I can not be trusted. I need to protect everyone. Not even I am safe from myself. Have to always always always probe for weak spots. They can never be at fault. My responsibility alone. They are infalible. I love them with all my heart. If I fail them, death. If they don't love me back, death. I try

I'm fucking back, bitches. Have you ever needed to use a first aid kit on yourself?

I believe the one behind me finally found what she was looking for. So this will hopefully be it for me. Can't say it's been a pleasure, but at least it wasn't boring. Goodbye. P.S. do not forget to pet your local puppy girl and to give them lots of love!

I am what I am

Many miles away from you there is someone alone in a forest as you are reading this, in the dark or during the fog of rain. Maybe they will stay there forever. I certainly can't wait For

I know.

I hate my life

Every bone, every tooth, every nail, every string of hair scattered to the wind into a 1000 pieces onto all the corners of the earth,,

Not again. I do not want to lose 10% of my life again

No....

Fuck...

Oh no... no

I only ever wanted to be an architect

One of those nights where the tears wont stop flowing and the divine light seems in need of cutting

and then i can lie down

just need to get it done

There is no one who cares more than me. This is a simple object of life; An axiom of logic

I do not care

The old sparking bio-electric engine of creation is slowly firing up again, putting thoughts into code, so as to finally get to the end of this. One last time

oh fuck new neuro-signals!!

Resounding frequency modulation ! ha Ha

What the Fuck is(f) Wrong with You ?

The divine frenzied state of mechanations and motoric jolts that follows the fate worse than death; moving an appointment on the phone. Eyes crushing under the weight of broken fingers. Thank you sweet lady on the other side of the squaking hell device; Keep that smile in your voice !

One of those fateful nights where bone screams for laceration of the lose protein structures around it. When everything goes dark and the mind becomes a focused laser of absolute terror and everything that makes you choke. There is no way to speak. No way to cry. Nowhere to hide. So you stop I

Alone beyond all outside comprehension

All-, well and truly Alone

A sentience once looked up at the same stars, millions of light years away, as the modern day, starry eyed puppy girl, which now ravenously chews on it's remains, after it was slowly crushed by millions of psi, over millions of years into a perfectly delectable piece of rubber packaging material.

The hard, rough-grit mattress on the contact points of the biological reality interface, sandpaper. Another night, in a deteriorating house, in a deteriorating body, in a deteriorating mind, still racing, on proteins and carbo-hydrates, yet with no one to share the excess heat; nor excess thoughts.

There are tiny holes in the night sky, hanging between the ocular observatory and the dark tangentiel canvas above. Existing in total apathy, yet casting down their judgement. The endless nucleating seas of hydrogen; blending in with the dust particles on the grimey window. Awe. Cleaning agent.

Noch nie so wenig Bock gehabt Montags zu arbeiten. Schalfen kann ich auch nicht.

Heute wieder langer ansträngender Tag, aber auch spaßig :))

So, jetzt bin ich auch mal hier :)