you don't even need to go into shock, just getting really close to anaphylaxis will still fuck you up right proper gyughff that was rough 😩😮‍💨 on the bright side, my small workshop is almost set up and in a usable state to finish my work .. just gotta make it so it doesn't attack my immune system

burning terror world sure makes good personal news hard to enjoy so does unyielding chronic pain and yet i persist?? ?????????????

haven't been posting much of my work lately, whoops been dealing with a lot- my meds made me ideate/very angry so now im unmedicated for a bit, my wife and i became homeowners yesterday so we're moving, etc but heres three proto- tournament prizes im making on commission in the middle of all this

guess who forgot not to hold the piece down while they were drilling it again 🙃 my finger bones are burning.. it feels like ive been given a continuous damage status effect oof (-2hp) ourgh (-1hp) ouch (-1hp) yippie!! (kissed by wife, +50 hp) uufgh (-2hp)

im a metalworker 🥲

me secretly saving my friends birthday clown party by establishing cryptid dominance over an intruding shadow man who wants to fuck with us

tight schedules and medication complications do not mix 😵‍💫 got a new sleep med yesterday, doxepin, and today i can barely keep a train of thought going for longer than a minute and a half not to mention the spinning woof 😮‍💨 i got too much to do, too many things i need to really think about

man, making a tiny epée blade is fucking tough fourth times the charm? forging it super chunky and mostly doing removal this time

"Mothers do not sell their milk to their babies" If I've ever offered you something in the past couple of years, know that i was thinking about these words

Excavator compaction hammer.

happy birthday to all my fellow virgos 🥳 im 34 now! 🍰

i dont wanna see any lukewarm, normalizing, conversational, debate-bait or hierarchy-validating takes on the start of the american aristocracy's decision to start making the public killing of venezuelans part of their death cult propaganda

my comic i drew for myself

does anyone else with chronic intense GI problems sometimes just give in and do a minimal flushing diet and/or do a senna/etc purge in preparation for an event where you just really really really dont want to have to deal with the constant pain and other symptoms? im about to, wish me luck 😩🤞🏽

who up combating the specter of feeling overbearingly and fundamentally judged, rejected and out-of-place regardless of social context fuck that specter up, sis 😾🤜🏽👻🚫

putting a warm one back together with the girls

someone rip out my guts and replace them with some kind of combo of fuel chute, fire pot and ash catcher system, please i no longer wish to rely on constantly painful, scar-filled meat to absorb nutrients let me run on charcoal it'll work, it'll totally work c'mon man

you guys think these cat ears and tail will really make me better at forging?? well i guess ill find out

Today marks the 40th anniversary of the 7th episode of Dirty Pair, "愛こそすべて命賭けます逃避行!!" or "Love Is Everything, Betting Their Lives on Elopement", one of the most overtly trans-positive episodes of anime of its era. This was the future they predicted for us in 1985. We can still get there.

why can't i just bang out the metal man.. all these fuckin numbers 🫠

listening to the OG OFF soundtrack while i work a lot lately and uh.. shout out to all my fellow misophonia sufferers out there, fr and a secondary shout out to everyone who can't stand the sound of whispering voices specifically iykyk and if y do k then i hope yer meds are working out for you

not a sustainable way of storing yer sharp objects in between work and maintenance

im workin on it but i think the cure to what ails me is to be angry around my friends more anger is *such* a stigmatized emotion for marginalized folks and i know, at least for me, that stigma was instilled first by my parents so it goes really far back anger 🫱 🙅 🫲 shame

what do you guys do when yer dysfunctionally angry for days on end i need help, i dont want to feel like this at baseline i feel like even tho i kiss my baby and care for my garden and try to be kind to my friends and cherish my wife, im just another murderously angry flame stuck in hell

who up reciting elegies under yer breath for the ground hog turned fox feast in the back alley behind yer house yea ive been trying to stop, too

same goes for masc tgirls Do whatever u like man Ft. @w0lfertinger666.bsky.social (I love ur art sm!!!) #furry #furryart #fursona #fursonaart #fanart #sfwfurry

im delighted to report that i no longer imagine me and my loved ones suddenly and horrifically dying multiple times a day 👍🏽 man those dopaminergic psych meds fucked me up with anxiety, i can't believe i lived like that for three whole years just to avoid psychotic symptoms

