all this because I went into a horror binge cuz I got interested by easy delivery co today LMFAO that game is peak btw

you get to a point where you're watching icebergs about videogame creepy pastas and that's interesting and fun and entertaining to me but once the binge delves deeper into videos talking about real life crimes that's where the real horrifying shit is and yeah that's where I draw the line haha

alright nvm im good for now actually HAHAH back to good vibes before sleep pls

why is it everytime im trying to do an all nighter to reset my sleep sched for something I always end up getting recommended horror content on youtube before finally being able to sleep and it's interesting stuff but being sleep deprived and being fed disturbing themes is not a very good combo HAHA

My bro melshi dude I’m so fucking saddd HAHAHAH 😭

Im also so sad ive finished it all and there’s no other star wars shows and movies like this saga ;.; It was so peak dude. All new star wars should have been like this

Rogue one and andor spoilers ahead Rewatching rogue one after andor, I somewhat still feels so unsatisfied with cassian dying even tho I knew he would after everything Not saying “unsatisfied” writing wise but just like…fuck he really just dies after all that…it’s so fucking sad man.

even then tho I still count my calories every single day and boy is it starting to feel tedious but I won't let myself stop lol

ive been doing physical activity for more than a year now almost every single day but after a while I figured monday is always just my bedrot day HAHA so that's how it's been now and honestly it's pretty good I feel like I deserve that 1 day rest day out of the entire week

andor ep 6 now alright damn this show doesn't fuck around lmao lets go? are you telling me this is star wars WTF

Got a tarot card reading from a friend today for funzies and it just confirmed i am without a doubt actually dying inside 👍

Alright episode 3 was pretty damn good LETS GO finally

Tried watching Andor! First of all I'm pushing through cuz I hear it's really good.... but damn, ngl the first 2 episodes was kinda boring HAHAHAH 😭 I do I hear it's slower than usual star wars and I like blade runner type slow burns usually but yeah idk yet can't wait for things to pick up 😭

Swear to god so many things has made me angry recently. Ive been depressed because of it but still, not giving up on loving humanity and life even tho it’s tough sometimes dude. Humans can do incredible stuff if they choose to. I wish we always chose to.

Nah wtf why does someone get shamed for reading books as a hobby That’s probably one of the most healthy hobbies you can have LOL. Literally exercising our brains in this age of cobwebbed brain rotted minds what in the fahrenheit 451 is that shit Shame on these people for judging someone for that

i will really never get over how they messed up the new star wars trilogy dude and like force awakens was honestly pretty damn good too :( what happened mannn

i only really watched the film cuz they upgraded the only imax theater in my city - added a new projector, improved sound and seats etc. and let me tell you it's feels weird having more satisfaction with the theater experience than the actual movie you're watching HAHAH

you know what maybe i do have a liiiittle bit of recency bias i watched the mandalorian movie today and it was pretty much 3/5 movie...it was alright? but now it got me wanting to play a star wars game even tho my love for star wars has honestly faded ever since they messed up the new trilogy

Dude brushing your dog is fun why have i never done this before Im also an itchy scratchy person and so seeing my dog feel so relieved after is also so relieving lmao

I’m depressed but im also stubborn. Weird combo

You know i post alot about being depressed but when someone actually asks me how i am, these days I just say “don’t worry I’m fine!”

alright ive calmed down now went out to mcdonalds cuz our bathroom is flooded and toilet is clogged decided to get some fries after sigh lol tanginang buhay

god im upset bro we got a house flood today. but its not JUST a house flood i want change. I feel so fucking alone in this house sometimes and bullshit like this makes shit tough to bare. I love my family but sometimes i can't stand everyone. I can't stand people. I can't truly confide in anyone

Honestly wish i was more hyperfixated with reading rn because reading is good but i only really read 1-2 hours most days

Ngl ive been pretty depressed these past 2 weeks It usually only lasts a few days recently when i got healthier but now I really just felt low for most of the whole 2 weeks Hopefully i get out of this slump soon. I’ve still been functioning and doing stuff i need to do though so that’s good

aespa's producer is goated dude it always sounds so crisp and clean idk what it is and also they're not afraid to go complex with the beats

I decided to make a 2026 spotify playlist but instead of just new songs it’s of any song that loops in my head cuz I feel like that’s what my subconscious tells me are my actual favorite songs haha

I keep hearing the first man soundtrack in my head It’s such a good soundtrack yet so simple at the same time There’s like 2 motifs in there that is just so melancholy yet hopeful and it keeps looping in my head

getting a weird obsession with dried mangoes I didn't like them THIS much till now lol too bad it's sugar ;,) can only really let myself eat a little

wtf this day went by too focken fast and I woke up at 5 AM...usually the day feels so long if I woke up along those lines how is it already 6 pm I still feel like its 3 pm

one day i might go crazy and actually give up everything and just read books i like looking at paper man

No but imagine scanning the book store and coming across a plain black book with only the word “book” for a title on it intriguing and honestly quite disturbing…like you stumbled upon a cursed object lmao

Somehow i have a theory that the book is called house of leaves because isn’t a book a “house of leaves” so im literally just reading a book entitled “book” 😂 why am i so unserious about this HAHA

Im probably about 1/4th into house of leaves now and the navidson parts are very creepy and interesting and it’s all insanity overall so far but I can’t help but just keep picturing this scene of squidward 😭 Alllloooneeee

awhile ago I decided to deal with a lot of things on my own and it worked but now I just find myself not really having anyone to confide in im stuck in my own thoughts more than ever...all I use to cope these days are hobbies and routines im lonely man

depressed af I wish i had at least some commissions lol wish i wasn't broke af rn lol it's making me more depressed

My next book to read will be house of leaves and i know a little about what to expect and im just finding it really funny thinking about how much of a madman I will look like trying to read this goddamn book LOL I suppose that’s the point idk

Im now chapter 15/24 of The Odyssey and boy do i have some thoughts

so when I travel I got told before that my fashion is plain and I also do notice people dress up way more and yeah I do agree I don't really have a really wide sense of fashion honestly

but yeah bottomline I wish there was a PH eshop

I'm doubting myself in these posts but no i think this actually does makes sense because I buy stuff from japan and other eshops and full price in those countries is really just cheaper than US and other more expensive countries wondering how this actually works

there's so much hoops to go through just to get less painful prices on switch games in ph dude like I actually don't mind having just one set price either if we just had our own eshop region...im fine with being given our regional pricing

Back to sleep for now

Thankfully even though i get sleep paralysis from these i haven’t dreamt of one where something horrifying is chasing me …yet HAHAHA pls no i am fine where im at with these depression dreams

I think i found out I have an irrational fear of colorful rooms, but not any usual ones…specifically ones which are liminal space…like squid game or hell even amazing digital circus Cuz I’ve dreamt about being trapped in those type rooms…and I only dream about them when i feel depressed & trapped

One funny thing with losing a sizeable amount of weight for me is that I was too lazy to buy new clothes and so for like 2 months I kept wearing my 2-3xl clothes My shirts were way too big i looked like I was wearing traditional robes and my shorts kept falling off (this was at home dw) HAHA

god im really just more hotheaded during summer dude the heat really makes my blood boil both literally and metaphorically HAHAH

sometimes we have to know our own limits and and stop trying to play god

without a doubt i fucking hate generative AI not only does it steal it shit now it also made shit expensive AI should have been and should be used as a tool to further improve humanity. Not replace and further our dumbassery as a species lol

my amazement and grin immediately drops when I find something kinda cool and then suddenly see "made with AI" or connect the dots when there's no disclaimer one of life's greatest disappointments indeed