i'm so anxious today, it's horrible. i need/want to work on my paper so that i don't have to go through two days of hell on the weekend, but my body is shaking and my thoughts are flying through my brain way too fast

need some coffee, but it is technically not agreeable with stomach cramps. might make some if the painkillers are holding up in a few hours. but i will make lunch now and hopefully that will give me some energy, so i don't fall asleep while looking at my word document

i think i'm gonna log out of this account on my phone until we can actually lock our accounts. i don't wanna encourage impulsively posting negative thoughts because it just makes me feel worse tbh lol

okay you know what, hard block it is because if i have to see your bullshit every time i open my main then there's no point anymore

i'm not gonna lie! feels a bit bad!

it's so annoying when big chain stores tell you that something is in stock and available for pick up within a few days & then when you order it, you get a message that it's gonna be delayed for an unknown amount of time

ugh. do i just. idk what to do with my main account

sometimes i wonder why i had a falling out with some people and then i remember it was because at the end of the day they were still white cishet men who held the beliefs of white cishet men

well, there's that

this was genuinely a good decision bc holy shit. these 6 days were a lot

slept like absolute shit

decided to not try to get any uni work done while at work because it just adds so much stress. i already am overworked (and underpaid) and putting pressure on myself to also work on my paper while i have to deal with so much annoying shit is not helping me

i say this as a bisexual

chat is it gay to like men

i need them to add private accounts so soon please, i want to lock my acc so bad

this treatment really fucking sucks and if i hear the "advice" that i just need to approach people myself one more time i will scream. how am i supposed to approach anyone when they're already cutting me out before i even get a word in

why do i get imposter syndrome about liking movies. i always feel like i'm not good enough at liking movies because other people watch more niche things or because they watch more or just because they watch different genres

i'm also so fucking tired, bro

i'm so fucking anxious YES

okay el hotzo anzug drama hab ich nicht erwartet, aber ich nehms tbh

me vs really dark profile pictures

i remember looking at gym memberships when i was 16 and they offered something like 24€ a month. now??? 90€ a month??? are we SERIOUS

if nobody got me, i know αβω got me

i hope he doesn't know what bsky is and nobody ever shows him my post

you haven't lived until you had a taste of boypussy, i promise it will be worth your while pleeeeeaaaaaase

lewis pullman give me a chance pleeeeeaaaaaase

sigh

accidentally locked out my coworker

JUDAS MY GUIDE

i'm not even angry right now, just tired. tired of this bullshit, of dealing with a man who has severe mental health problems, but refuses to acknowledge that and instead blames his family for it. i didn't even do anything out of the ordinary and he flipped

the lewis pullman effect.... he got nia, me and ban already

making me have a meltdown, talking UNINFORMED shit about something in a super condescending tone and then implying something i am actually terrified of YAY

nothing like a little bit of hurting yourself the day before your birthday because your mother just keeps pressing the worst buttons

despite all my rage i am still just a rat in a cage....

she said technically it's fine, but i need to ask my coworker bc he also wants to go on vacation in september some time 🫩

just asked my boss if i can take two weeks of vacation in 2 months i'm now tempted to throw my phone away and leave civilisation

you know when you're friends are all into a piece of media that you don't care about and they all bond over it and you feel yourself drifting apart from them because you can't join the conversations anymore

mondays, am i right

today has been a day

i need to lock in later

it's so wild to me when i see people younger than me get engaged. i just can't really comprehend how you can be ready to settle down with someone before you even hit 30

being in uni for a while means that you can be nowhere close to done with a project as the deadline is only days away and not feel anything about it whatsoever. i shouldn't feel so calm, but i'm just too over everything to care

i need to get this day started properly, but the post-work crash is so strong

can they make private accounts a thing please so i can finally lock this one

i hate cishets

but also YES I GENUINELY DONT SEE IT. meljayce, reylo, dean winchester with whatever girl of the week. none of them make sense to me which is why i don't care!!! but apparently i can't have this opinion, but if you dare suggest any of these characters are queer, then i'm being stoned smh

people who like straight ships always get so angry when you say you don't see the chemistry. like man, you do you but why can't you accept that not everyone agrees. like it's always the hets, always!!!

i just hallucinated shirtless kylo ren on my tl so that's how my day is going so far

i'm also upset because i was going to use this evening for research for my presentation in two weeks & to work on my fics and my dnd character. but instead i'm trying not to move in order to not upset the pain in my head even more

i need public toilets to be gender neutral, i can't keep dehydrating myself in 30° weather bc i'm too scared of harassment and transphobic incidents