kinda funny to think that after chainsaw man ended i can really only use this for random vaguepost venting. anyways i think i'm gonna doodle more reze now

THE UNDERSTANDABLE ENEMIES: 1. THE WORLD 2. THE FLESH

i don't like constantly feeling like i'm gonna throw up but i think i deserved it this time

my neck. my back. my neck and my back

reze reze reze reze

never a good sign for my social life when i start compulsively doodling reze

it's been said before but man. the way some people talk about writing. "i didn't get what i thought i would get out of it so it's bad full stop. and if you claim you got something else out of it and feel differently you're obviously making things up." buddy you're thinking like a textbook fascist.

crying

in retrospect seigi akoku is so funny. "hmm he'll look exactly like agni down to the blinded eye and be named 'justice' to mirror the justice devil actually being the fire devil and he'll keep threatening to be a part of the story" mr motor was definitely kicking his feet and giggling

it's not all bad tbf

farewell, chainsaw man

ok i think i've calmed down. i'm not mad, just disappointed. i wish we had more in like a billion different directions, but realistically speaking there probably wasn't another way to end things. thematically it is very cohesive, in fact it's shockingly in line with so many threads i've written 1/?

A story without catharsis about catharsis being a trap. No climax for Denji. No climax for us.

"a revolution that goes right back to where it began". it tears it all up but never escapes the "chain", the instrument that it was made for. guess that's what it means to be The Chainsaw Man

at least we get funny posts like these out of it

if there's a silver lining it's that the reddit and twitter crowd doesn't seem to be taking it well either. "it's rushed and anticlimactic" like yes you're sooo close. just a lil frustrating that everyone's just treating it like a jjk "author doesn't know what to do" situation. no, far more sinister

one last peace sign: the control devil says "you both belong to me". peace sign, two branches splitting off from one palm. no choices matter, they all lead back to her (institutions/culture of control and exploitation, capitalist realism)

in a way part 2 has always been the academy saga. even if not in a school physically, then metaphorically through its examination of how structures of "normalcy" propagate and what effects they have on people. but not even yoshida's forbidden-ness destroying the physical building could save us from

this really does feel like mr motor's final fuck you to the fans (the real villain of the part). you couldn't let chainsaw man die, you had to turn him into a contextless symbol for your own consumption, make him a vehicle for your own desires. now, are you happy? nothing is resolved, no one moves

last dialogue exchange is two slaves of the system having to rely on their superiors for food. fujimoto i see you. i'm not going insane.

you call part 1's ending a fanfic ending? wanna see a real fanfic ending? do ya?

WE DIDN'T EVEN GET A MOVIE THEATER. FUCK

well, uh,

this feels like that bit in ep 26 of evangelion where shinji sees a saccharine, tropey version of school life with all the characters as flanderized versions of themselves. "i get it. this is another possible world". except here there's no breaking out. we're just in a happy ending that feels so 1/2

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

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1 am thoughts: i think i understand reze a lot

when the school explodes, it isn't just a way to change the setting. it's the symbolic representation of yoshida's realization and denji's realization in tandem. yoshida was happy not because he went to school, but because he was with denji. denji's heterosexual preconceptions have been defeated.

terrible feeling where i'm unsatisfied about a lot of things but seeing other people express their unsatisfaction for frankly stupid things ("why didn't reze come back", "so it was just pointless??", etc) makes me want to retract that initial feeling out of spite.

so denji presumably is dead early without pochita. what does a world without him look like? he's caused so much pain, but also so much joy. he's been an indelible part of so many people's lives for better and worse. what happens when he's gone and they just shrug and move on, having never known?

but you know shonen bros are malding so maybe whatever happens will be good

though i will say denji falling back into the same patterns over and over culminating in chainsaw man (the individual, the story, the popular concept) literally eating itself is kinda sick. you want your "happy ending" (innuendo included)? fine. but here's why happy endings are bad actually

even with it being impossible to say what comes next part of me is still a lil disappointed that it doesn't seem like there'll be any way to continue exploring "denji is asa's makima". he was stopped before the consequences fully took hold. to be disappointed or relieved? i guess i can only wait

son 😭 this had better be the end of part 2 and start of part 3 cause what

asaaaaaa

finally got around to reading walter benjamin's "the work of art in the age of mechanical reproduction" now how can i make this about chainsaw man? aestheticization of violence, contextless reproduction that invites mere use and distraction rather than engagement, an actor who performs not as a 1/?

clothes + inking practice

also wait is that the fucking hollow knight

(canadian) fumiko's biggest fear? being consumed, torn into a million pieces, forced to live on unnaturally even after "death". oh you poor girl

"if that bird had been able to fly, thinking only happy thoughts..." as denji crawls menacingly toward her and his head is positioned like he's going to eat her. simple but effective example of that efficient storytelling i love so much

boom

angel of encouragement

pissed her off so much she achieved inner peace 😭😭

just listened to hamilton again for the first time in a while and was not prepared for how much i would physically hurt by the end. holy fuck i forgot how good this show was

the town mouse and the country mouse in my textbook jumpscare

ok the birds are ominous but it's felt like things were coming to a head in this fight for like 5 chapters in a row and they didn't so i'm just hoping this is an intentional elaborate troll on mr motor's part

genuinely what the fuck is inking

happy year of the horse with manhattan cafe

"what's your most liked artwork this year" it's this. this thing i drew in like 5 minutes with my phone for a gimmick account's strawpage. it's not even my post. if this happens again next year i think i'm actually going to have to k*ll myself