did NOT get the job i applied for on tuesday, didnt even get an interview 🫠 still holding out hope for the movie theater 🤞

chat i applied for a job on tuesday and another job on friday and i havent heard back from either yet... i REALLY want the one i applied for on friday it's at my local movie theater so PLEASE send all your manifestation energies to me cause i want an interview

me: suffering the worst back to school fomo because i miss my college and my film classes and my professor and everyone i know gets to go back to college except me my fucking email: DONT FORGET TO ORDER YOUR TEXTBOOKS!

how long do you have to be in therapy for before you can tell whether or not its working, cause ive been in therapy since the first week of june and i feel the exact same, if not slightly worse than i did before i started therapy. like when am i supposed to know 😭

the white house being red gyms makes so much sense. hashtag team blue for life!

we're going on a weekend trip that my dad planned tomorrow and he doesnt even know any of the details i am STRESSED

the fic that i put 7 months of time, effort, research, energy, passion, love, blood, sweat, and tears into is flopping, happy tuesday everyone 😍😍😍

STEVETONIES! at last, i have finished the holdovers au fic i promised 7 months ago! read it and weep! nick fury is stuck supervising steve and tony, who hate each other and him, over christmas break. and maria hill is there too! #stevetony archiveofourown.org/works/67257874

ITS FINISHED. THE HOLDOVERS STEVETONY AU IS FINISHED. i just have a couple of adjustments to make and then its uploading to ao3 time im not proofreading it at all tho cause i dont have the patience to read all 102 pages. i am tired and i dont really care.

AAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGHHHHHHHH

trying to break into a new fandom on twt. its not going well!

HELLO, OLD FRIEND (STEVETONY HOLDOVERS AU) 😍😍😍

is this a common problem or am i just weird 😭

ao3 down guess this mean i have to read an actual fucking book now

piano man really is the perfect song isnt it

the spirit of the dead poets society had entered my soul. i cannot stop writing shitty poems. ill be sitting here normal and look at something and start poem-ing about it. it started thundering, boom. new poem. watched a nascar race, boom. new poem. i saw a caterpillar yesterday, boom. new poem.

im so delusional that i will find a way to make every single one of my ships fit olivia rodrigo's songs

im so stupid i went out again without putting on sunscreen 💀

im never going outside again (i got sunburn because i was outside for 6 hours and didnt put on any sunscreen) (its my own fault) (but its actually the SUN'S FAULT!!!!!)

why is it spelled caterpillar and not catapillar

i love when i see that my watch needs to be charged but then i forget to charge it and then im shocked when it dies as if i literally didnt know it was going to die

deleted my priv story on snap, permanently logged out of my finsta, and stopped posting as much on twitter... this app is now my diary ❤️

i always know when i post a banger on my ig story when someone i havent spoken to in years and only followed because we shared a single class likes my story

my mom started reading me some animal fun facts she found on instagram so i started reading some random ones back and she goes "why do you just have these on your phone" so i said "theyre in my notes app", "why do you have these in your notes app", "i got bored once like 6 years ago"

i love punctuating all my sentences with emojis 🙂‍↕️

BOOOOOOOOOO 🍅 🍅 🍅 🍅 🍅 🍅 🍅 🍅 🍅 🍅 🍅 🍅 🍅 🍅 🍅 🍅 🍅 🍅 🍅 🍅 🍅 🍅 🍅 🍅

walked into the grocery store and theyre blasting god bless the usa... bro READ THE ROOM.

nothing like ending a really good week by crying in your bed because youre terrified of the president and what hes just started. i hate him so fucking much.

i did it 😎

this is EVERY morning for me not just thursdays LMAO

me: i feel so normal about dead poets society my saved posts on instagram:

the way i have no concept of time is hilarious. im reading a fic that takes place in 1959 and it mentioned nyu and i was like "theres no way nyu existed in the 50s" ...nyu was founded in the 1830s.

me when im obsessed with this movie as a whole and also anderperry

fuck it im going the movies every day for the rest of the week just to avoid social media so i get a 2 hour break from the latest national and global news cause its scary and depressing and i hate reality!!! escapism here i come

not even 2 minutes later i just bought 20 stickers from redbubble 💀 (some are for my water bottle cause i also was stressed about getting stickers for that)

i got a new laptop in october but i havent gotten any stickers for it yet because im SO STRESSED ABOUT IT and also theyre expensive lmao

instagram is out to get me today huh 🥲🥲🥲

im in such a weird place rn where i dont have the energy or capability to actually carry on a full conversation with someone but i can post competently post random thoughts knowing no one will reply to them

TWO DADS AND THEIR SON

since i couldnt go to pokemon yesterday cause my anxiety was so bad, my brother got me this quaxly plushie cause i was sad i missed out on going and he knows i like quaxly, but then i was like omg i dont want him to be lonely on my bed so i ordered a piplup plushie so they can be pokemon friends :D

STOPPP IM SO SAD :(((

update i was gonna go because my dad said he'd pick me up whenever i want to leave but i literally threw up this morning so now i actually cant go 😔 anxiety wins this round

i actually hate having anxiety i was so excited to go to pokemon go fest tomorrow but now i literally dont wanna go at all cause im freaking out about bathrooms and food and the heat and having to stay later than i thought UGH

buying a jellycat is the best decision ive made all year

keeping my twt account going feels like such a chore nowadays between actually having to post but having 0 content to post and also seeing people in the fandom not thinking critically before posting, like running my twt is exhausting 😭

guys i had my first therapy appointment today and i felt the urge to tell someone but i actually have no friends so heres me posting to the void

giiiirl i cant wait to start therapy next week i got so much shit i need to talk about right now because the beginning of summer sucks major ass

i hate having literally no friends cause i wanna go to pride on sunday but im not comfortable going anywhere alone because anxiety and also i dont drive on the highway 💀

started writing again (yes this is still my holdovers au that i promised 3 months ago)