summary of this last spire session

finally got my copy of tomo life the other day and having the best time geoff spends 90% of his time staring and playing with this bear statue i gave him. he’s so stupid i love him.

i’ve been cooking up so much good bismark wol lore i need to write it all down in a more cohesive state that a bunch of random bullet points in my notes app LOL

i love making bismark live in coastal towns because they HATE fish and the smell of them. like sorry it’s the main cuisine of where you live probably.

being hyperfixated on your own ocs is so funny like okay everyone here's the same two guys i made up in my mind again

anyway this post is what has me stewing and rotating bismark again just. the grief and the love is there and it MATTERS but also it definitely does not make them a very good person lmao

I promised myself I wouldn’t start my alt run until I catch up in the game so instead I just get to stew over how long Bismark can maintain their ability to not care while saving the world yippee

i’ve been trying to push myself to post art and not care how much interaction it gets which is SO hard as someone with a lot of rejection sensitivity that has been especially bad lately but also………i gotta get back into being creative i have to do that for ME

‘when i'm gone, don't even try to find me let me be, 'cause i've been at it for so long when i'm ready i'll be back, don't worry (𝘭𝘦𝘵 𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘢 𝘣𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘬, 𝘭𝘦𝘵 𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘢 𝘣𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘬)’

trying to get back into drawing so i doodled this on bunny day but didn’t get a chance to finish until now oops anyway i’ve had BunMark on the brain lately, can’t wait to start my alt run once i finish dawntrail 🔥🐇

modern au geoff buying way too many billy bookshelves from ikea because he thinks it’s funny they’re named after their husband every wall basically has bookshelves now and billie doesn’t have the heart to stop him bc geoff is so chuffed

putting this thought out there mostly just for me but man i started off thinking neil from a/ftg was more similar to fey when i’m actually a fool and it’s very clearly jeremy

going through my pics looking for something else and came across these old doodles of baby bismark with their parents and oughhhhh

I haven’t had any creative energy but suddenly got hit with the urge to write out an entire fic about a whole emotional deconstruction post canon fic for Fet that I’ve had in my head for awhile so……….maybe I will chase that and it will reawaken something in me

I’m not usually a sketch poster (bc i’m too self conscious of them lmao) but have my collection of viera bismarks i’ve been doodling at work bc i can’t get them off my mind 🐰🔥

how dare i actually have to work so much at work i want to daydream and doodle my ocs on post its all day :(

fey tbh

been trying to distract myself by thinking more about bismark’s fun side jaunt into ffxiv and by fun i mean of course their wife is dead again and they’re going through it again

oh man ffxiv!bismark backstory lore already has me insane can’t believe i’m going to play through this entire game again just for my own brainworms

quick viera bismark to try and get back into drawing 🐇🔥

totally forgot about bismark’s bday back in november….fake fan of my own oc smh 😔

maybe i should try drawing more bismark and elya again…..surely that will fix me

rereading old rp stuff and man I can see where a lot of fey’s stuff came from 😔 always had that boy’s emotional state on lock i guess

urban shadows without context “Have a drink, slap an ass”

oh hmmm……adds andrew m1nyard to bismark’s inspo board because. yeah.

thinking about Them 🥺

keep wanting to write a small post campaign fey/rose scene that’s been in my brain but can’t get myself to write oughhhhhhh

i need my creative drive to come back i need to draw bismark and elya it’s been too long

forgot to post these epilogue era feys my favorite little dawnshard champion 🥹☀️💙

sighs and adds “golden” to fey’s playlist

it’s also like a silly regret but feel like in my own mistaken words the real intent of fey’s post canon dreams got a little misconstrued skjdjfkfkf like mostly my own fault but i feel like it ended up seeming much more focused on the occasional justice murder and not the y’know saving people

I feel like Phil can only handle so much of our post-canon Saints plans because we have too much unhinged whimsy about the limits of a magical world LAKDKFJFJFK

Saints epilogue day ☀️ (finally) The girls are engaged!!! 🙌

And you get to see none of it

early saints fey behaviour tbh

bismark keeps trying to do cool things and failing SO BADLY my poor clever bastard

you have to keep going ok.......... for your oc

god this is such a perfect Bismark expression

I have 3 types of TTRPG characters: * Big heart, chaotic good, probably has a Tragic Backstory * Clever bastard, will probably kill you before thinking of befriending you * Lesbian

oh this is so post campaign domestic gavi with the the boys

also just for fun, fey vs bismark height comparison because omg 😂😂

‘𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘮𝘺 𝘱𝘦𝘢𝘤𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘴 𝘢𝘭𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘴 𝘥𝘦𝘱𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘥 𝘖𝘯 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘢𝘴𝘩𝘦𝘴 𝘪𝘯 𝘮𝘺 𝘸𝘢𝘬𝘦’ trying to get back into drawing so you know what that means (bismark time)

been feeling this lately

missing my little (tall) gremlin hours

having extremely Normal oc feelings today 🫠

people might think creating OC lore involves a lot of thinking & planning, but in my personal experience, OC development is more like a divine vision from a god slamming you over the head with a mallet while ur doing the fuckin dishes or folding laundry

no 𝘺𝘰𝘶’𝘳𝘦 thinking about your ocs to avoid overwhelming adult responsibilities

the character development of fey starting to campaign super closed off to his final words as he took down hero being “you really shouldn’t have threatened my friends :)”