Today I woke up and was reflecting on why I have been so sensitive to people blocking me on social media and I realize actually I think I just have lingering ptsd from when a friend I considered to be close to me blocked me out of the blue, ghosted me, and then told all our mutuals she was “worried”

Hungry and tired and hungry

my art is def stagnating again now that i haven't really drawn anything outside my comfort zone in a month or so but its been nice to just draw the same easy thing over and over again?

so anyways I’m in pain as expected wtf

At this point gut issues and me are inseparable. I am here at 6am letting the world know that if you ever come across a xin that’s not suffering from stomach pain she’s an imposter.

WEEKEND FREEDOM. for 2.5 days

Especially after my fitness craze a while ago I found out that outside is super enjoyable (only in 18-24C weather when it’s blue sky and not raining out) otherwise I’m gonna stay home and draw thanks

growing up made me realize I don’t hate socializing I just hate being cold outside because ya girl neurodivergent

Stomach hurt been hurting all day no work progress help me I’m going to explode soon

since I’m back on eng twitter I see some vtuber tweets from time to time and someone explain why people r mad at companies for not hiring newbies

since not everyone is on twitter is anyone here willing to donate ur voice for a tenipuri group cover? 🎾🎵

is crazy u retire fr and it’s so obv who was ur friend and who wasn’t. lol. lmao even.

新年快乐家人们！happy new year!! #初音ミク

china this deep seek that maybe it’s time to look for avenues for employment in china in the long term

www.youtube.com/watch?v=a1bc... great video. haven't watched a zepla video since her crazy transphobic tangent from a while ago but this honest to god is like most of my complaints about dawntrail fr.

🎉 祝大家新年快乐! 🎉 Wishing everyone a Happy Scree Year! #FFXIV #FFXIVART #yunnart

:) officially retired fr

Thanks @xinranm.bsky.social for your Halovian!Yuki hc! In this AU he’s an herbalist on Penacony, providing visitors with enhancements to make their dreams even sweeter and their worries melt away. But those who patronize his shop ought to be careful what they ask for… roses always come with thorns…

Next up, Krile and Alisaie #FFXIV

Making a pinned post of the FFXIV playing cards - I'll add to this thread two cards at a time. Info on how to support the making of the deck and order info once it's done will also be here when available. First up, G'raha Tia and Zero. #FFXIV

the mood today

Fruits of labour

Chinese new year prep so far lmfao

SCH Arthur and Eos by @/6_xXx_x via Skeb! They drew him so cute... 🥺 #commissioned

I decided not to be a pussy and started looking for a different jp tutor 💀 I cancelled my class for tomorrow and gonna start looking for a new one next week lol

malatang

I caved into the trend

Fighting primal urge to sleep after work because you have plans but so very sleepy

Maybe I just lack empathy. I’m realizing I just don’t obsess over anime characters the same way people do. I *thought* I love Atobe but apparently my ability to like him in anyway, anytime, any dynamic or ship is abnormal. And I just can’t empathize with this at all. Like I guess yay for me but

im mentally ill and wanna play fru but i don't want to do a static but i don't want to pf by myself or pf in general life is sad

🔷 NEW UPLOAD 🔷 【UTAU Cover】 crack 【緋惺 / Akesato】 first cover of the year yippie!!! ◽ YT: youtu.be/T7xMdPGihz8 ◽ SC: soundcloud.com/akemiyuyu2/u... ◽ NICO: www.nicovideo.jp/watch/sm4456...

Anyways I’m bitter because I made steamed eggs today and left them in the steamer for too long and they were too solid but I still ate it but now I’m sad

now that dt is over for a while now people seem to be more willing to hear the opinion that the story was the weakest it’s been since ARR….. or worse. :/ I still can’t believe they flunked this hard. It wasn’t easy to write something good for the expac yeah but this is…. it’s so not memorable

I’ve decided to cut off social ties with jp twitter after Valentine’s Day and just use that account to post my tezuato art once in a while. I’m no longer going to really interact with the other fans minus maybe browsing and liking art from time to time. It’s nice. I feel better now.

btw i ship this very much: >war ptsd doctor surgeon, genius surgeon who prioritizes life over everything else >single windowed father internal medicine doctor who has ptsd of incompetent surgeons and refuse to hand his patients over to surgery-hungry surgeons its perfect. appreciate old man yaoi.

its really funny i was going to put him side by side with a shirtless photo from the show but i googled it and i cant find a single one are u serious i swear he's shirtless at least like 5 times in each season this is censorship

m tired

my fav fake doctor

i might even rewatch iryu medical dragon to feel something, who knows. that's my comfort jp drama.

im crawling back from my slump already!!! declared my teni hiatus for a month and did my jp homework for tomorrow morning!! nothing can stop me!! going to work on adhd diagnosis too!! rahhhhh!!!!!!!

themis #ffxiv

maybe ill clean her up too........................thinking about it

first animation ever \o/ csp animation > photoshop

Be awed by my prowess! Prince of Tennis was almost my first cosplay - I'm so happy I got around to it sooner than later with such gorgeous photos! #princeoftennis #tenipuri #テニスの王子様 📷: @allyspock.bsky.social

gonna take a break from my tennis twitter for a week or so and just work on my comic in the background :( im sad i wont be able to see art anymore but i think i need some reset time.

Lately feeling mega overwhelmed with trying to accomplish lots of stuff all at once. It’s weird because I love drawing my boys and I do want to learn Japanese but if at the end of the day everyone is actually tatemae and hate me what then? I feel a little bit stupid and a little bit crazy lately

i have free will and ordered 4 packs of coke zero to my door. nothing can stop my aspartame addiction.

I moved them in and realize I need lights

I am eternally thankful for the collection of fictional boys that keep me strung together