Loser4loser

M4m? W4w? Nb4nb? A4a? Nah i like me some L4L

4:23 in the morning, gotta read homestuck. 4:50 in the morning, gotta read homestuck 5:00 in the morning, gotta read homestuck. 5:40 in the morning, gotta read homestuck. 6:00 in the morning, gotta read homestuck. 6:30 in the morning, gotta read homestuck. 7:30 in the morning, gotta read homestuck.

Im gay Randal ivory for pride month uou dont notice any change in my pfp but I’m gay now

Book theory bsd—Dazai osamu creates a self insert fanfiction of everyone he knows

New bedroom

Me Cole and rumi went to movies

Whoa

theres fucking more.

this the type of Gamzee cosplay I want.

Me an rumi and Cole going to movie all together… I’ll take photos ok..?

Every day is spent obsessing over dumb shit and trying to get better at everything and slicing myself open when I fail

I suck at everything social so I simply need to get good at everything else. Every other hobby, I need to be the best. That way Im relevant, right? Otherwise I would just be some person in the background.

Im just rambling every train of tgought about this topic. You know, mu face is completely fucking blank right now. Im as calm as an unconscious drug addict. I have no reason to be this au but I just am because I’m so incompetent at being normal AND KM SELF LOATHIBG AGAIN GREAT.

I hate humans but I don’t hate people.

God it’s like there’s a million other mes in here contradicting each other. My morals and ways of going about change drastically yet all stay in the same region. I argue with myself because I want to matter for no fucking reason.

I feel so many things but I also don’t. It never shows up on my face, never shows up in my movements, never shows up in any physical way. My chest Doesnt even get that loathsome feeling when I’m sad anymore. It’s like only my brain feels.

This all means nothing

it’s my own fucking fault I feel this way nobody else forced me to feel this way i dont get to blame others only myself is to blame STOP FUCKING SELF LOATHING AND LOCK IN YOU FUCKING IDIOT SHUR UP ok im good now I locked in and realized my emotions are mine alone and can simply change to be better.

I am selfish and perverted I am obsessive and deranged Ive existed for many years So very little has changed

No this is all subconsciously performative i don’t feel sad Infact Im just fucking convincing myself Im sad just to self loathe im not actually in pain or suffering im just a fucking loser who needs to do better things than cry about shit i cant fix

I know self harm isnt good but it snaps me out of the shitty shit lord whatever the fuck theyre called depressive episodes. I’ll get a better coping mechanism later.

Even if you just need to vent a shit ton, do what you need to do to lock the fuck in!

Stop whining and FIX IT!

There’s no use in complaining and bitching!

Get your mind in shape you self loathing IDIOT

I am such a LOSER

backed away from my computer like it was gonna explode when i opened up [S] ACT 6 ACT 4 and immediately saw END OF ACT 6 ACT 4

they're so cunty with it

get it dave strider

HOLY WALLPAPER MATERIAL thank you andrew hussie for creating this for us

The whole flamingo private girlfriend thing is so stupid and people are being so fucking mean to her 😭😭 she’s literally gorgeous and people shouldn’t even have known about her since it wasn’t what they wanted Genuinely awful

WIP

decided to draw kyomoto on my computer

Goonmaster rank

holy fuck im so asocial

i can barely bring myself to interact with anyone

☆ copy this to your profile and let your mutuals tell you their first impression of you :o)

brobot my love

when i open up one of the '(char) has autism and (other char) takes care of him!' fanfics and (char #1) is literally just age regressing(nothing wrong with that) and everyone is treating him like a baby and it has nothing to do with autism other than sometimes stating that hes stimming and hyperfixa

Like, repost, and follow to be moots!!! Or not idc this is interaction bait

for instance: im currently aradia on discord, s0 i w0uld type like this and use n0 punctuati0n and frequent the 0_0 em0tic0n. And s0metimes add ribbit t0 the end 0f my sentences in reference t0 her sprite

whenever my discord profile is a certain character i have a habit of (mostly) subconsiously talking like them and (if a homestuck char) using their emoticons or tying quirks SOMETIMES cuz i think its fun

just. found a fanfic about lil hal/dirk auto responder torturing and impregnating dirk in order to create a new body for himself to be in. isnt. isnt lil hal canonically dirks 13 year old consiousness. ok so die

HELLLLLP ME TODAY I SHOWED IT TO THE GUY WHO WAS PAYING ME AND HE SENT IT TO HIS HB. HIS HB ALREADY THINKS IM WEIRD😭😭 HE SAID THAT I WROTE IT💔

2024 violent j and shaggy 2 dope for president /ref

Guys if u tried to add my discord then it’s osamu1414. Not osamu1414 add a period osamu1414 is my old acc that I lost

no more PE so i am going to be reading a whole lot of homestuck

why is Natasha romanoff acting like the stereotypical Cassandra Cain in fanfics

FUCK its SO MISCHARACTERIZED but I cant stop reading