mentally ill ppl is anyone else missing nails from picking/nail biting in my family its been pretty normal to have like no nails and i havent had a nail for like 3 yrs and been fine with it, everyone seems to react strongly when they see it so im curious if any1 else is also missing nails

boss said when im mad i radiate rage and i had to stop myself from twirling my hair n goin RLYYYY 💞

guess who's off to buy drugs AND alcohol AGAIN

just found out my gw is 111lbs time to wrestle with the fact i probably cant maintain my job at that weight but my job is whats making me lose weight this fast AAA

god i hate apologizing and admitting im wrong it feels like doing a line of powdered glass

there r two wolves inside me 1 is brooding and edgy 1 is silly and happy 1 is a representation of all my worst fears 1 is who i used to be 1 is my childhood encapsulated i have miscalculated the amount of wolves inside me and should seek psychiatric or veterinary assistance

was itching my shoulder last night n realized my blades stick out way more than the beginning of this yr im fucking Thriving

i got me a bag of mixed veggies that ur supposed to steam to just eat raw i love raw vegetables sm ugghdhdhs

somebody smarter than me confirm that switching from primarily cereal, oatmeal, sandwiches, and various noodle dishes to olives, varying kinds of fish, eggs, and grilled chicken is probably better for my metabolism and general nutrients right

the correct answer is the inevitable water weight i receive but i think my change in diet might b helping with that somehow. realized i was literally only eating carbs gluten and Oats. not horrible but basically like eating 7 sponges i think

jekyll drinking tn what will he regret

i actually dont know if im feminine my appearance is like. too masculine to be a cis woman too feminine to be a cis man not quite androgynous enough to be neither. its a fascinating life

choosing to believe my coworkers always assume im going to need help doing any kind of heavy lifting bc im so dainty and tiny not bc im feminine and theyre lowk sexist

unpinning when goal is reached 161/58 ➡️ 161/50

me when i walk

i lied im also having a few faux lobster sticks i bought 2 packs cuz they were on sale and theyre only 90 cals for 3 not super filling but satisfies a craving that wldve otherwise been stuffed with chips or something gross

i m having a zero monster a tin of smoked mussels and a handful of olives for breakfast 2day

how i wish i could just be a normal guy my age who like eats hot chips and mcdonalds and is still in a deficit fuck being short

'my town' its a village between an acacia and plains biome like i literally always end up at and end up turning into a kingdom i tend to maybe i should just play cotl

i want to play mc but i hate putting in the effort it takes to play videogames. i never rly feel fulfilled and always end up just tilling my crops breeding my animals and speaking to a few villagers in my town before logging off

i am going to get. So athletically skinny.

shouldve just bought the fuckign yogurt cup bro fuck me for trying to get nutrients in me point taken

nah thats a bit what

$8 of tofu and chicken textured Wither flavoured edition

food i bought has fucking cilantro im actually so pissed rn

i hate and love when ppl say they want my body type bc on one hand no you do not this is malnourishment held together by vitamins and electrolytes but also THANNNXXX 💋💋💋💋💋💋💋

my ideal partner is genuinely a computer i can also stick my hand's into and get a reaction and GodDamnit i WillGet It by my 50s

admitting im on the ace spectrum is one of the most irritating things ive come to acknowledge because No. because I find worldly unattainable features and specific tropes relating to either gender arousing i Obviously Cannot at all be on the SPECTRUM of asexuality thats like. dumb ???????????

the korean facemasks we sell at my work are all on for like .24 cents im acc shitting myself rn im so happy

the pants i just bought are loose on me someone remind me this is probably water weight and that im not miraculously at my gw in 3 days

i love getting coworkers in shit for things ik we're not allowed to do fuck yall we both going down

genuinely only insecure abt my naked ears bc my ex's partner at the time would point out how gross she thought they were anytime i had my jewelry out so im just convinced theyre disgusting and vile

at work straight up raw holing it

guys i forgot to put my gauges back in they needed it but throw stones at me anyway

i am ignoring how much money i spent today i do not see it

i got a rilakkuma hamper, a generic 'anime' stickerbook that im moreso excited to look thru for inspo and also a cym cube. hold me accountable for not letting this become a habit thrifting Only Forevr

plus its moreso buying bulk versions of ppls obviously stolen art / replacing entire wardrobes / making it a centerpiece of personality that piss me off when it comes to online shopping,, i feel like getting 2 or 3 things that are going to be shipped and sold anyways is like. Kind of Okay.

im actually so excited abt my purchases i DEEPLY. DEEPLY. hate anything personally when it comes to shipping internationally when unnecessary bc i find other ppl dumping loads of them doing the same thing HOWEVER. i cant kayemess if i have a package coming so itll get me thru the week

its facemask timeeee

had a horrible day, liquid dinner and -$20 on sketchy online websites for the sake of cute things because ive see too many other ppl like me doing it and i have fallen

whatever slicey dicey time finally

too embarrassed to reach out to anyone i know too scared to make new connections all i want to do is go crying back to him but he'd just be disappointed that nothings changed

me when every waking hour is spent desperately reaching out to ppl and having to reply like ahaha yeah thats ok when i havent had meaningful human connection in like 2 weeks

like i want to play house and go buy groceries and get gas and whatever but thinking about Having to makes my head spin

i wish i could move out with no repercussions or just be able to buy a Stable Husband Unit instead of like. making emotional and meaningful connections and them not having underlying motives. or be alone and have the trust that ill not just hole myself up and wither into literally nothing

i just remembered that bc i havent had functioning pockets until now ive been leaving my phone in the backroom and therefore havent been counting my steps

forgot to post yesterdays steps

i only ever like my legs sitting down but its so dishonest, if i was actually skinny id have a thigh gap while standing

anyway work time see u guyz in 5 hrs someone remind me to show off my steps ;P

i keep dreaming abt sh but never actually doing anything bc its so boring now i like the feeling of burning but they leave such ugly inconsistent scars smfh - man who needs to be admitted immediately for just like everything