Alright, i think Bumble pulls through? I will keep yall posted

You ever realized that as time goes on, you feel more alone. Like i know I have people behind me, people supporting me, people against me. And I live for myself each day now instead of for someone else. But like, i miss having THAT person who really made you feel seen

I genuinely wish i had someone new I can put this energy into. Ive tried putting it into myself and Ive put enough, im doing my best. But that little extra that needs to let go, needs somewhere else to go.

Well apparently the secret to loosing weight is be depressed and single. Im down 13 pounds today, eating cleaner and less

When something stops being fun, is it because you over did it ? Or is it because you out grew it?

So apparently adding you have a pool makes you get more matches. The more you know

Bumble is so unfair. Wym you show me 3 baddies in a row?! A cosplay baddie, a nintendo baddie and a board game baddie. Like what? Super swipe on all 3 please

Yk what is crazy, Dejavu. Because I am currently experiencing something I dreamed about 3 years ago.

I know you are gonna look at this. This post is for you. I want to move on, i cant keep getting messages from you. Each one feels like a gut punch of anxiety. If you need to tell me something, you know where to find me. Say it to me, dont text me. Otherwise im not sure it you actually mean it.

Why is life so frustrating? Why is it i make progress on myself and one thing happens and im back to fucking begging for attention.

When its so quiet and lonely you dont know what to do

If i didnt see her message would i have felt so shitty today? Would anything have been different? Do i hate her? No, aside from everything ive said if she came to me in need i would help. Do i hate what she did to me? Yea and she has every right to hate me rn

Why did i respond…

She made an alt account to apologize to me… I have that anxiety again…

So i guess anxiety and throwing up mucus is just gonna be part of my morning routine now. Why tho? I cant tell ya

I made a reddit post that really calmed my nerves. I knew i was not crazy for the way she treated me. Someone said it sounds like im going through withdrawals because i regulated my emotions based on if she was happy or not. If she wasnt i was in fight or flight till she was happy. I feel seen

So by talking to people i starting to understand that im having withdrawals from always being on edge with her mood rather than me being anxious over anything.

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Well thats interesting, threads has it so if you block someone, you also block all accounts they have access too and will make in the future. Thats nice, wish more places were like that

So, orientation training is just mild brainwaishing for a capitalist cult. Good to know

When anxiety wont let you do anything till you throw up first 🫠

I went so far as to block twitter from my computer because im so fucking done with this shit. I dont even want the chance to see anything from her cuz you cant block anyone on twitter for real

Yk she says i fumbled her. I didnt fumble her. I put so much effort into that relationship that it hurt me in the end. If we were together till the end of the summer i was gonna propose to her. She fumbled the bag and lost probably the best guy who would treat her right.

Welcome to my new rants about how I am better off without my ex who was a master manipulator and constantly changed her mask to be whatever was appropriate. Ended the relationship by emotionally cheating, telling me she was opening the relationship which i was uncomfortable with (1/?)

Alright bsky. I deleted twitter cuz i cant stand someone and their blocking system sucks. So here I am, ready to make this my new daily driver. Hopefully my mental health will flourish better than it was there.

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