i've long accepted that vrai has a more... striking(?) character design and therefore gets more "engagement." <- i hate that word. but elves and elezen are popular here. and i like them well enough. but i like au ra more, so etienne will always be my focus. he is favorite.

from 2024(?) his skin is probably cold and not fun to touch.

unedited. I believe I posted this before. I'd still like to make a comic about Vretienne's origins: Their meeting in Mhach, Vrai antagonizing Etienne throughout his journeu, Etienne having enough and stabbing him in Yanxia. But, somehow, love finds a way!

a throwaway photo from a few months back. long time no vrai.

I miss Etienne so bad but I get my pc back tomorrow c:

I've been awake/traveling for over 36 hours so I am very exhausted, but I'm happy to see the new expansion seems to have important au ra characters 💙

I picked up a lot of hobbies during my time in San Diego (rollerskating, pc building, weight lifting, figurine collecting)... California isn't home for me, but this place helped me discover myself a bit more. I'm grateful.

xiv on the backburner because i'm playing other video games. wehehe he's soooo.... whatever you say handsome.

toxic yaoi unedited sneak peek.

I haven't looked at Etienne in weeks. I should put that man in a situation.

from the archives.

Sooo the solution to my creative block was to listen to some music. Unedited tiny sneak peek.

I won't lie, I've hit a big creative wall. I stare at my screen in game, or a blank document, and shut it down. I just don't know what to do these days, and what I do create I'm not happy with. "My art serves no point" <- That thought keeps popping up in my head. I hate it, because It's not true !!

Esteem is someone(?) who has been part of Etienne's lore since 2021, so he's older than Vrai. I never sat down and designed him though. Even now, I'm still bouncing several ideas around in my head. I want him to look like Eti, because he IS Eti, but also not. Secret concept design.

You'll never know it because I like posing him naked but Vrai dislikes showing any skin beyond his hands (and even that's a stretch.) His skin is sensitive because it's heavily damaged by constant use of very, very dark magic. Kinda rotten (inside and out.)

🔞 | pent up.

Vrai's nature as a voidsent means that he can be summoned by any mage powerful enough to complete his ritual. So it gets really awkward when he's getting intimate with Etienne and he has to take this call he just has to otherwise he'll go nuts he's GOT TO GO.

Been reading Paradise Lost and thinking. OC brain rot.

Vrai calls himself a self-made god because his power is approaching godhood sorta as a powerful voidsent. So I'm not saying he gets "jealous" when Etienne hangs out with the auspices in Hell's Lid buuuuut.

🔞 | old alts.

the center of this man's attention is a very bad place to be.

me and the wol i pulled by being weird and obsessive and a general nuisance in his life.

toxic yaoi.

Oh my goodness. Ok.

🔞 | body horror. it's criminal how much i want him.

🔞 | oh eti the man that you are.

Tomorrow is Vrai's bday I gotta do. Something.

Props definitely carried this one. I'm obsessed with putting Eti in veils recently, and LP's Pearlescent is great. I used the lace trimming to frame the left, right, and top. The slash of red behind him and to the left is actually Vrai's hair. Eidolon always a great framing device 👍 and lovely hair!

and here's the barely edited vrai alt.

🔞 | "send nudes but don't make it dramatic." Failed.

🔞 | from 2023.

he's so pretty he makes me feel like a LUNATIC.

tangled.

🔞 | Getting back to the purpose of this account's existence.

Occasionally I get shy and even a bit self conscious about how much I talk about my OCs/OC ship. But then I remember I like doing it and it's fun and I think they're pretty cool. And then I get over it and monologue some more. Vretienne my beloved ❤️ 💙

The timeline is nebulous but Eti had his post-coma bed head for quite a long time. He's had short hair all his life, but after waking up and retiring he wanted a change. Hence longer hair. Vrai likes it long too, so.

Redecorating my house again because before it was pre-EW Eti's house with sprinkles of Vrai but now I really want it to be Eti AND Vrai's house. So the goal is for it to look quaint but also like two ghost who are haunting each other live there.

behold. the lankiest man in all of eorzea.

I'm always torn on this because they're extremely possessive of each other, but also ridiculously confident in themselves and their relationship so it doesn't manifest as jealousy. "Nobody knows you the way I know you, so why would I be worried?" <- That's what they both think.

Etienne likes Vrai's weird eldritch hands because they stay the same no matter what form he takes. (Vrai's claws also feel good against Eti's scales when he scratches him too wink wink)

lay all your frustration on me ( 🔞 implied )

bodyguard au.

i motivate myself to continue leveling by dressing him up in silly outfits.

put eti's flowers in his hair for shits and giggles and i'm feeling kinda 🥺

I'm glad the director brought up the fact laws are getting stricter worldwide. I imagine if they end up in legal trouble, they'll be forced by their bosses/stockholders to go after ALL mods. Scorched earth style.

i forgot to flag it. anyway 🖐 🍑

lame party.

something simple.

Put up a semi hiatus tag in my description on main. I can't focus on anything, my creative drive is low, and I'm v tired all the time. I was wondering why. I went to the doctor and got some blood work done. Turns out my levels are really low. I hope I can bounce back soon now that I am treating it!

Logging in to find my house was set for auto demolition. Have I really not played in that long? Guess so.