A little premptive but its one of my favorite days!! 9 days until.. Good Soup Day!! The day we brought our little girl home 🥰 Her name is Sancocho and we named her after a hearty, nourishing soup because thats what she brings to our lives 🥺💕 also rare beautiful wife appearance 🧑🏽‍🤝‍🧑🏼🐕💕

tryna dress up at least a little for the skeleton festival ☠️ (i made the harness, not recently but its handmade. about five years ago?? i dont make things out of bones anymore)

Hilt and Helm president loved the piece!! I am now making tournament prizes for them 🥹 Wow, i actually feel accomplished??? Kere actually does stuff arc starts now?? Here's a picture my darling caring wife took of it earlier today before delivery sitting on my anvil right after some rain

trying to participate in the youtube boycott so im just listening to the Castlevania cartoon while i work all day lol dont mind this?? ill eventually have to find a fix for my casual antheopological and linguistic info consumption habit tho

ha ha ha!!! its finally done 🥹 can't wait to get them into the commissioner's hands

the house my wife and i are getting just got its listing updated to "pending sale" cuz of us, thats us 🥹 man being a disabled hobosexual most of my life, makes this all the more surreal i have had two (2) money or less to my name my whole life and now im gonna have my name on a house deed?? 🏠🧑🏽‍🤝‍🧑🏼🐕💓

how does this keep happening

was contacted by an old john this morning.. grateful im in EMDR therapy all power and respect to people out there doing fssw in this day and age if they wouldn't or can't do it to the person whose name they call you by, it isn't ok that they think its somehow more ok to do it to you

im not good at this part.. actually in the process of using black enbroidery thread instead of microfilament but this is the pic i used lol gonna test fit it and then if it works, take it off, apply contact cement and sew it back on wish me luck 🤞🏽

had the triple hormone day yesterday and ive never felt so un-refreshed and un-revived afterwards 😕

not too shabby 🥲

one of these days ill get a real camera and learn how to interestingly film a bright flame lol is this even worth sharing?? lol who cares, here's what brazing a tiny pommel onto a feder looks like!!! 😌🔥 into the pickle it goes 🫳🏽🗡️🥒🍵

You can just add water to yer black flux to rehydrate it, just tested it and the joint holds up to hammering and everything 👍🏽 for anyone else who wanted to know

gently nudging.. measuring.. aligning.. gently nudging again.. measuring.. aligning.. gently nudging positioning is like 85% of the time spent when brazing and soldering lol

who's up bright and early taking gentle and patient care of their body 🙋🏽 ... (🛏️💢🧓🏽💥🦴💥🫁💥🦷💥🧠💥💥🚱🆘)

between the tremors and having to mostly eyeball this guy, im amazed they came out looking so proportional thanks tiny hephaestus 🙏🏽⚒️🌋🤏🏽 ... (just kidding, id never show gratitude to a european deity 🙅🏽🇪🇺)

third time was the charm 🫠

the cat face is actually sewn on, i got it off a rotten old purse i pulled from abandoned storage also 🥰💕

lmao ok i guess now i know thats possible

I knew this day would come eventually when i decided to open myself up to commissions Just had to delay my first deadline due to my health taking up too much time every day Trying to just accept my health as a neutral, logistical consideration but boy does it really feel like im failing

got a lovely little guy from the delightful @sweetnawful.bsky.social 🥰 I've named him Bamuel, the Bomb-Omb 😌🫴💣(👼)

Y'all my GI condition is getting to crisis territory 💀 ive barely digested anything in a little over two weeks and as a result, my health is getting very, very poor taking some intense med combos today hoping they'll make a difference here's to living, not just surviving, with chronic conditions

yea my septum piercing is crooked but is any other part of me straight?? 💁🏽