Finished the fucking CSM Reze Arc Movie I am not okay Pretty sure a blawgo of mine has heard me sniffling and sobbing my eyes out

🩷 Jay Sorry for the lack of responses for the past few days. I'll try to get to them later or tomorrow, I'm a bit busy right now due to school 🫠

Random book idea: "For a billion dollars, date me for a year and at the end of the year, at our happiest, if you found that you fell inlove with me, kill me."

Keep awake Keep awake Keep awake Keep awake Keep awake Keep awake Keep awake Keep awake Keep awake Keep awake Keep awake Keep awake Keep awake Keep awake Keep awake Keep awake Keep awake Keep awake Keep awake Keep awake Keep awake Keep awake Keep awake Keep awake Keep awake Keep awake Keep awake

Honestly i dont rlly feel like myself for the longest time now Bleh

Mad mad mad I wanna be mad and destroy the world Or be rich and buy all csm manga Its one or the other

No one: Brain: Wisteria - C Inrin - D Malaya - C Hanagata - DD Corypantha - B

Aaaaaaaaa *scrambles to grab and smush my muses with love and hate, trauma and comfort, and just unravelling their pasts like peeling an onion so that everyone can suffer with me*

Overthinking feels gross aaaaaaa

Insert screaming Brain going mad Feeling angry I need a hug And someone to tell me that im doing my best AAAAAAAA

Jay I like writing my character's thoughts sm 🥺

I DONT WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH MELANIE KLEIN ANYMORE WHEKGLELFMDIMFKELFM

Ever had those breakdowns where you're so close to snapping and then it turns into a tiring silence? Me rn lmao goodnight

Man im about to crack actually I really really want a hug right now Like a real one

Behold. It's me bitches-

I bought keycaps yayayayayayayayay ...but i will deny myself cheese ramen 😔

I wanna write angst and love stories and shit with my friends .-. Aaaaaaaaa

[Rant] Bit by bit, I keep looking at the accounts I practically abandoned and I really want to restart them again. I feel like I just made them for other people and not for myself but when I did that, it feels like I just opened up a part of me and it got trampled.

Man, tempted to erase rp accounts;;; i don't even want to find new moots to interact with, I'm okay with ones I already know honestly But even some of them that I don't know too well are hard to approach rkfmendmfmemf i hate being like this

Honestly, I feel like I might erase my rp accounts? Or it's just one of those days? I don't know, I wish I can restart.

I wonder if my work even means anything

Why do i bother

Aaaaa i should just shut up aaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAA i need to chill and lose my shit somewhere else, lile valorant

[Rant] But idk, its hard to really feel all this shit when you have times where you just think: I wish I never really survived back then because I don't really deserve all this. Someone else does. Someone else deserved this name, this body, and my birth. Not me though, not this soul.

5 favs, 5 tags! Food: Noodles Season: Rainy Season Drink: Mug Rootbeer Color: Pink and blue Hobby: Can't think of an anime so I would say crochet is my fave hobby! Tag: @zeikotwoyin.bsky.social @pochitasvessel.bsky.social @aftii.gay @thekingduck.bsky.social @mochax3.bsky.social

🫀 Jay I just HAD to make a silly (sort of) #Munday too! Gotta show ya'll how much I eat yarn with my husband (Jing Yuan) at my side 🧶🧶🧶

(rant, tw) Hit with this overwhelming anger all of a sudden and now I can feel my chest hurting like shit and it was because of a stupid game with valo and my shitty fucking internet. But then I know this isn't just because of that I just wanna bury myself already and gnfmejfmdkbfnfkdmekfmdjednfmkf

I watched the whole "fae wants your first born" bit again and now I want male fae to ask for Wisteria or Malaya's first born and we'll see how it goes

[Rant; TW] Mdmemfefmkemfdk some days, I just feel pressure on my chest and I want to cry. Those days include tonight and I don't know why. I wish I can get diagnosed so I don't have to keep telling myself that I'm just lazy or lonely or something.

There are two anime couples that will make me wake up one day and cry every time I time I remember them. Banana Fish amd fucking Cyberpunk Edgerunners.

Thinking about it now, why the fuck would you wanna roleplay as an actual rapist or sexual abuser. Like, I saw someone roleplay as Jimmy from Mouthwashing and then Antinous from Epic (who literally sings about planning to rape Penelope)— Like??? What the fuck???

"Infront of my EGG!?"

"How much do you love noodles?" Yes.

I should draw Haruka... She's looking more and more badass everyday and ugh 🥺 I want her to finally be happy too (rp-wise)

Bsky, I'm sorry for being sus, pls don't flag me down again 😭😭😭