I just want something new to look forward to. Something that genuinely makes me feel HAPPY.

What's even worse is that I don't have anyone to talk to or hang out with outside of work. I just simply talk to myself 24/7. And the solo outings and day trips are not any better either. I get bored quickly and my mood drops instantly.

Throughout the day, I feel like I always watched myself in a loophole from a distance. Doing the same thing every day over and over again. I didn't realize that I was at work until now.

Just me hating on my life as usual. All I do is work and that's it. Lower back hurts so bad and feet swelled up due to foot pain. Outside of work, I have a hard time not being present, being disconnected with people, and being unable to enjoy anything. I'm tired of it. 🫩

✨ Finally adding colors to one of my Vanna sketches from 2025. ✨

✨ Finally adding colors to one of my Vanna sketches from 2025. ✨

Chloe Tavion's outfits (Armor Outfit and Camp Outfit) #tavqotd #baldursgate3 #bg3

I'm telling you. Looking at fashion week runways and fashion/hair magazines help give you ideas for your OC designs. That's how I came up with Vanna's spy outfit back in 2023.

I wish I was more happy, but it's hard to enjoy anything or be in the present anymore. When I tried to go window shopping or eat at a restaurant out of town today, I just felt so bored. No excitement. No spark. Just nothing.

✨️ Tekken: Master Raven (2022) ✨️

✨️ Tekken: Master Raven (2022) ✨️

✨️ Tekken: Lucky Chloe wearing the iconic King look from Tekken 3 (2022) ✨️

I'm feeling more winded and fatigued than usual. Autoimmune disease problems.

Big Vanna Illustration WIP sitting in my folder since 2025.

Big Vanna Illustration WIP sitting in my folder since 2025.

I am working on making art prints to sell at $25! ✨️💖

Dreamcast cover illustration featuring my OC, Vanna. Created in the Procreate app. #Procreate #illustration #characterart #digitalart #retro #retroart

Bad drawing day vs Good drawing day

✨ Shadow boobs ✨ #illustration #procreate

✨ Shadow boobs ✨ #illustration #procreate

I think this is the most raw, personal thing that I ever drew this year. I was worried I would be misunderstood, judged, or victim blamed again, but I was wrong. Thank you for understanding my experience from my point of view.

My Charcuterie board!

Charcuterie board day! 🙏🏾✨️

Astarion De Lioncourt ✨ • • #BaldursGate3 #Astarion #Durge #InterviewWithTheVampire #LestatDeLioncourt

Working on something. #wip

Working on something. #wip

What can I do to make art enjoyable again? Social media pressure, algorithms, AI art slops, and lack of art commissions make me believe that my art is shit and not good enough.

What can I do to make art enjoyable again? Social media pressure, algorithms, AI art slops, and lack of art commissions make me believe that my art is shit and not good enough.

✨️ Key to her heart (2023) ✨️

✨️ Key to her heart (2023) ✨️

Karlach WIP #bg3 #BaldursGate3 #karlach

Same Endless Cycle: Go to work from 8:30 and don’t get home until 6pm. Too tired to do anything outside of work. Always feel irritation and disconnection from being around other people. Just bed rotting on days off.

What is one thing you like about my art? I'm just asking out of boredom. 🤔

All I did was bedrotting and sleeping in most of the day.

Feeling nothing but lost.

Vanna lore crumbs

I know I have to hold on to my housekeeper job until I find something else better. However, I just want to put in my two weeks notice without something else lined up and be done with it. I already dread waking up, hate feeling exhausted, and being unhappy.

Bad drawing day vs Good drawing day

A lot of redditors are in their feelings when I posted my sketch today. I'm just expressing my feelings when it comes to certain things by drawing. That's all. 🤷🏾‍♀️

Morning doodles of me making stank faces at dusty men when they bothering me.

Morning doodles of me making stank faces at dusty men when they bothering me.

I am so tired of being worked like a dog at my job. I am burnt out. Exhausted.

There is nothing worse than having to work today while my autoimmune disease attacking my whole body. I have to clean 16 rooms, and it's slowing me down.

✨️ Playful Vanna (2020) ✨️ #artistsonbluesky #procreate #illustration

✨️ Playful Vanna (2020) ✨️ #artistsonbluesky #procreate #illustration

✨ Leaving this here ✨

✨ Leaving this here ✨

It takes tremendous strength to held my tongue back and not cuss out a hotel guest/customer. Never in my life I want to cuss someone out so bad today. 🤬

✨Fantasy Glow✨ #artistsonbluesky #DND #DNDart #fantasyart