and I LOVE his song “Drift”, it’s one of my all time favs. I improvised around Drift a lot today, and I think this one really captures how I feel about one of my favorite characters of all time. #guiltygear #calpico

The iridescent, colorful bands in this polished piece of rainbow obsidian are caused by layers of tiny crystal inclusions of hedenbergite and feldspar. 😊

This song is my Batman arc. m.youtube.com/watch?v=2Cm2...

I do really overthink things. Maybe that’s because I couldn’t exist without some assessment on my every sentence, on my every thought. I think that’s why improv fuels me, and why my mutuals like it. It’s me, relatively unfiltered. I’m gonna take it further until it’s JUST like me.

I’m genuinely proud of myself for this one lol

Putting this stake in the ground right now: If you come to my page, expect it to be messy. I process pain, shortcomings, heartaches how I process them. You’ll like it or don’t. I don’t care. I’m on fire for my fucking life, and I’ll post on it however I fucking see fit. Thank y’all🤍✨

How I can go from angry, to falling asleep, to waking up somewhat angry to being at peace (before going back to sleep). Thanks Hiromi. m.youtube.com/watch?v=XGjy...

I’ve hardly ever brought ALL my emotions into my music, one of them being anger. Fire that only singes is not fire.

First time hearing about this, but it looks like the kind of crazy, outside of the box shit I need. m.youtube.com/shorts/2P1pN...

Alright, today, I continue completing my “Completion Build”. Today’s menu consists of: Wim Hof Breathing Zhan Zhuang Ba Duan Jin Dinner Shower Improv Qigong acupressure Sonic Racing Crossworlds Wish me luck!!🤍✨

Yikes. Okay, so: First, no Bluesky unless I’ve already eaten, slept, and improvised. Second, spoke with someone at my job, a lady told me about why having conversations with women/female-presenting folks is impossible without them declaring their current relationships and/or sexuality.

I ended up not playing the piano today. But that’s okay, I got something far sweeter than even that: my peace of mind. I really never thought I’d get this far. I’m so close to that finish line I can almost taste it.

What I like about BDSM as a submissive is that I’d belong to the other person, and I’d have no power to stop them from letting out all of their deepest anger, their darkest fantasies, their hang-ups, their wants. It’s a different flavor of intimacy, you feel me?

Working at the job today as though I were improvising at the piano just made me the happiest version of myself. To me, improv is now life.

I don’t like this, at all.

m.youtube.com/watch?v=mPl6... This song is still my SHIT:)

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There’s something erotic about being on your own timing. Don’t worry, it’ll come naturally:)

“The perfect plan never beats an improvised one. Do not fear mistakes. There are none.” — Happy Miles Chaos Davis (I think)

One final thing, fore I go to sleep: I kid you not, there’s something on the inside of me, like a phantom limb but my entire body, who plays with absolute freedom and boundless joy. I feel him every time I watch a pianist exceed my skill. And someday, I’ll meet that man, thanks to you.

The tired is starting to hit me. I’m getting ready to go to sleep. I hope y’all have a great day or night wherever you’re at. I’m excited about that piano too! G’night Bluesky, and all my buddies out there🤍✨

music note girl

Today was a great day. Made love to Sweet Ivory (my keyboard), and my interactions with people at the job were WAY more natural and spontaneous. All part of “The Build”. Stoked💯✨✨

When I was recording this, I was like, “Damn, I’m really feeling it rn!!” Then, I listened to it right after and was like, “Ugh, do I actually sound like that😟??” Then, I made a bowl of cereal and listened to it again and was like, “…Aight now😎”

It’s time for me to head to sleep. Thank all of you again for supporting me, I’m more motivated than ever to be consistent with these hands. G’night Bluesky, and all who inhabit it!!🤍✨

The more I consider it, the more I realize: “This might just be my ‘Improv Arc’.” Sharing this side of me is not only fun, but incredibly affirming. Lol people always comment on my voice being a “radio voice”, but this is the first time I’ve had people excited to just hear me play like I’m a kid.

That’s right, I’m uploading TWO today!!🔥🔥 Last year, I made this concept remix of “Digital Dimension”, my favorite track from the entire Sonic Riders series. I was going to finish a full track of it to celebrate the upcoming Sonic Racing Crossworlds, but I got caught up with personal stuff.

I am so serious when I say that y’all have helped me out, truly. I’m feeling even more emboldened at the keyboard because of all of you. I can finally just… be.🤍✨ This one has a little musical quote in it (it’s from one of my favorite songs of all time!) can you guess the title?😶

Siiigh, childhood. I miss Ed Edd n Eddy lol m.youtube.com/shorts/AGOPw...

If you know any trans today is a good day to contact them to see how they're doing. Let them know you will help them if you can and wait for an answer you may save a life. thank you and please repost