aespa's producer is goated dude it always sounds so crisp and clean idk what it is and also they're not afraid to go complex with the beats

I decided to make a 2026 spotify playlist but instead of just new songs it’s of any song that loops in my head cuz I feel like that’s what my subconscious tells me are my actual favorite songs haha

I keep hearing the first man soundtrack in my head It’s such a good soundtrack yet so simple at the same time There’s like 2 motifs in there that is just so melancholy yet hopeful and it keeps looping in my head

getting a weird obsession with dried mangoes I didn't like them THIS much till now lol too bad it's sugar ;,) can only really let myself eat a little

wtf this day went by too focken fast and I woke up at 5 AM...usually the day feels so long if I woke up along those lines how is it already 6 pm I still feel like its 3 pm

one day i might go crazy and actually give up everything and just read books i like looking at paper man

No but imagine scanning the book store and coming across a plain black book with only the word “book” for a title on it intriguing and honestly quite disturbing…like you stumbled upon a cursed object lmao

Somehow i have a theory that the book is called house of leaves because isn’t a book a “house of leaves” so im literally just reading a book entitled “book” 😂 why am i so unserious about this HAHA

Im probably about 1/4th into house of leaves now and the navidson parts are very creepy and interesting and it’s all insanity overall so far but I can’t help but just keep picturing this scene of squidward 😭 Alllloooneeee

awhile ago I decided to deal with a lot of things on my own and it worked but now I just find myself not really having anyone to confide in im stuck in my own thoughts more than ever...all I use to cope these days are hobbies and routines im lonely man

depressed af I wish i had at least some commissions lol wish i wasn't broke af rn lol it's making me more depressed

My next book to read will be house of leaves and i know a little about what to expect and im just finding it really funny thinking about how much of a madman I will look like trying to read this goddamn book LOL I suppose that’s the point idk

Im now chapter 15/24 of The Odyssey and boy do i have some thoughts

so when I travel I got told before that my fashion is plain and I also do notice people dress up way more and yeah I do agree I don't really have a really wide sense of fashion honestly

but yeah bottomline I wish there was a PH eshop

I'm doubting myself in these posts but no i think this actually does makes sense because I buy stuff from japan and other eshops and full price in those countries is really just cheaper than US and other more expensive countries wondering how this actually works

there's so much hoops to go through just to get less painful prices on switch games in ph dude like I actually don't mind having just one set price either if we just had our own eshop region...im fine with being given our regional pricing

Back to sleep for now

Thankfully even though i get sleep paralysis from these i haven’t dreamt of one where something horrifying is chasing me …yet HAHAHA pls no i am fine where im at with these depression dreams

I think i found out I have an irrational fear of colorful rooms, but not any usual ones…specifically ones which are liminal space…like squid game or hell even amazing digital circus Cuz I’ve dreamt about being trapped in those type rooms…and I only dream about them when i feel depressed & trapped

One funny thing with losing a sizeable amount of weight for me is that I was too lazy to buy new clothes and so for like 2 months I kept wearing my 2-3xl clothes My shirts were way too big i looked like I was wearing traditional robes and my shorts kept falling off (this was at home dw) HAHA

god im really just more hotheaded during summer dude the heat really makes my blood boil both literally and metaphorically HAHAH

sometimes we have to know our own limits and and stop trying to play god

without a doubt i fucking hate generative AI not only does it steal it shit now it also made shit expensive AI should have been and should be used as a tool to further improve humanity. Not replace and further our dumbassery as a species lol

my amazement and grin immediately drops when I find something kinda cool and then suddenly see "made with AI" or connect the dots when there's no disclaimer one of life's greatest disappointments indeed

goddamit pragmata and tomodachi life i need these games but wallet empty :(

currently reading : The Odyssey by Homer! I'm still early but I'm now after the calypso stuff! I think the journey has finally begun the story starts with telemachus "GET OUT OF MY HOUSE" shenanigans and not odysseus' journey...it's honestly not what I expected but still I'm liking it so far!

I want to read more books and play games but when I do it's like "shit should I be doing something else" the life of being used to being a workaholic or productive-aholic if that makes sense LOL

I don't have much comms lately or urgent things to do but I still feel like I'm missing out or forgetting something important LOL I should just finish everything important already so I can just turn off my brain LOL

Yeah mh4u is really hard for me dude but im surviving and slowly getting better HAHA at the same time tho at this point I’ve decided to still stay switch axe but also started exploiting the mounting 😭 I beat zinogre tonight!! Wahoo

was hoping to start a coop playthrough of FFXIV trial with my friend and we went in knowing we couldn't party up from last time but we didn't know we couldn't even send each other friend requests and join each other in dungeons :(

God i feel so fkin depressed today lol

I said before i started to like the switch 2 a bit more now especially since more exclusives came out and the recent updates But damn i still use my switch lite more :,) it’s really just the weight, size and battery. Very important factors for me

i started walking my dog chu more and bro is out of shape HAHAH reminds me of me when i started last year she outright laid down when I got home she was OUT OF BREATH LOLL we only walked for 30 mins 😭

also kinda wanna finally take on iceborne cuz I've only really finished base world years ago but I'll probably focus on 4u and rise first for now i wonder how hard MR/G-rank is 😭

finally beat AT Arkveld I'd actually say that felt a little bit less painful then omega but still a bit painful HAHAH like I've posted before....I just don't like AOE spam especially when it's big AOEs up-to arena wide ones... arkveld felt a bit more fair with it's AOEs...still hard af tho

i have a bone to pick with arch tempered arkveld HAHAHAH i will tear it's ashole to bits GRRR AHAHAHAH

o7 🥹

I’ve been reading artemis by andy weir Ofc i did HAHA during the actual artemis II mission fkin nerd HAHA bro this is legit just like cyberpunk 2077 gig LOL why are u making bad decisions jazz

I was able to fix my physical health but my mental health is still not so great till now It’s so hard. But still trying

Ive had to stop lifting for 2 weeks cuz I got hit with a minor health problem and I was in pain So honestly, been feeling pretty depressed lol. And on the surface it’s like tf you got depressed cuz you couldn’t exercise? But it’s more like im dissapointed i had to cut my consistency+productivity

i hope bro didn't get himself the book after I am so sorry if he did HAHAHAH I might have gave a poor wholesome old man some trauma

I remember one time I was reading blood meridian (i still need to finish this book 😭) at a mall while waiting for my mom and a foreigner decided to sit beside me and ask what I was reading and said "it must be a nice book the front looks hopeful!" tbf the front art I had on mine looks tame af

I’ve watched it before but I watched wendigoon’s analysis of mouthwashing And jeez that game never fails to be disturbing but most of all just depressing everytime i absorb it

i want to murder the heat FKIN HELL IT'S HOT

OMG project hail mary vr/mr game I can finally live my dreams and fantasies of being ryan gosling i will literally BE him HAHAHAH jkjk

they have beautiful fkin voices and I can even personally attest to octavio as well cuz I've mixed his voice when they commissioned me for a mix before (still very thankful for the opportunity...still can't believe I worked on a holo cover)

it really just hit a bit different if the singer is extra good at what they do dude you just get that stanky face out cuz their technique is just that clean HAHAH

like i understand being a parent can be fullfilling but damn I am not qualified rn. I am clinically depressed and barely handle my own responsibilities without getting tired and I also don't want to pass that kind of pain and mental suffering on to a different generation lol

like my parents don't even tell me preachy bullshit like that I will have my time when im older but right now that is not on my mind I want to savor my freedom HAHAHAH