unfortunately i work better if im pressured with deadlines D:

it's been 3 days and i still haven't gotten my refund WHY CAN'T YA'LL BE MORE LIKE STEAM D:

holy shit no joke I watched Ma Dong-Seok movies earlier this year cuz I wanted a yakuza/like a dragon movie and now bro is getting his own john yakuza game IT ACTUALLY ALL FITS LIKE A GLOVE LIKE A WHAT tbf this is kabukicho not kamurocho so I guess it's real life?

save for steam I hate needing to contact support to get money back from something faulty dude you have to wait a couple of days just to get tedious replies when you could have enjoyed it no problem and avoided everything like this if things were working as intended -.-

oh it's great to be back

Really starting to question everything i see on the internet now LOL like it’s getting harder to tell if something is AI or not it’s kinda scary always questioning if anything is real And i mean yeah hoaxes and lies aren’t new on the internet but now there’s visual “proof” so it’s even harder

Sometimes i just become a hater dude HAHAHA I immediately get the ick when people talk too loud in a restaurant to the point where they’re the only ones you can hear Like gottdamn everyone can hear ya’ll. we get ya’ll are rich and smart and beautiful and shit already now tone it the fuck down LOL

Really not feeling very swell today

I feel like I have a weird view of food at times and it's amped up ever since I started dieting like I've never been a big foodie but even more so now sometimes I just wish I didn't need to eat you know what I mean? LOL

am i dumb dude i legit forgot how to make a discord server LMAOOO like where is the button again what how do i do this again i am dementia

Worst part is that stuff happened literally a decade ago Like wtf brain why would you bring that shit up in my brain to upset me LOL

Upsetting dream lol

ngl unironically my AHA moment on switch 2 akin to how BOTW made things click with me on the OG switch has been donkey kong bananza LOL 😭 I wasn't even hyped for this game but it scratches the part of my brain really well

I swear tho i don’t outright hate that much people, I’m not usually a hater Just a select few where i feel it’s very warranted lol

I never told much people this but I disliked kwebbelkop even back when he was still making actual content like gta race stuff years back cuz somehow I just found everything about the guy annoying but damn honestly I feel like younger me was on to something cuz what the fuck is that man doing

sometimes i forget i still live in a house from the 90s just with current tech in it and stuff my house is old LOL

i want to have a super power where if someone tries to rage bait i make them shit their pants

there's no one else to impress and strive to make proud of but yourself

It still feels sometimes brothas

Anyway i really want donkey kong bananza ;,) HAHA

I play on a steam deck as well at times and weirdly enough for the deck im fine if a game is at least 40-45….60 is still better tho

Im probably weird as a pc gamer mainly but personally as long as a game is at least 60 and not 30 fps im actually fine like are my eyes broken and im just not seeing much of a diff when it gets higher than 60 😭

Ngl ive been slowly loving the switch 2 (i actually got in on my bday) I wish we didn’t have to wait and hope for game updates for switch 1 games tho :( I wish they ran at 60 fps and raised the resolution automatically

man sometimes i just dont wanna do anything for a whole day except either play a game, watch a show or read a book but i MUST do something productive otherwise i'll either get depressed or anxious...especially about deadlines

im still dieting tho so I got one of the most important parts still down i've dieted 200+ days now which is crazy but it kinda sad dieting when you actually feel bad HAHAH it makes things feel even more depressing HAHA fuckkk

hopefully this lasts a short time hell, hopefully it's gone by tomorrow LOL

I kinda had to stop working out for a little bit because i've had a chronic cough and now i know it's one of the reasons why I'm starting to feel lost again 💀

damn imma be honest im starting to feel quite depressed again and not just the usual sad day like wow what is my life right now sort of depressed

Like junji ito is the kind of writer could make a doorknob disturbing or stubbing your toe traumatizing HAHAHA

Ive read a couple of junji ito books at this point and his style is really just so wacky seems like most of the time he likes to pick one topic or object or something usually mundane and “usual” and he makes it absurdly horror

Electric cars are lowkey unnerving with how quiet they are on standby inside Hek sometimes i don’t even hear them coming while walking outside

Okay you know what, thinking about it i have a history of pre-diabetes and it makes sense now i really just am constantly dehydrated 💀

If one day we go mad max apocalypse i’d flex that I was one of the few that actually appreciated water when it was abundant HAHAHHA

No seriously tho why do i find water so addicting LOL Like i actually like water like people like alcohol LMAO It doesnt have a taste but somehow so GOOD definitely helps that it’s 0 calories and helps fill your stomach tho LOL

i kind of want a separate workspace and separate gaming space but im not about to work in another room with no AC fukkk that

Ya know what the moment I yap about feeling bad I realized its a sign im going to have a depressive episode the next day LOL rip

Idk if its just me getting old but i genuinely just want to absorb and do things and be with people that matter to me. I’m tired of negative shit that I can avoid like social media drama

God wow i just do not care about streamer drama dude haha I wish my tl on twitter could just specifically be tailored to give me dopamine most of the time. I want my fyp in all my social media to literally be perfect

I also like the idea of color grading but i never had the time to learn it properly ;,) i just go with presets or making something up by eye HAHAHAH

i've always been really interested in cameras and videography/filmography/cinematography but I neverreally honed my skills all too much cuz of other hobbies so I've stayed a noob for a long time i bought a gimbal on my trip and now rip I may be getting into the hobby again D:

you know i see a lot of vids on tiktok glazing my city for being clean and safe and I agree to a point but I also don't like when there's too much glazing cuz I agree when people call it boring compared to other cities in the ph

nah legit tho l4d used to scare the shit out of me when i was younger i remember just seeing screenshots of no mercy and im like nah i ain't playing this by the time l4d2 came out i was like HELL YEAH GIMME THAT SHITTT www.youtube.com/watch?v=_mml...

I should voiceover this in vlog HAHA

I think the craziest thing that happens in my hometown is just relatives arguing over land ownership HHAHAHA

ALSO CRAZY HOW MY COUSINS GOT SHOT OR GOT HAZED OR SOMETHING Crazy fucking stories it’s like a movie Nothing that crazy ever happened like that to me or people ive known in my hometown

Crazy how traditional thinking is still very much the norm in the ph

Me when relatives think any girl i hang out with sometimes is my gf 💀 Firstly yeah those peeps are my good friends and next i’m sorry to dissapoint ya’ll relatives but i don’t even have that amount of game to start with HAHAHAAH

damn i tried out and refunded a couple of games in the steam sale to try out more games and now i want the refunded games back but now they're at a higher price D: yeah maybe i shouldn't abuse the refund system LOL makes me more indecisive

SEE SHE PROTECCS AND I PROTECC HER TOO

no but the best part actually is i don't even really need to verbally communicate with her about something bothering me she just knows when i have a depressive episode and so she tries being more lively when i do man 🥺