Every girl I ever dated thought I needed saving

Two girls today bought amongst other things a set of handcuffs. I’m like you go girls then realized sexy games is probably the best scenario

I dreamt last night that I was walking around in India at first being completely aware that I was the only white person there. After awhile I realized tho that everyone was ignoring me just going about their day like I wasn’t there. A parable

Exhausted this morning. Been laying awake since 1, overwhelmed with what’s going on emotionally.

Feels like falling into a whirlpool and being sucked in

Got a little headache today, nothing major, probably stressing out a bit. This morning was workday 1 of 8 straight. The manager is out but then I’m off for 5. Think I’ll go somewhere. Not sure where yet, but somewhere quiet where I can be alone that’s good for contemplation.

Couldn’t describe any better how I’m feeling right now

@sn0m0nster.bsky.social Happy birthday old man!🎉🎂

I typed in “mono Monday” to see what I missed and holy shit it’s scary out there

Six months or so ago I got really sick and what’s been the most difficult thing to come out of that is not the actual sickness but the way it has affected my friendships. Before I got sick I could come on here and rely on the same 6 friends no matter what. Now it’s down to two?

If I like you two possible things will happen. Either we’ll talk all day like we’ve known each other for years, or my mouth will go all dry, I’ll get all tongue-tied and won’t be able to say a fucking word.

Huh. Who told them?

Emma just called me and apologized.

Woke up at 3 this morning and sleepily fell into bed beside Lily. She’s impossibly the best and worst snuggler of all time. Like she’s toasty and holds my hand which is so comforting, but she’s also all “stop breathing on me” or “hey that’s my boob”.

Haha it’s storming. I’ll get some sleep tonight.

It’s too hot tonight so I’ve kicked the covers off my bed but that has put kitty in a mood coz she’ll only lay on my lap if it has a blanket on it

Lily is so caught up in the World Cup that she wants to keep watching “soccer” after it’s over. I said that was fine as long as England don’t win it. We’re already watching it in Spanish so I don’t have to listen to them go on about them all day. Omg they’d be insufferable if they won it.

Umm. Still haven’t had a headache in over a month. Just saying

Just finished a long call with a friend who advised me to start using my sensuality but in a positive way, being in control, as opposed to what my friend Tyler calls my “little girl bottom energy”. I’ve never blushed so hard when not face to face with the someone causing it.

I’m getting very upset with my coffee coz it’s getting too cold too fast

Today’s always my favorite work day where I get to tell people they can’t buy alcohol on a Sunday.

Last night while I was unable to sleep thru the fireworks and bass, I started going thru my photos, specifically deleting all the ones with my ex. It’s only six months since I did that with my previous ex. Me not being able to hold onto a relationship for any longer than that seems about right.

I guess it did rain last night as everything stopped abruptly and then it was 4.45am

I hope it rains soon

Tonight outside is a mix of fireworks and bass driven metal.

Co-Star totally not getting with the program

My ex texted and asked if we could do lunch some time. Me: no! Her: we can’t act like adults? Me: nah I’m gonna be a bitch about it

Today at work was the perfect example of how people love “America” but not actual Americans.

I was playing Fallout 4 and killing all the bandits but pacifying all the girl bandits to make my lesbian bandit harem, but somehow there’s a mod in there that made all the bandits girls. Confused? Me too! So now what?

When I was a kid…more of a kid…I used to think all the girls on hair dye boxes were pretty. It was one of those fundamental things that made me realize I might like girls. So why are they so meh nowadays? I mean most of them are kinda mature which is totally my Kryptonite but they are so so mid.

The fireworks went on past midnight last night. I didn’t realize Taylor Swift was so popular in the Ozarks.

Woke up with one of those hangovers you get when you don’t drink, smoke etc and are left wondering how tf you feel like that?

When I’m scrolling thru other peoples timelines, the amount of times I have to google what they’re talking about is more than zero.

You can’t live on vibes but you can love on them

Sometimes I’m that bitch that when fireworks are set off before the fourth I’ll post elsewhere about what they might be celebrating. Telling Webster County Trumpy hicks they’re celebrating Taylor Swifts wedding…

I can’t remember the last time I had a headache and I’m at the point where I wonder if I’m better.

I never nap so when I actually took a nap today I kept waking up out of guilt

So, so much for falling out of love with love. This girl came in the store and her whole punk vibe was gorgeous. Short hair bleach blonde mixed with pink, piercings all over her face but she was still exceptionally pretty. We talked or she talked and I stumbled over my words…

It disturbs me that so many of my friends do soft drugs. Like, what does unreality look like?

News travels fast. A previous ex (who beat me) I guess found out about my recent breakup and asked if I was ok.

Mindless thoughts yesterday while stocking the pet aisle: beef flavored dog food? How do they know? Does someone test it?

Been up since 4.45 and am scrolling around here stalking profiles and 99% of the time I feel like I’m missing context.

On my gravestone: Sophie didn’t die. She just deleted.

I got a promotion at work, which is funny coz the only reason I took the job was coz my gf was working all day and I was getting bored being on my own. Now that we’re broken up, I was thinking of quitting but I dunno.

Lily just asked me if it’s too late to put the cat back in the closet 🤣

My mood is Leprous

Haven’t seen the pretty boss lady in a while. Could do with some of her attention.

The cat got herself accidentally shut in a closet last night. Was the best sleep I’ve had in weeks

The new Minute Maid ad is psychological torture.

Falling out of love with love had never been on my radar. But there you go.