me when i shake kombucha and it explodes

in these troubled times it is so important that you stay weird

i cried so hard over this stupid assignment that i fell asleep on my desk and woke up just now at 12:27. the assignment was due at 11:59. if these windows werent locked for this very purpose i would throw myself out of them

my brain is currently telling me that i need to Freak Out about something but i cant figure out what so im just. laying in bed. wide-eyed and afraid

I HAVE RESPONSIBILITIES!!! I NEED A WORKING BRAIN!!! I CANNOT SUCCEED IF I AM SPENDING MY DAYS ADDLED BY INSOMNIA INDUCED DELIRIUM

if i dont fall asleep in the next like. ten minutes. im clawing my eyes out im actually losing my mind

shoutout to not a single soul for telling me i had chocolate smeared across the side of my face like a toddler for the past three hours. just caught my reflection in the bathroom mirror and nearly fell to my knees

the humiliation of asking for help and actually receiving it

i have got to make more art no i do not need to sleep the art will fix me i swear

friend been ignoring my texts for days

im so grateful i was born in the modern era i love watching scary videos on the internet

any time someone shows me the slightest bit of empathy boom im crying. my psychiatrist just said “i know things have been difficult for you lately, and if u need anything dont hesitate to reach out” and i teared up immediately as if that isnt like. what psychiatrists have to say as part of their job

today i am going to do yoga and then i am going to shower and then i will get coffee and email my professors and do my government homework and write fanfiction. and life will be okay

do not develop a restrictive eedee u will pee yourself. im not playing around it will happen

anybody else have imposter syndrome for being alive or is there just something inherently wrong with me

being seen using the apartment kitchen feels like a cardinal sin. im so sorry that i live here and that i need to eat sometimes. god im so terrible i should be ashamed. im being a burden and taking up space and i dont even deserve to eat actually. you should just kill me

its just me and my ginger kombucha against the world

forcing myself to finish this essay at 1 in the morning knowing damn well i would rather eat shit and die

currently playing my favorite game: am i allergic to this food i just ate or is my throat being tingly for no reason

its been a rough week (its wednesday)

the week before a period starts would kill a man

the lion has already eaten too much and it is only 2pm

no longer nice. i cant sleep

fasting today. havent in a long time. might start fasting on sundays again this is nice

waiting for this stupid energy drink to kick in i have RESPONSIBILITIES

craving golden oreos so bad rn yall have no idea

i need to read more books. that would fix me i think

when i eat low res i cant bring myself to care about anything. the world could be ending rn and id probably just go lay down

i am not pretty enough to be this weird i need to lose more weight

imagine hating on me and this is me in my room eating pickle chips

my heart hurts so bad it feels like theres an old lightbulb in my chest. just burning up in there. radiating down my arm and cooking my left lung. ive got a hand pressed against my sternum like when ppl get poisoned in movies

didnt separate my laundry and now my favorite white shirt is no longer white. is this hell. have i died and been sent to hell

chip0tle was a mistake my tummy hurts

well damn

getting chip0tle tmr im so excited yall have no idea

studied for 20 minutes. nap time

scary amount of caffeine making things feel scary

i get so excited to crawl into bed i LOVE being comfy and cozy. i love my bed

realistically i need to eat something but nothing sounds good and choosing is overwhelming and im so tired but i cant sleep bc im hungry and ive been running on caffeine all day but the idea of eating anything makes me sick to my stomach and im so sad

my dumbass during lecture yesterday wondering why i feel like im heaving a heart attack—completely oblivious to the 405mg of caffeine, sparking thru my body like a defibrillator on smelling salts, that i downed an hour prior

i get back from class and immediately curl up into a ball like everyone hates me and thinks im stupid and i should never talk ever again. they all think my outfit was ugly and that i smelled so bad and didnt know. im a terrible person i should be ashamed

ran out of fucking toilet paper i hope i die

i think ear infections r one of the most ridiculously unfortunate things to experience as an adult. if i had this when i was a kid i wouldve feared that flesh-eating bacteria was gnawing away at the left side of my skull. it hurts so bad. as an adult i just have to go to work

heres some pictures of my doggie bc i miss him

too scared ab classes starting tmr to fall asleep. ate a granola bar. why did i do that. feeling evil

brother just connected to the wrong speaker system causing ig0r to start playing on the patio at 10pm. my bedrooms on the first floor i thought demons were after me bro

puppy

MY FAMILYS STARTING OUR DRIVE TO PICK UP OUR NEW PUPPY TODAY IM SO FUCKING EXCITED GUYS ILL SHARE UPDATES

still thinking about this. how did she know

walking past the corner of the countertop like i NEED to slam my head into that thing. boom skull broken thoughts all gone