ngggg....

endless rehabilitation sucks...

my family: please help us plow the fields tomorrow. me: i'll do that. my family: we already finished it today. me:

phaq

🐍Black Mamba (Dendroaspis polylepis) in Malmö Reptilcenter, Sweden. Named for the black inside of its mouth. Max confirmed size 380 cm (12'6"). Found in sub-Saharan Africa - prefers habitats like light woodlands, savannas and lowland forests. Considered Least Concern by the IUCN. 📷by plesnercph

i'm often ignored by others suddenly. and I may or may not notice why...

Common myna (Acridotheres tristis) in Malmö Reptilcenter, Sweden. 📷by plesnercph (on a phone)

sorry, i dislike the "diversity". because, i can't accept the opinion: "we can reject everybody else who has an irregular opinion against ours". rejection against rejection. i mean bullies suck.

it's still difficult for me to be ignored. and also i worry whether i sometimes ignore others or not. meh...

whenever i talk with others, i always feel isolated. but it can't be helped.

a bad event happened today, so i feel bad, and tries to be fine now.

when i am determined to approach others, basically i already prepared to be rejected by them. and, somebody looking close and friendly is just a "landmine"... after all.

.......

in another place of mine, i was determined to allow only somebody that i follow to send replies.

depression sucks

if my memorizing skill wouldn't be poor, i'd try to go to college. but me in real life has an eternal noob brain only.

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the human race has always suffered from their own products.

garbages suck

i want to discard my mind completely

fuck

🐍Red-bellied black snake (Pseudechis porphyriacus). Max. length 250 cm (8'2"), though 150 cm (4'11") is more common. Venomous. Eats mostly frogs, but reptiles, small mammals and even fish are eaten, too. Found in eastern Australia. Considered Least Concern by the IUCN. 📷by Storme22k on Pixabay

Had to draw them bsky.app/profile/clai... It's like some strange old sitcom that would show up for a summer on Nick at Nite, but with birds.

now i have a negative value of the motivation for drawing. and i hate the remaining summer heat.

what i can't do but i have to do what i want to do but i can't now what i can do but i hate it : my circumstances

🦎Emma Gray's forest lizard or forest garden lizard (Calotes emma), Max. size ~38 cm (~15"), most of which is its tail. Found in in Bangladesh, Cambodia, China, India, Laos, Malaysia, Myanmar, Thailand and Vietnam Insectivore. Considered Least Concern by the IUCN. 📷by Erik_Karits on Pixabay.

i thought i decided not to care about a smol turtle in question. but whenever I see their peeping eyes and their quick hiding attitudes, i feel and am relieved that they is still alive. since i noticed it, i feel disgusted with myself. cuz ppl in my country dislike alive critters except cooked.

🐍Caspian whipsnake (Dolichophis caspius). Max size 200 cm (6'7"). Found in Albania, Bulgaria, Croatia, Georgia, Greece, Hungary, Kazakhstan, Macedonia, Moldova, Montenegro, Romania, Russia, Serbia, Turkey and Ukraine. Considered Least Concern by the IUCN. 📷by Miihailo Jovicevic on Pexels

anyway exhausted today and tomorrow

diversity? ah, i think it has to be like this: "heh, i hate it. so gross, i wanna make them annihilated from everywhere. but it's one of my buddy's favorites. so it's a present for them. so dirty. now i wanna give it to them soon and clean up my hands quickly.... hah? you also like it? take it!"

can *m accept newer *m or previous M* as *m in the fictional fields? will M* continuously give priority to your comrades, even if they are *m in the fictional fields?

am i just a being without the determination to fight against the threats? no, i am just a being without the strength to live in society as one of the general ppl.

coming out about myself? sorry, i'll bring my own secret to my own grave.

I know that you have been wondering but yes, bush turkeys eat banana! 😁

trouble slump

🦎Fiji Crested Iguana (Brachylophus vitiensis) in Hartley's Crocodile Adventures. Max. size 80 cm (31.5"), 2/3 of which is the tail. Herbivorous, though young ones also eat insects. Found in forests on the islands of Fiji. Considered Critically Endangered by the IUCN. 📷by David Clode on Unsplash

Alison loves Hallowe'en so I whipped up a silly little thing for her.

🦎Crested gecko (Correlophus ciliatus). Max size 25 cm (10"). Arboreal. Found in rainforests of New Caledonia and on the adjacent Isle of Pines. Thought to be extinct in the wild but rediscovered in 1994. Considered Vulnerable by the IUCN. 📷by No-longer-here on Pixabay

Australian Pied Oystercatcher (Haematopus longirostris) I saw a bird who stood up and started behaving strangely. A quick look and I spotted the nest. Two quick shots with a 300mm lens then a quick back off to minimise the disturbance. #Birds #AustralianPiedOystercatcher #Haematopuslongirostris

if i'd have a time machine, ...i'd kill to tell myself in the past, "YOU HAD BETTER AVOID FROM WATCHING FF7AC AND FROM BEING INTERESTED IN DRAWING SOMETHING. YOU'LL ALREADY BE PREVENTED FROM DOING WHAT YOU WANT BY YOUR FAMILY IN YOUR FUTURE...well, i'll go watching dinosaurs lonely. farewell, shit."

i want to throw my own mind into a trash can again.

whenever i suffer from depression, i'm literally isolated... or i suffer from depression because i'm literally isolated...?

my depression always sucks.

... ah, i see. but it can't be helped.

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